Just saw this on CNN yesterday (or ROBtv?), Merrill Lynch is holding a boot camp for people in their twenties. No no, not the band camp, not the boy scout.
These twenty something must have personal investable assets over $50 million US, they will spend 1 week at Wharton School of Business to learn how to manage/diversify/balance their investment portfolios (I thought that is my job?), how to ask for a large loan, how to write up a prenuptial agreement (!?!)...
Of course, there were only about 3 dozen people there, but if you think about it, that is at $1.8 billion in that lecture hall.
Personal wealth is deemed quite important in this materialistic world, but how wealthy is considered wealthy enough? If you ask anyone who is rich if he/she thinks he/she is rich enough? The answer is probably going to be no, greed is at play here. And greed is what drives the world, or at least, the business world.
As Gordon Gekko in "Wall Street" said the best:
"The point is, ladies and gentlemen, that: Greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right; greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through, and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of its forms, greed for life, for money, for love, knowledge — has marked the upward surge of mankind and greed,..."
12/29/2006
12/25/2006
Merry X'mas to all of you!
Best wishes to all my friends:
To my A list friends,
hope you had a good xmas party with your family and other A list friends.
To my B list friends,
hope you had a good xmas party with your love one.
To my C list friends,
hope you had a good xmas party with your hubbie/wife.
To my D list friends,
hope you had a crappy xmas party, because you never returned my phone calls.
To my A list friends,
hope you had a good xmas party with your family and other A list friends.
To my B list friends,
hope you had a good xmas party with your love one.
To my C list friends,
hope you had a good xmas party with your hubbie/wife.
To my D list friends,
hope you had a crappy xmas party, because you never returned my phone calls.
12/22/2006
A toast to the merry married couple
Wishing you
A house full of sunshine,
Hearts full of cheer,
Love that grows deeper
each day of the year.
A house full of sunshine,
Hearts full of cheer,
Love that grows deeper
each day of the year.
12/19/2006
Save the last dance for me...
There is always something missing in taiwanese/hong kong love songs, they are always depressing, they usually are about the uncertainty in relationships. Either your love is leaving you, you are in love with someone else, or you are not sure where you are in a relationship.
What is missing are the maturity, and confidence required in a healthy relationship. Consider the following song...
Save the last dance for me
You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the musics fine
Like sparklin' wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
And don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never, never let you go
I love you oh so much
You can dance, go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home, you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
Save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the musics fine
Like sparklin' wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
And don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
So don't forget who's taking you home
Or in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me
Ooooh
Baby won't you save the last dance for me.
You make the promise that you save the last dance for me.
Save the last dance
The very last dance
For me!
This is recently performed by Michael Buble. The narrator is telling the girl to go out and have fun with anyone she feels like, but at the end of the night, to save that one last dance for him.
If the same story was done in mandarin/cantonese, it might be very different. You can imagine a guy pleaing to the girl, please don't go, but if you have to go, please don't dance with other guys, but if you have to dance with others, don't go home with them, but you have to go home with them... please love me... please please...
Trust requires certain maturity and confidence, especially confidence. Just like in the song, when performed by Mr. Buble, you can tell that the narrator is very confident that she will be back for the good stuff at the end of the night.
And, I see that as the biggest difference between a mature relationship and a chinese/taiwanese pop song relationship.
Btw, the original song done in the 60s was about this war veteran who lost his legs, telling his wife who love to dance, to have fun, but remember to come back home to him...
What is missing are the maturity, and confidence required in a healthy relationship. Consider the following song...
Save the last dance for me
You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the musics fine
Like sparklin' wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
And don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never, never let you go
I love you oh so much
You can dance, go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home, you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
Save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the musics fine
Like sparklin' wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
And don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
So don't forget who's taking you home
Or in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me
Ooooh
Baby won't you save the last dance for me.
You make the promise that you save the last dance for me.
Save the last dance
The very last dance
For me!
This is recently performed by Michael Buble. The narrator is telling the girl to go out and have fun with anyone she feels like, but at the end of the night, to save that one last dance for him.
If the same story was done in mandarin/cantonese, it might be very different. You can imagine a guy pleaing to the girl, please don't go, but if you have to go, please don't dance with other guys, but if you have to dance with others, don't go home with them, but you have to go home with them... please love me... please please...
Trust requires certain maturity and confidence, especially confidence. Just like in the song, when performed by Mr. Buble, you can tell that the narrator is very confident that she will be back for the good stuff at the end of the night.
And, I see that as the biggest difference between a mature relationship and a chinese/taiwanese pop song relationship.
Btw, the original song done in the 60s was about this war veteran who lost his legs, telling his wife who love to dance, to have fun, but remember to come back home to him...
12/14/2006
舊情敵
幾個月前，我去公司附近的MALL吃午餐，在等待的時候，習慣性的東張西望。在一樓的攤位中，看見了我初戀時期的舊情敵...
在一些運動服裝中，我依悉認得出他的臉，看起來胖了些，看起來老了些。他坐在電腦前，打了一個呵欠，看來生意不是太好。我看著他，初戀時候的情節在腦海中一頁頁翻過。他是我初戀對象當時的男朋友，當初戀離開他的時候，他唱了許志安的心血給我的初戀聽...
心血
發覺你變得敷衍我 你的手逃避觸摸到我
若晚上和我坐 亦無言無話像厭我
你可知心多麼不好過麼
但你共我 同渡過生命悲傷歡暢
每次風霜把我們越擦亮
我問你難道你捨得這些心血
棄掉我倆 求你別這樣
誰如我愛你那麼多 別當我猶如路過
為何仍然贈我這苦楚
誰如我愛你那麼多 原來從未認識我
還是未真過
何故你似再也不喜歡我
縱相擁如陌生者一個 是我們完了吧
或旁人隨便代替我 我怕知
知得多增添痛楚
誰如我愛你那麼多 別當我猶如路過
為何仍然贈我這苦楚
誰如我愛你那麼多 原來從未認識我
還是未真過
每當我聽到'求你別這樣'的時候，總會想到一個哭泣的男孩...
後來，我和我的初戀分手幾個月後，我和她在夜市中看見了我的舊情敵在擺攤，我們聊了幾句，我們已經有各自的歸宿，覺得自己好像都長大了很多。
再度MALL裡遇到他的時候，覺得我們都老很多了。過幾個月，那個攤位已經不見了，不知道他有沒有看見我，不知道他是不是也覺得我也老了很多?
在一些運動服裝中，我依悉認得出他的臉，看起來胖了些，看起來老了些。他坐在電腦前，打了一個呵欠，看來生意不是太好。我看著他，初戀時候的情節在腦海中一頁頁翻過。他是我初戀對象當時的男朋友，當初戀離開他的時候，他唱了許志安的心血給我的初戀聽...
心血
發覺你變得敷衍我 你的手逃避觸摸到我
若晚上和我坐 亦無言無話像厭我
你可知心多麼不好過麼
但你共我 同渡過生命悲傷歡暢
每次風霜把我們越擦亮
我問你難道你捨得這些心血
棄掉我倆 求你別這樣
誰如我愛你那麼多 別當我猶如路過
為何仍然贈我這苦楚
誰如我愛你那麼多 原來從未認識我
還是未真過
何故你似再也不喜歡我
縱相擁如陌生者一個 是我們完了吧
或旁人隨便代替我 我怕知
知得多增添痛楚
誰如我愛你那麼多 別當我猶如路過
為何仍然贈我這苦楚
誰如我愛你那麼多 原來從未認識我
還是未真過
每當我聽到'求你別這樣'的時候，總會想到一個哭泣的男孩...
後來，我和我的初戀分手幾個月後，我和她在夜市中看見了我的舊情敵在擺攤，我們聊了幾句，我們已經有各自的歸宿，覺得自己好像都長大了很多。
再度MALL裡遇到他的時候，覺得我們都老很多了。過幾個月，那個攤位已經不見了，不知道他有沒有看見我，不知道他是不是也覺得我也老了很多?
12/11/2006
溫哥華的雪
今年的冬天好像來的特別早，女孩看著窗外已經下了一天一夜的雪，越看越是心煩。
她看手中的電話，越洋號碼只撥了一半，猶豫著要不要打給他…
嘆了口氣，她放下電話，幫自己煮了一杯咖啡，看著窗外白色的世界。她想起自己從來都不喜歡喝咖啡，但自從遇到他後，已經習慣每個早上喝一杯。
台灣應該是晚上十點，現在打去應該不會太晚…
回想三個月前，他興高采烈的在電話上告訴她年底要結婚，她到現在都還不很確定該有怎樣的反應。他在電話裡，email裡不斷的邀請她回去，他很希望她可以參加他的婚禮。她一口拒絕了，回去要以什麼身分? 自己是不是可以忍受的住?
但他的email一封一封的來，有他和她的婚紗照，她一封都沒有回，一封都沒有看。她是很確定已經不再愛他，但離可以祝福他，還有一段距離。
不是的，那並不是她的初戀，也不是她最愛的，也不是她最忘不了的，只是結束太過愕然，好像兩人之間還沒有一個完美的句點。回憶他們相遇的季節，好像也是下雪的時候，從相遇到相戀，從相戀到分開，好像雪都還沒有機會溶化。
為什麼喜歡他，她已經不大記得了，他像大孩子的個性，倒是記得清清楚楚，他總是有意無意的挑起她心中的漣洟，但說過後兩天就忘了乾乾淨淨。五個月前見到他，他還說他還是很喜歡她，一直忘不了她，她那時只有一笑置之，不做回應。 果然，兩個月後就接到他的喜訊。
她放下手中的咖啡，一口氣撥了他的電話，響了幾聲，跳到了語音信箱，她留下祝福的口訊，不外乎是白頭偕老，早生貴子一類的話，順便道歉她因為工作關係不能參加他的婚禮。
因為工作? 她自己都不信的理由，她忍不住輕聲一笑。手上的電話響了起來，是他，那一頭聽起來人聲吵雜，他說朋友們要在他單身的最後一晚，把他灌到不行，還好她的電話救了他一命。她聽他嘮嘮叨叨的抱怨奔東走西為婚禮而忙碌， 她感覺到時間好像在他們之間流過，過去的事已經過去了，他用半醉半醒的聲音說她不能回來，他好難過，真希望她能在那祝福他的幸福。不必了吧，她想，兩條線交叉而過，不再相逢，又何必強求?
掛了電話，她看窗外的雪好像已經沒有那麼煩人。明天改喝綠茶吧，她告訴自己…
她才想起，她忘了告訴他溫哥華的大雪…
她看手中的電話，越洋號碼只撥了一半，猶豫著要不要打給他…
嘆了口氣，她放下電話，幫自己煮了一杯咖啡，看著窗外白色的世界。她想起自己從來都不喜歡喝咖啡，但自從遇到他後，已經習慣每個早上喝一杯。
台灣應該是晚上十點，現在打去應該不會太晚…
回想三個月前，他興高采烈的在電話上告訴她年底要結婚，她到現在都還不很確定該有怎樣的反應。他在電話裡，email裡不斷的邀請她回去，他很希望她可以參加他的婚禮。她一口拒絕了，回去要以什麼身分? 自己是不是可以忍受的住?
但他的email一封一封的來，有他和她的婚紗照，她一封都沒有回，一封都沒有看。她是很確定已經不再愛他，但離可以祝福他，還有一段距離。
不是的，那並不是她的初戀，也不是她最愛的，也不是她最忘不了的，只是結束太過愕然，好像兩人之間還沒有一個完美的句點。回憶他們相遇的季節，好像也是下雪的時候，從相遇到相戀，從相戀到分開，好像雪都還沒有機會溶化。
為什麼喜歡他，她已經不大記得了，他像大孩子的個性，倒是記得清清楚楚，他總是有意無意的挑起她心中的漣洟，但說過後兩天就忘了乾乾淨淨。五個月前見到他，他還說他還是很喜歡她，一直忘不了她，她那時只有一笑置之，不做回應。 果然，兩個月後就接到他的喜訊。
她放下手中的咖啡，一口氣撥了他的電話，響了幾聲，跳到了語音信箱，她留下祝福的口訊，不外乎是白頭偕老，早生貴子一類的話，順便道歉她因為工作關係不能參加他的婚禮。
因為工作? 她自己都不信的理由，她忍不住輕聲一笑。手上的電話響了起來，是他，那一頭聽起來人聲吵雜，他說朋友們要在他單身的最後一晚，把他灌到不行，還好她的電話救了他一命。她聽他嘮嘮叨叨的抱怨奔東走西為婚禮而忙碌， 她感覺到時間好像在他們之間流過，過去的事已經過去了，他用半醉半醒的聲音說她不能回來，他好難過，真希望她能在那祝福他的幸福。不必了吧，她想，兩條線交叉而過，不再相逢，又何必強求?
掛了電話，她看窗外的雪好像已經沒有那麼煩人。明天改喝綠茶吧，她告訴自己…
她才想起，她忘了告訴他溫哥華的大雪…
12/07/2006
Lambofsilence, meet James Yang
A few years back, out of boredom, I googled myself, and found there is actually a guy with the same name, and a website named after him (or me) www.jamesyang.com.
Last month, I actually found James Yang's blog on my friend's blogspot link, he is using blogspot as well! Taking a second look at James Yang's website, he is a graphic designer who lives in New York, has sculpture in museum, done children's book, and did I mention living in New York?
To find someone with the same name living a different life in a different city is quite interesting. Then, to find that person might be 2 degree seperation from you is kind of creepy. But it is interesting though, I wonder what happens if this person looks/acts like me? Would I be envious of his life?
By the way, I have done search on lambofsilence as well, this time, I found myself. :)
Last month, I actually found James Yang's blog on my friend's blogspot link, he is using blogspot as well! Taking a second look at James Yang's website, he is a graphic designer who lives in New York, has sculpture in museum, done children's book, and did I mention living in New York?
To find someone with the same name living a different life in a different city is quite interesting. Then, to find that person might be 2 degree seperation from you is kind of creepy. But it is interesting though, I wonder what happens if this person looks/acts like me? Would I be envious of his life?
By the way, I have done search on lambofsilence as well, this time, I found myself. :)
12/05/2006
Breakfast at Tiffany.... in Vancouver
Tiffany & Co is opening its newest standalone store on alberni and burrard in downtown Vancouver. Of course its baby blue boxes and whats inside the boxes are what many ladies and girls want for Xmas. This grand opening features a $500,000 blue diamond ring and $100,000 diamond necklace. Funny though, if you have both, you still cannot buy a house in vancouver. According the the latest figure, the average housing price in Vancouver is $700,000.
People talk about breakfast at Tiffany, for those who haven't seen this film, I highly recommend it. Other than the charming love story, Audrey Hepburn's character is very recognizable.
Holly played by Audrey, is a young woman in her twenties, ran away from a rural home where she was married at 14. She wants to be in films, so she moved to Hollywood, then to New York. When that doesn't work out, she then decides to get married, to a rich man from brazil.
Paul played by George Peppard, is a young writer who has problem writing novels, instead, he lives on a much older married woman.
When they met, things got interesting, Holly gets into trouble, and keeps on trying new things. Paul gets inspired and started writing his novels, which finally got published.
They have different ways to handle their lives when they feel it wasn't a life they wanted. Holly was the reason Paul needed to get out of his routine, and Holly denies any reason (including Paul and her nameless cat) for her to settle down.
The film ends in a classic hollywood way, a short chase in the rain, and hug and kiss. Although the original novel by Truman Capote did not have a romantic happy ending, and Marilyn Monroe was supposed to play Holly.
It is great to see Holly finally stopped running away from herself, but I still see some girls running, running away from themselves...
People talk about breakfast at Tiffany, for those who haven't seen this film, I highly recommend it. Other than the charming love story, Audrey Hepburn's character is very recognizable.
Holly played by Audrey, is a young woman in her twenties, ran away from a rural home where she was married at 14. She wants to be in films, so she moved to Hollywood, then to New York. When that doesn't work out, she then decides to get married, to a rich man from brazil.
Paul played by George Peppard, is a young writer who has problem writing novels, instead, he lives on a much older married woman.
When they met, things got interesting, Holly gets into trouble, and keeps on trying new things. Paul gets inspired and started writing his novels, which finally got published.
They have different ways to handle their lives when they feel it wasn't a life they wanted. Holly was the reason Paul needed to get out of his routine, and Holly denies any reason (including Paul and her nameless cat) for her to settle down.
The film ends in a classic hollywood way, a short chase in the rain, and hug and kiss. Although the original novel by Truman Capote did not have a romantic happy ending, and Marilyn Monroe was supposed to play Holly.
It is great to see Holly finally stopped running away from herself, but I still see some girls running, running away from themselves...
11/22/2006
下一個永遠
記得某次失戀的時候，有個朋友在網上送了一首歌給我，下一個永遠。我聽了之後跟我朋友說她是想要我哭死嗎，沒事給我這麼悲的歌做什麼。朋友沒有回應，倒是問我為什麼叫下一個永遠? 永遠不就是永遠嗎? 如果要找下一個，上一個就不是永遠啦~
這首歌是很標準的張信哲，很哀怨，又什麼都不敢做，連恨都不敢。現在我會有點唾棄這種愛情，但又不得不思考它的邏輯，什麼是下一個永遠?
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那天 是一條界線 你忘了好好說再見
只留下背影是我腦海經典的畫面
我獨自站在曾經愛與心痛的邊緣
在城市里流漣 卻看不見 下個永遠
明天過後如果變成另外一個人
今天是我最後做個愛你的罪人
從此以後忘了你是我最愛的人
不要再一直留在原地回憶著傷痕
時間 原來就是考驗 讓過去都成了紀念
就像在手心長出了一塊死去的繭
麻痹了痛的感覺卻還是留在那邊
陪著我到未來 繼續尋找下個永遠
希望醒來以後就是全新一個人
日日夜夜不再為愛付出那麼深
希望可以忘了你是我最愛的人
能像你一樣推開大門就去愛別人
多希望 有天偶然再遇見
我們都各自擁抱 下一個永遠
明天過後如果變成另外一個人
今天我就是最後做個愛你的罪人
從此以後忘了你是我最愛的人
不要再一直留在原地回憶著傷痕
希望醒來以後就是全新一個人
日日夜夜不再為愛付出那么深
希望可以忘了你是我最愛的人
要像你一樣推開大門就去愛別人
希望有一天 偶然能在回憶遇見
我們都走到下一個永遠
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我想大部分的人談戀愛都是希望美好，可以天長地久，但真正可以做到永永遠遠是不可能的，就算結婚也不過是幾十年，兩個只要有一個先離開世間，永遠就不成立了。
但我們都還是相信這段愛情是永遠，所以當它不是永遠的時候，我們就希望下一段愛情是永遠，是積極? 還是消極? 是童話? 還是天方夜譚?
只有你自己可以回答…
這首歌是很標準的張信哲，很哀怨，又什麼都不敢做，連恨都不敢。現在我會有點唾棄這種愛情，但又不得不思考它的邏輯，什麼是下一個永遠?
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那天 是一條界線 你忘了好好說再見
只留下背影是我腦海經典的畫面
我獨自站在曾經愛與心痛的邊緣
在城市里流漣 卻看不見 下個永遠
明天過後如果變成另外一個人
今天是我最後做個愛你的罪人
從此以後忘了你是我最愛的人
不要再一直留在原地回憶著傷痕
時間 原來就是考驗 讓過去都成了紀念
就像在手心長出了一塊死去的繭
麻痹了痛的感覺卻還是留在那邊
陪著我到未來 繼續尋找下個永遠
希望醒來以後就是全新一個人
日日夜夜不再為愛付出那麼深
希望可以忘了你是我最愛的人
能像你一樣推開大門就去愛別人
多希望 有天偶然再遇見
我們都各自擁抱 下一個永遠
明天過後如果變成另外一個人
今天我就是最後做個愛你的罪人
從此以後忘了你是我最愛的人
不要再一直留在原地回憶著傷痕
希望醒來以後就是全新一個人
日日夜夜不再為愛付出那么深
希望可以忘了你是我最愛的人
要像你一樣推開大門就去愛別人
希望有一天 偶然能在回憶遇見
我們都走到下一個永遠
____________________________
我想大部分的人談戀愛都是希望美好，可以天長地久，但真正可以做到永永遠遠是不可能的，就算結婚也不過是幾十年，兩個只要有一個先離開世間，永遠就不成立了。
但我們都還是相信這段愛情是永遠，所以當它不是永遠的時候，我們就希望下一段愛情是永遠，是積極? 還是消極? 是童話? 還是天方夜譚?
只有你自己可以回答…
11/18/2006
給想不開的女人...
身為妳的朋友，我真的很擔心，為他做了那麼多，妳到底得到了什麼?
他的心不會因為你的付出而改變，他的人更不會為你的淚停留。
妳問我他為什麼? 我只能說他不愛妳，真的不夠愛妳，至少他愛妳沒有多過愛他自己，也許他從來沒有把妳當作可以停留的對象。妳又問，是不是他還沒有到那個時候? 我不能回答，但我肯定，如果妳要等，會是很久的一段時間，妳會賠上妳的青春，也許還是得不到他。相信我，也有愛過我的女人，希望時間能改變我，結果她等了多年，我還是沒有辦法給她什麼...
看看妳為他身心皆傷，值得嗎? 妳有開心嗎?
妳曾說過妳要簡簡單單的愛，但妳有做到嗎? 妳現在的愛一點都不簡單，而是火花四濺，傷的又只有妳，不值得也不公平...
妳也不是小女孩了，要為自己的幸福負責，如果不開心，就要設法讓自己開心，妳有許多未來，不必為現在折磨，妳有許多可能，不必為他而失去快樂，除非，妳要的就是轟轟烈烈的不快樂...
他的心不會因為你的付出而改變，他的人更不會為你的淚停留。
妳問我他為什麼? 我只能說他不愛妳，真的不夠愛妳，至少他愛妳沒有多過愛他自己，也許他從來沒有把妳當作可以停留的對象。妳又問，是不是他還沒有到那個時候? 我不能回答，但我肯定，如果妳要等，會是很久的一段時間，妳會賠上妳的青春，也許還是得不到他。相信我，也有愛過我的女人，希望時間能改變我，結果她等了多年，我還是沒有辦法給她什麼...
看看妳為他身心皆傷，值得嗎? 妳有開心嗎?
妳曾說過妳要簡簡單單的愛，但妳有做到嗎? 妳現在的愛一點都不簡單，而是火花四濺，傷的又只有妳，不值得也不公平...
妳也不是小女孩了，要為自己的幸福負責，如果不開心，就要設法讓自己開心，妳有許多未來，不必為現在折磨，妳有許多可能，不必為他而失去快樂，除非，妳要的就是轟轟烈烈的不快樂...
11/15/2006
給還是男孩的男人...
不要難過，你知道該發生的還是會發生，不要強求。
我知道你曾經轟轟烈烈的愛過，我知道你真的有試過去挽回，但只能怪你們的時間不對，雖然擦身而過會很可惜，但希望你有學到些什麼，像是學到如何去愛別人，如何去愛自己。
多為自己想想，不用擔心她過得好不好，相信我，她沒有你也是會過得很好。想想，你是不是每次感情都是隨波逐流? 你有沒有想過自己未來怎麼走? 你已經不可再理直氣壯的說，你現在不用想這麼多，你還年輕...
是的，你還年輕，有些事好像有些領悟，有些是好像抓的住，但大部分的事情，你一個都抓不住。
多為自己想想，不用煩惱她對你的感情還在不在，相信我，她如果還愛你，她不會選擇現在離開你。如果你是她，你會喜歡看見成天為感情煩惱的男人嗎?
把自己投入工作也好，放縱自己也好，現在你的痛，明天你忘記，明天你會懷念今天的真...
我不能保證下一個會更好，但我保證你會很愛她，她也會很愛你，你們會找到一起努力的目標。雖然現在很難相信，但我知道你會找回自己，找到你的愛...
我知道你曾經轟轟烈烈的愛過，我知道你真的有試過去挽回，但只能怪你們的時間不對，雖然擦身而過會很可惜，但希望你有學到些什麼，像是學到如何去愛別人，如何去愛自己。
多為自己想想，不用擔心她過得好不好，相信我，她沒有你也是會過得很好。想想，你是不是每次感情都是隨波逐流? 你有沒有想過自己未來怎麼走? 你已經不可再理直氣壯的說，你現在不用想這麼多，你還年輕...
是的，你還年輕，有些事好像有些領悟，有些是好像抓的住，但大部分的事情，你一個都抓不住。
多為自己想想，不用煩惱她對你的感情還在不在，相信我，她如果還愛你，她不會選擇現在離開你。如果你是她，你會喜歡看見成天為感情煩惱的男人嗎?
把自己投入工作也好，放縱自己也好，現在你的痛，明天你忘記，明天你會懷念今天的真...
我不能保證下一個會更好，但我保證你會很愛她，她也會很愛你，你們會找到一起努力的目標。雖然現在很難相信，但我知道你會找回自己，找到你的愛...
11/14/2006
Mr. Lamb, I am ordering you to go into relationship rehab...
For the past few months, it has been a little slow on my relationship side. That is not to say that nothing is happening, a few things happened, and I have hurt some along the way.
So I am putting myself on rehab. I have the tendency to fall for girls who are in trouble, then I realize that shouldn't be what I am looking for. The knight in shiny armor does not mean happily ever after, unfortunately.
One of my friend asked, what does it mean by putting your relationship on rehab? I guess the answer is to take things slowly, very slowly, and do not take candies from a stranger if I don't like the stranger...
Another thing though, taking my relationship on rehab means I won't be hurting other souls.
When I stop looking for troubled girls, I can come out of rehab as a clean man...
So I am putting myself on rehab. I have the tendency to fall for girls who are in trouble, then I realize that shouldn't be what I am looking for. The knight in shiny armor does not mean happily ever after, unfortunately.
One of my friend asked, what does it mean by putting your relationship on rehab? I guess the answer is to take things slowly, very slowly, and do not take candies from a stranger if I don't like the stranger...
Another thing though, taking my relationship on rehab means I won't be hurting other souls.
When I stop looking for troubled girls, I can come out of rehab as a clean man...
11/10/2006
以前SFU有個台灣同學會 之 男生加加油篇...
Betty 和他的老公最近回溫哥華，算算又是一年，過去一年，嫁的嫁，生的生，好多人都不在溫哥華了。和久不見的Linda通電話時，感嘆大家都不在溫哥華啦~
President: Graham，現在高雄家裡幫忙，常常忙到爛掉，不過和他的初戀(好像是)幸福快樂中。
Exteranl VP: Linda，在溫哥華的某大3C商店總公司上班，和老公幸福快樂。
Internal VP: Karen，剛考完精算師的考試，年底將和老公回流台灣。
Treasurer: Nancy，久久沒見到，上次見到是在朋友婚禮，好像生第二個小孩了。
External Secretary: Brian，在軟體公司上班，現在好像是組長，穩定感情。
Internal Secretary: Patrick，沒連絡，有人知道他在台灣最近如何?
Public Relation: Betty，好像住在宜蘭，婚後生活幸福，平常喜歡在東西上貼亮亮的東西。
Public Relation: Kent，現在和我同行啦，感情穩定，被我抓去青年商會，發達中請叫他陳董。
Communication: Ken，沒連絡，有人知道他在中國最近如何?
Activity Director: Vicky，聽說在台灣也是媽媽啦。
Activity Director: Kevin，小孩都快一歲，很可愛(比爸爸可愛多了)。
我和Linda聊著，又發現五個女生都嫁的幸福快樂，男生只有兩個結了婚，看來男生要加加油，不過看大家的感情都很穩定，覺得也很安慰，當年的好夥伴都過得很好...
President: Graham，現在高雄家裡幫忙，常常忙到爛掉，不過和他的初戀(好像是)幸福快樂中。
Exteranl VP: Linda，在溫哥華的某大3C商店總公司上班，和老公幸福快樂。
Internal VP: Karen，剛考完精算師的考試，年底將和老公回流台灣。
Treasurer: Nancy，久久沒見到，上次見到是在朋友婚禮，好像生第二個小孩了。
External Secretary: Brian，在軟體公司上班，現在好像是組長，穩定感情。
Internal Secretary: Patrick，沒連絡，有人知道他在台灣最近如何?
Public Relation: Betty，好像住在宜蘭，婚後生活幸福，平常喜歡在東西上貼亮亮的東西。
Public Relation: Kent，現在和我同行啦，感情穩定，被我抓去青年商會，發達中請叫他陳董。
Communication: Ken，沒連絡，有人知道他在中國最近如何?
Activity Director: Vicky，聽說在台灣也是媽媽啦。
Activity Director: Kevin，小孩都快一歲，很可愛(比爸爸可愛多了)。
我和Linda聊著，又發現五個女生都嫁的幸福快樂，男生只有兩個結了婚，看來男生要加加油，不過看大家的感情都很穩定，覺得也很安慰，當年的好夥伴都過得很好...
11/09/2006
Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici!
In the movie V for Vendetta. The main character although evil, is quite interesting, he has similar dark and twisted mind as Phantom of the Opera, but his ambition is a lot bigger.
He said, "Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici", it is a phrase from Christopher Marlowe's The Tragical History of Doctor Faustus. It is a play on a guy who trades his soul for material gains. He ended up wasting all his skills and enternally damned.
The phrase, however, is a great motto.
It means "By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe"!
He said, "Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici", it is a phrase from Christopher Marlowe's The Tragical History of Doctor Faustus. It is a play on a guy who trades his soul for material gains. He ended up wasting all his skills and enternally damned.
The phrase, however, is a great motto.
It means "By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe"!
10/31/2006
Many many questions...
This is what you have to pay for browsing other ppl's blog... 55 questions.
1. NAME:
James Yang
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Bond, James Bond
3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
When watching "Dear Frankie" on a plane to TW, without sound.
4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I like my English handwriting, definitely not Chinese.
6. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
None that I am awared of.
7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
If I were another Libra, I would have annoyed myself so much, friends are very unlikely.
8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
Does blog count?
9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
Yes, because I looooove sarcasm.
11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Nope, unless it is for true love. (and true love won't make me bungee jump)
13. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope, unless I am trying to impress some people. (e.g. Queen of England)
15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR?
Rum and Raisin, best one I had was in West Mall Complex, Raven's cafe, SFU.
16. SHOE SIZE?
8.5 or 9, don't remember.
18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
indecisive and turtle hair sometimes.
19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
myself, 10 years younger.
21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES YOU ARE WEARING?
greyish blue pants, black shoes.
22. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
fresh pineapple.
23. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Report on Business Television.
24 IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Yellow, definitely yellow.
25. FAVOURITE SMELL?
The smell of the air after the rain.
26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED WITH ON THE PHONE?
Frank, my high school buddy.
27.THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU MEET?
Their eyes.
28. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON (PEOPLE) WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Definitely, why else would I spend time answering these questions? :)
29. FAVOURITE DRINK?
Passion Fruit Green Tea.
30. FAVOURITE SPORT?
used to be swimming, golfing... I have to say... web-browsing...
33. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
yes.
34. FAVOURITE FOOD?
Taiwanese, Greek, Italian, Korean, and Japanese... actually, there should be more.
35. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING?
Happy Ending! Because everything in this world has happy endings... (sarcasm...)
36. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Last Sunday, "Flags of our fathers"
37. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Purplish shirt with stripes.
39. HUGS OR KISSES?
definitely kisses, you can't kiss alone, but you can hug yourself.
40. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Grass Jelly.
41. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND THE QUICKEST?
No one, I am not asking anyone :).
42. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Everyone, I am not asking.
43. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
"The Corporate"
44. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
HSBC official mouse pad with "The world's local bank" and "THINK joined up" slogans on them.
46. FAVOURITE SOUNDS?
Sound of cash... actually sound of an engine.
48. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME?
Copenhagen, Denmark, 15 hours flight from Taiwan, probably similar from Vancouver.
49. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Observation... I watch ppl... (sounds creepy, doesn't it)
51. MOST FAVOURATE/COMFORTABLE PLACE
My bed.
52. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE YOU HATE THE MOST?
boring ppl.
54. Least Favorite Food?
Chicken feet.
55. Least Favorite Drink?
Taquila, it is just gross.
1. NAME:
James Yang
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Bond, James Bond
3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
When watching "Dear Frankie" on a plane to TW, without sound.
4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I like my English handwriting, definitely not Chinese.
6. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
None that I am awared of.
7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
If I were another Libra, I would have annoyed myself so much, friends are very unlikely.
8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
Does blog count?
9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
Yes, because I looooove sarcasm.
11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Nope, unless it is for true love. (and true love won't make me bungee jump)
13. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope, unless I am trying to impress some people. (e.g. Queen of England)
15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR?
Rum and Raisin, best one I had was in West Mall Complex, Raven's cafe, SFU.
16. SHOE SIZE?
8.5 or 9, don't remember.
18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
indecisive and turtle hair sometimes.
19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
myself, 10 years younger.
21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES YOU ARE WEARING?
greyish blue pants, black shoes.
22. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
fresh pineapple.
23. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Report on Business Television.
24 IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Yellow, definitely yellow.
25. FAVOURITE SMELL?
The smell of the air after the rain.
26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED WITH ON THE PHONE?
Frank, my high school buddy.
27.THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU MEET?
Their eyes.
28. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON (PEOPLE) WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Definitely, why else would I spend time answering these questions? :)
29. FAVOURITE DRINK?
Passion Fruit Green Tea.
30. FAVOURITE SPORT?
used to be swimming, golfing... I have to say... web-browsing...
33. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
yes.
34. FAVOURITE FOOD?
Taiwanese, Greek, Italian, Korean, and Japanese... actually, there should be more.
35. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING?
Happy Ending! Because everything in this world has happy endings... (sarcasm...)
36. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Last Sunday, "Flags of our fathers"
37. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Purplish shirt with stripes.
39. HUGS OR KISSES?
definitely kisses, you can't kiss alone, but you can hug yourself.
40. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Grass Jelly.
41. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND THE QUICKEST?
No one, I am not asking anyone :).
42. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Everyone, I am not asking.
43. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
"The Corporate"
44. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
HSBC official mouse pad with "The world's local bank" and "THINK joined up" slogans on them.
46. FAVOURITE SOUNDS?
Sound of cash... actually sound of an engine.
48. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME?
Copenhagen, Denmark, 15 hours flight from Taiwan, probably similar from Vancouver.
49. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Observation... I watch ppl... (sounds creepy, doesn't it)
51. MOST FAVOURATE/COMFORTABLE PLACE
My bed.
52. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE YOU HATE THE MOST?
boring ppl.
54. Least Favorite Food?
Chicken feet.
55. Least Favorite Drink?
Taquila, it is just gross.
10/30/2006
I'll Walk Alone...
I am a war-junkie, always have been fasinated by War stories, tatics, weapons... In my relatively recent trips to London and Hawaii, I spent lots of time in military museums. Maybe it is the little boy in me that likes to see destructions and heros. On the other hand, I am very interested in understanding the human aspects of wars, why people kill and why people love.
That is why whenever there is a war movie around, especially with epic battles, I have to see it. This time, it is directed by Clint Eastwood, Flags of our fathers. A quick survey around my friends show lack of interest in war movies. Determined, I went to see the movie by myself, on a Sunday night.
The movie starts with a song from the 40s,
I'll walk alone because to tell you the truth I'll be lonely,
I don't mind being lonely when my heart tells me you are lonely too.
I'll walk alone, they'll ask me why and I'll tell them I'd rather.
There are dreams I must gather, dreams we fashioned the night you held me tight.
I'll always be near you wherever you are each night in every prayer.
If you call, I'll hear you, no matter how far.
Just close your eyes and I'll be there.
Please walk alone and send your love and your kisses to guide me.
Till you're walking beside me, I'll walk alone.
Last year when I started this blog, I mentioned that there are lots of things I cannot do alone, watching movie been one of them. This is only the second time I have watched a movie in a movie theatre by myself. It was odd, I had nowhere to go to but home, and no one to share the thoughts of the movie but me. For a moment there, I am not sure if I'd rather want to walk alone.
That is why whenever there is a war movie around, especially with epic battles, I have to see it. This time, it is directed by Clint Eastwood, Flags of our fathers. A quick survey around my friends show lack of interest in war movies. Determined, I went to see the movie by myself, on a Sunday night.
The movie starts with a song from the 40s,
I'll walk alone because to tell you the truth I'll be lonely,
I don't mind being lonely when my heart tells me you are lonely too.
I'll walk alone, they'll ask me why and I'll tell them I'd rather.
There are dreams I must gather, dreams we fashioned the night you held me tight.
I'll always be near you wherever you are each night in every prayer.
If you call, I'll hear you, no matter how far.
Just close your eyes and I'll be there.
Please walk alone and send your love and your kisses to guide me.
Till you're walking beside me, I'll walk alone.
Last year when I started this blog, I mentioned that there are lots of things I cannot do alone, watching movie been one of them. This is only the second time I have watched a movie in a movie theatre by myself. It was odd, I had nowhere to go to but home, and no one to share the thoughts of the movie but me. For a moment there, I am not sure if I'd rather want to walk alone.
10/27/2006
Phantom of the Opera, lover or loser?
For many people in Vancouver, the highlight for summer of '06 has been watching "The Phantom of the Opera".
It wasn't the first time I saw the play, but the beautiful music is still refreshing to listen to. The girls I went with though, were crying their eyes out, according to them, "poor Erik (phantom's name), poor him... sniff sniff, bad Christine, she is a biatch... sniff sniff".
I was pretty perplexed, I couldn't remember how I felt the first time I saw TPOTO, but I am pretty sure I was not feeling sorry for Erik. When the second time I saw it, I definitely am sure that I am NOT feeling sorry for Erik.
Reason is simple, other than the fact that he has poor taste in living environment (a damp, dark basement), his deception and bitterness towards life and people would be hard to bear. Yes, it is true that he had taught Christine and helped her to become the star, but he told her he is the angel sent by her dead father, a deception. Maybe it is the physical deficiency that causes the necessity of the lies, but once you brand yourself as a teacher or even a fathery figure, can you blame the girl for not loving you? That sounds like taking advantage of the authority.
Also, if you really love the person, should you be hiding in the dark (literally) for so many years, not letting her know your feelings? How would you expect a girl to act when you act possesive then kidnapped her in your dungeon (literally) for a few days?
I have no sympathy to how Erik was treated. Just think about a real life situation, Christine would probably get a restraint order and filed civil suits against our beloved Phantom.
But when looking at my female friends sobbing in the theatre, I really hope girls these days are not looking for a man with possesive and deceptive personalities...
It wasn't the first time I saw the play, but the beautiful music is still refreshing to listen to. The girls I went with though, were crying their eyes out, according to them, "poor Erik (phantom's name), poor him... sniff sniff, bad Christine, she is a biatch... sniff sniff".
I was pretty perplexed, I couldn't remember how I felt the first time I saw TPOTO, but I am pretty sure I was not feeling sorry for Erik. When the second time I saw it, I definitely am sure that I am NOT feeling sorry for Erik.
Reason is simple, other than the fact that he has poor taste in living environment (a damp, dark basement), his deception and bitterness towards life and people would be hard to bear. Yes, it is true that he had taught Christine and helped her to become the star, but he told her he is the angel sent by her dead father, a deception. Maybe it is the physical deficiency that causes the necessity of the lies, but once you brand yourself as a teacher or even a fathery figure, can you blame the girl for not loving you? That sounds like taking advantage of the authority.
Also, if you really love the person, should you be hiding in the dark (literally) for so many years, not letting her know your feelings? How would you expect a girl to act when you act possesive then kidnapped her in your dungeon (literally) for a few days?
I have no sympathy to how Erik was treated. Just think about a real life situation, Christine would probably get a restraint order and filed civil suits against our beloved Phantom.
But when looking at my female friends sobbing in the theatre, I really hope girls these days are not looking for a man with possesive and deceptive personalities...
10/24/2006
Why go and why stay?
1949, 4 years after the end of World War II, the port city of Bremerhaven was devastated by the allie airraids. Arnold, 17 at the time, was working in a meat deli.
It was a summer evening, one of his friend working at the dock told him that there will be a boat leaving tomorrow morning at 5:30am, and it was going to America. Arnold saw the first hand destruction of Germany, and he wanted to get out, leave the country under reconstruction.
He gathered all the money he had and bought the ticket to America. The journey took him to Montreal, not United States as he first thought. He didn't care though, anywhere would be better than home, anywhere...
Montreal was packed with european foreigners, and the job his friend promised was no longer avaliable. Cash was running low, and he needed to work. His friend told him that he has a cousin who works on the west coast, but Arnold had to take a train to get there.
Arnold used up his remaining savings and took the train. After a few days of train ride, he arrived at a little forest/mining town, Port Hardy, BC. It was late, and dark outside. He wondered around the train station. Then he found a small lake, it was covered with reflection of the sky, the sky filled with stars. Arnold gasped, he then told himself, this will be home, this is where I will stay.
Almost 60 years later, Arnold told me the story with his detectable german accent. He has been working in the forestry industry and has since retired. He said he will be buying a small vineyard next year, something he has been wanting since he was a kid.
He smiled and said, "I will never forget the night with the stars..."
It was a summer evening, one of his friend working at the dock told him that there will be a boat leaving tomorrow morning at 5:30am, and it was going to America. Arnold saw the first hand destruction of Germany, and he wanted to get out, leave the country under reconstruction.
He gathered all the money he had and bought the ticket to America. The journey took him to Montreal, not United States as he first thought. He didn't care though, anywhere would be better than home, anywhere...
Montreal was packed with european foreigners, and the job his friend promised was no longer avaliable. Cash was running low, and he needed to work. His friend told him that he has a cousin who works on the west coast, but Arnold had to take a train to get there.
Arnold used up his remaining savings and took the train. After a few days of train ride, he arrived at a little forest/mining town, Port Hardy, BC. It was late, and dark outside. He wondered around the train station. Then he found a small lake, it was covered with reflection of the sky, the sky filled with stars. Arnold gasped, he then told himself, this will be home, this is where I will stay.
Almost 60 years later, Arnold told me the story with his detectable german accent. He has been working in the forestry industry and has since retired. He said he will be buying a small vineyard next year, something he has been wanting since he was a kid.
He smiled and said, "I will never forget the night with the stars..."
10/20/2006
They are young, successful, and married...
I am doing something I have never done before, spending 3 straight nights with my C list friends. Yes, the married couples.
C list friends have the following characteristics:
1) they love to host home parties, not the ones where everyone gets drunk, but the ones where everyone gets to play monoploy until the cows come home.
2) they love to set up dates, reason is simple, they want to convert you into C list as well.
3) they are very very gossipy, because there is nothing much to talk about in their married life, they love to know who you are going out with, where you went last night, what are you going to do this weekend, and are you gay if you are not seeing anyone...
Oh, and they usually hang out with other C list friends, therefore, isolating most of the A list friends.
There was last night, an outing with 2 pairs of married couples, they were all young (younger than me), successful at what they do, and very married.
When they knew I was not seeing anyone, I had to go through the following interview
1) determine if I am playing with another team (aka. gay)
2) what type girls I like (you like older girls? you like japanese?...)
3) am I avaliable tomorrow night? (so there will be a setup)
When those are out of the way, we got into interesting conversation, we talked about sex, work, movies, and I have to say I had fun hanging out with these C list friends.
But every couples have their own share of problems like any relationships, one couple is raising a young child, one couple is considering moving to a different continent, one couple is starting a new company... The only difference is that they cannot walk away from their problems, and they have to face their hardship together, unlike B list friends, they could just walk away.
Tonight I am going KTV with more of my C list friends...
C list friends have the following characteristics:
1) they love to host home parties, not the ones where everyone gets drunk, but the ones where everyone gets to play monoploy until the cows come home.
2) they love to set up dates, reason is simple, they want to convert you into C list as well.
3) they are very very gossipy, because there is nothing much to talk about in their married life, they love to know who you are going out with, where you went last night, what are you going to do this weekend, and are you gay if you are not seeing anyone...
Oh, and they usually hang out with other C list friends, therefore, isolating most of the A list friends.
There was last night, an outing with 2 pairs of married couples, they were all young (younger than me), successful at what they do, and very married.
When they knew I was not seeing anyone, I had to go through the following interview
1) determine if I am playing with another team (aka. gay)
2) what type girls I like (you like older girls? you like japanese?...)
3) am I avaliable tomorrow night? (so there will be a setup)
When those are out of the way, we got into interesting conversation, we talked about sex, work, movies, and I have to say I had fun hanging out with these C list friends.
But every couples have their own share of problems like any relationships, one couple is raising a young child, one couple is considering moving to a different continent, one couple is starting a new company... The only difference is that they cannot walk away from their problems, and they have to face their hardship together, unlike B list friends, they could just walk away.
Tonight I am going KTV with more of my C list friends...
10/15/2006
男人二十八女人二十五...
我在愛情上是個挺挑食的人(有朋友說這叫犯賤)... 但我一旦吃到好吃的，就天天吃一樣的... 很不幸，人越大，越多東西不吃。我除了一大堆跟感覺很有關係的限制之外，有幾個「絕對不把」得鐵律:
1. 前女友的好朋友
2. 好朋友的前女友
今年加上第三項
3. 25歲以下
我以前是不歧視比我小很多歲的女生，現在還是不歧視，只是不會是考慮的對象而已。為啥?
近年來，我慢慢的了解，男生真的比女生成熟的慢，不論是感情還是工作，他們通常會用很長的時間去認識自己，每步都走的戰戰兢兢，很怕一失足成千古恨，所以你通常會聽到男生會用工作來拋棄女生，不能怪他們，因為他們自己都搞不定…
女生也會有雷同的問題，但她們會來的比較早，而且她們還有生理時鐘的壓力，所以她們更要在某個年紀之前(九成九是二十八歲) 趕快找到自己的方向，所以她們在某個年紀之前是很茫然的，要工作? 要唸書? 要找對象? 好像來日無多…
很多的大男生一直到二十八歲，才能理直氣壯的說，我想要的是什麼。很多的大女孩一直到二十五歲，才能開開心心的尋找自己的幸福。
當然，有很多人非常早熟，但真的不多，反而晚熟的大男生，大女孩越來越多。
我自己已經有個譜，現在就缺個認真尋找自己幸福的女孩，應該二十五以上…
1. 前女友的好朋友
2. 好朋友的前女友
今年加上第三項
3. 25歲以下
我以前是不歧視比我小很多歲的女生，現在還是不歧視，只是不會是考慮的對象而已。為啥?
近年來，我慢慢的了解，男生真的比女生成熟的慢，不論是感情還是工作，他們通常會用很長的時間去認識自己，每步都走的戰戰兢兢，很怕一失足成千古恨，所以你通常會聽到男生會用工作來拋棄女生，不能怪他們，因為他們自己都搞不定…
女生也會有雷同的問題，但她們會來的比較早，而且她們還有生理時鐘的壓力，所以她們更要在某個年紀之前(九成九是二十八歲) 趕快找到自己的方向，所以她們在某個年紀之前是很茫然的，要工作? 要唸書? 要找對象? 好像來日無多…
很多的大男生一直到二十八歲，才能理直氣壯的說，我想要的是什麼。很多的大女孩一直到二十五歲，才能開開心心的尋找自己的幸福。
當然，有很多人非常早熟，但真的不多，反而晚熟的大男生，大女孩越來越多。
我自己已經有個譜，現在就缺個認真尋找自己幸福的女孩，應該二十五以上…
10/10/2006
The party after party...
It has been 29 plus a week for me, and I am still feeling the party after effect, maybe I am still at the denial stage... (I am not 29 I am not 29 I am not 29 I am not 29....)
But, I am feeling like more clubbing lately, even though I had a good share of clubbing since the beginning of this year, not much drinking, a lot of dancing. Maybe it is one of the pre-pre-middle-age crsis. :)
Sexy Back
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
I think you're special whats behind your back
So turn around and ill pick up the slack.
Take em' to the bridge
Dirty babe
You see these shackles
Baby I'm your slave
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave
It's just that no one makes me feel this way
Take em' to the chorus
Come here girl
Go ahead, be gone with it
Come to the back
Go ahead, be gone with it
VIP
Go ahead, be gone with it
Drinks on me
Go ahead, be gone with it
Let me see what you're tworking with
Go ahead, be gone with it
Look at those hips
Go ahead, be gone with it
You make me smile
Go ahead, be gone with it
Go ahead child
Go ahead, be gone with it
And get your sexy on
Go ahead, be gone with it
Get your sexy on
Go ahead, be gone with it
Get your sexy on
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
Come let me make up for the things you lack
Cause your burning up I gotta get it fast
Take em' to the bridge
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
If that's your girl you better watch your back
Cause she'll burn it up for me and that's a fact
Take em' to the chorus
Okay, it doesn't make much sense posting a dance music lyrics, but the party is on, inside my twenty-f@#king-nine's head...
But, I am feeling like more clubbing lately, even though I had a good share of clubbing since the beginning of this year, not much drinking, a lot of dancing. Maybe it is one of the pre-pre-middle-age crsis. :)
Sexy Back
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
I think you're special whats behind your back
So turn around and ill pick up the slack.
Take em' to the bridge
Dirty babe
You see these shackles
Baby I'm your slave
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave
It's just that no one makes me feel this way
Take em' to the chorus
Come here girl
Go ahead, be gone with it
Come to the back
Go ahead, be gone with it
VIP
Go ahead, be gone with it
Drinks on me
Go ahead, be gone with it
Let me see what you're tworking with
Go ahead, be gone with it
Look at those hips
Go ahead, be gone with it
You make me smile
Go ahead, be gone with it
Go ahead child
Go ahead, be gone with it
And get your sexy on
Go ahead, be gone with it
Get your sexy on
Go ahead, be gone with it
Get your sexy on
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
Come let me make up for the things you lack
Cause your burning up I gotta get it fast
Take em' to the bridge
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
If that's your girl you better watch your back
Cause she'll burn it up for me and that's a fact
Take em' to the chorus
Okay, it doesn't make much sense posting a dance music lyrics, but the party is on, inside my twenty-f@#king-nine's head...
10/03/2006
Happy Birthday to me!!! Again...
Another year, another birthday, but this year is a little different, it marks the last year before the age of 30. Some say this will be a depressing year, I am not sure about that though...
With a great start of a great party surrounded by friends, I am sure this will be another fun year!
Time to make another list of goals/wishes:
5 Year List:
My own place (either 300k condo or 400k townhouse, have to keep up with inflation)
Laser eye surgery (might need mental support, will do after the next wish)
Fall in love (yes, and make it last a little longer than 1 month)
30 million portfolio (my clients', not mine)
Travel to Greece (the Aegean Sea...)
The small list for this year:
Hit golf ball straight 80% of the time (at least with 7 ~ 9 irons)
Learn how to drive a stick (might need friends' cars)
Learn to play guitar (maybe self-learning?)
Get Insurance licensed (again...)
Make a new 5 year list (if the above doesn't work :) )
With a great start of a great party surrounded by friends, I am sure this will be another fun year!
Time to make another list of goals/wishes:
5 Year List:
My own place (either 300k condo or 400k townhouse, have to keep up with inflation)
Laser eye surgery (might need mental support, will do after the next wish)
Fall in love (yes, and make it last a little longer than 1 month)
30 million portfolio (my clients', not mine)
Travel to Greece (the Aegean Sea...)
The small list for this year:
Hit golf ball straight 80% of the time (at least with 7 ~ 9 irons)
Learn how to drive a stick (might need friends' cars)
Learn to play guitar (maybe self-learning?)
Get Insurance licensed (again...)
Make a new 5 year list (if the above doesn't work :) )
9/30/2006
一週年...二十九週年...
剛好一年前，在每年生日憂鬱症前夕開始了'小羊碎碎唸' ，用了整個上午的時間回顧過去的一年，從開始的寂寞感，到對感情的討論，喜愛歌曲的歌詞，遊記，小羊碎碎唸慢慢的變成我生活的一部分，我的一部分，當然，一些忠實的讀者給我不少鼓勵...
過去的一年，過得很多采多姿，認識了不少新朋友，一些很好的朋友，談了幾次沒結果的戀愛，受了幾次傷，也傷了人，出了幾次國，上過廣播節目，當過社團的會長，找到夢寐以求的工作，第一次喝醉...
過去的一年最大的收穫，應該就是有好好去認識自己，在生活中，工作中，面對自己的喜怒愛樂，接受自己的優缺點，好像，真的有長了一歲...
但免不了，還是擔心，擔心自己好像還是一事無成，雖然已經做了不少，總覺得還是太懶...
看看我去年給自己定下的一年和五年計劃...
My own place (either 200k condo or 300k townhouse)
BMW 325i (Mystic Blue or Jet Black)
Laser eye surgery (might need mental support)
Fall in love (yes, I still believe in love)
25 million portfolio (my clients', not mine)
The small list for this year:
Hit golf ball straight 80% of the time (at least with 7 ~ 9 irons)
Learn how to drive a stick (might need friends' cars)
Learn to play guitar (maybe self-learning?)
Make a new 5 year list (if the above doesn't work :) )
老實講我的一年計劃，學什麼學什麼的，一個都沒有達成，整年只有揮幾次桿，摸過一次吉他，手排擋連碰都沒碰過，五年計劃倒做得不錯，看來我要好好考慮新的一年計劃...
再次感謝各位的支持，因為我的二十八歲，有你跟隨，我很開心...
過去的一年，過得很多采多姿，認識了不少新朋友，一些很好的朋友，談了幾次沒結果的戀愛，受了幾次傷，也傷了人，出了幾次國，上過廣播節目，當過社團的會長，找到夢寐以求的工作，第一次喝醉...
過去的一年最大的收穫，應該就是有好好去認識自己，在生活中，工作中，面對自己的喜怒愛樂，接受自己的優缺點，好像，真的有長了一歲...
但免不了，還是擔心，擔心自己好像還是一事無成，雖然已經做了不少，總覺得還是太懶...
看看我去年給自己定下的一年和五年計劃...
My own place (either 200k condo or 300k townhouse)
BMW 325i (Mystic Blue or Jet Black)
Laser eye surgery (might need mental support)
Fall in love (yes, I still believe in love)
25 million portfolio (my clients', not mine)
The small list for this year:
Hit golf ball straight 80% of the time (at least with 7 ~ 9 irons)
Learn how to drive a stick (might need friends' cars)
Learn to play guitar (maybe self-learning?)
Make a new 5 year list (if the above doesn't work :) )
老實講我的一年計劃，學什麼學什麼的，一個都沒有達成，整年只有揮幾次桿，摸過一次吉他，手排擋連碰都沒碰過，五年計劃倒做得不錯，看來我要好好考慮新的一年計劃...
再次感謝各位的支持，因為我的二十八歲，有你跟隨，我很開心...
9/24/2006
Politics for idiots...
Now I am starting to notice a lot of disturbance in the air surrounding political issues in Taiwan. Of course politics have always been a hot topic in Taiwan. It is also a taboo in the cultural as well. If you declare that you are supporting a certain political party in the public, you would have created a few friends and enemies at the same time.
I realized the seriousness of the subject a few years back, when I asked my dad who he was going to vote for in that year's presidential election. He said "it is a secret"... I was thinking, "What the heck! I am your son who is living thousands km away and cannot vote anyhow!” That is just to show how serious voting can be in Taiwan, and “thou shall not share the secret, even it is your eldest offspring…”
To make people remember a certain political party, a certain colour will be used, or even animals, the two big parties in US, democrats (blue and donkey), republicans (red and elephant), in Taiwan, there are blue, green, yellow, orange... Why? A simple association of colour is so easy to remember, you don't have to know what each party stands for in order to vote for them, just remember the colours...
In Taiwan, I think politics is still at its infancy stage, just look at the poll turnout for each election, you see high 80%, that is to show that people are passionate about politics, they still believe that politicians will do what they have promised to do, and voters themselves will feel good to be part of something.
To feel good to be part of something... That is very important in politics. That is why you see rallies, protests, and songs in election campaigns. The feeling of being part of something larger than life has the same effect as a rock concert, honestly, if you pick anyone in the crowd and ask him/her what he/she is fighting for, he/she will probably give you a commendatory piece from news outlet, but really, is that what people think?
Media has to take a lot of heat for stirring up things, of course, it is easy to say that people demands it, and people are not interested in boring news, thus some creativity should be added into the news. For example, when the conflict in middle east started recently, various news outlets will find experts to warn the public that World War 3 is coming, is that really necessary? Would that help the public to understand and be interested in the subject? I argue that Media has a lot to do with the uncomfortable atmosphere in Taiwan, but some will not agree, they will think they are smarter than the media, they can see thru the fabrication in the news, sadly, it is not as easy to see thru when politics are involved…
I realized the seriousness of the subject a few years back, when I asked my dad who he was going to vote for in that year's presidential election. He said "it is a secret"... I was thinking, "What the heck! I am your son who is living thousands km away and cannot vote anyhow!” That is just to show how serious voting can be in Taiwan, and “thou shall not share the secret, even it is your eldest offspring…”
To make people remember a certain political party, a certain colour will be used, or even animals, the two big parties in US, democrats (blue and donkey), republicans (red and elephant), in Taiwan, there are blue, green, yellow, orange... Why? A simple association of colour is so easy to remember, you don't have to know what each party stands for in order to vote for them, just remember the colours...
In Taiwan, I think politics is still at its infancy stage, just look at the poll turnout for each election, you see high 80%, that is to show that people are passionate about politics, they still believe that politicians will do what they have promised to do, and voters themselves will feel good to be part of something.
To feel good to be part of something... That is very important in politics. That is why you see rallies, protests, and songs in election campaigns. The feeling of being part of something larger than life has the same effect as a rock concert, honestly, if you pick anyone in the crowd and ask him/her what he/she is fighting for, he/she will probably give you a commendatory piece from news outlet, but really, is that what people think?
Media has to take a lot of heat for stirring up things, of course, it is easy to say that people demands it, and people are not interested in boring news, thus some creativity should be added into the news. For example, when the conflict in middle east started recently, various news outlets will find experts to warn the public that World War 3 is coming, is that really necessary? Would that help the public to understand and be interested in the subject? I argue that Media has a lot to do with the uncomfortable atmosphere in Taiwan, but some will not agree, they will think they are smarter than the media, they can see thru the fabrication in the news, sadly, it is not as easy to see thru when politics are involved…
9/15/2006
山頂黑狗兄
我記得第一次失戀時﹐總覺得每天都像世界末日﹐朋友們也不知道怎麼安慰我﹐直到有天聽到庾澄慶的歌...
山頂黑狗兄
山頂一個黑狗兄 伊是牧場的少爺
透早到晚真打拼 牧場開闊歸山拼
嘴唸明朗的歌聲 透日歌聲唸抹定
伊的歌韻真好聽 聲好會唸介出名
有聽聲音無影 U Lay E Lee 歌喉聲山嶺
歌生幼軟緣投得人痛 U Lay E Lee
阮的貼心黑狗兄 逍遙自在真好命
姑娘聽著心肝神魂跟伊行
央三拖四甲伊求親成
U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee
我哼著哼著 (因為不會歌詞)﹐才發現我已經走出傷痛...
說真的很多中文歌都不大健康﹐不是愛的人不愛你﹐愛的人去愛別人﹐不愛的人愛你﹐要不就是愛你的人要離開﹐反正都是愛死去活來﹐海枯石爛的﹐好像談起愛情就一定要正經八百。我覺得如果沒事聽聽KTV還可以﹐如果真的失戀﹐用來逼哭也可以﹐但長期使用會使人內傷的...
山頂黑狗兄
山頂一個黑狗兄 伊是牧場的少爺
透早到晚真打拼 牧場開闊歸山拼
嘴唸明朗的歌聲 透日歌聲唸抹定
伊的歌韻真好聽 聲好會唸介出名
有聽聲音無影 U Lay E Lee 歌喉聲山嶺
歌生幼軟緣投得人痛 U Lay E Lee
阮的貼心黑狗兄 逍遙自在真好命
姑娘聽著心肝神魂跟伊行
央三拖四甲伊求親成
U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee
我哼著哼著 (因為不會歌詞)﹐才發現我已經走出傷痛...
說真的很多中文歌都不大健康﹐不是愛的人不愛你﹐愛的人去愛別人﹐不愛的人愛你﹐要不就是愛你的人要離開﹐反正都是愛死去活來﹐海枯石爛的﹐好像談起愛情就一定要正經八百。我覺得如果沒事聽聽KTV還可以﹐如果真的失戀﹐用來逼哭也可以﹐但長期使用會使人內傷的...
9/11/2006
On that Autumn morning...
It was an autumn morning, 7 months into unemployment, after completing several video games, and built a few model cars/tanks, I was sleeping. Then, my mom woke me up, in the middle of the morning, she said, "US was under a full scale attack!".
There was so much excitement in her voice, like someone had found Santa Claus. That woke me up, I went to the TV, seeing the burning buildings was really surreal. Of course, there wasn't a full scale attack. But over two thousand people died...
The world paused for a second, then the world moved on. The president in US started a war, then another war. I found a job, then another job. I found love, then another love. Many people have moved on, but there was an autumn morning when people stopped and thought about life.
Hero - Nickelback
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
Oh but heaven, no heaven don’t hear me.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Someone told me love [would] all save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, n' blood-spilling
that won't never came.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Now that the world isn't ending, [it's]love that I’m sending to you.
It isn’t the love of a hero, and that’s why I fear it won’t do.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
[And they're watching us
(Watching Us)
[They're watching us]
(Watching Us)
as we all fly away.
Never a big fan of nickelback, but this song was released on the faithful day. Very ironic... and that, I have learnt, is life...
There was so much excitement in her voice, like someone had found Santa Claus. That woke me up, I went to the TV, seeing the burning buildings was really surreal. Of course, there wasn't a full scale attack. But over two thousand people died...
The world paused for a second, then the world moved on. The president in US started a war, then another war. I found a job, then another job. I found love, then another love. Many people have moved on, but there was an autumn morning when people stopped and thought about life.
Hero - Nickelback
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
Oh but heaven, no heaven don’t hear me.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Someone told me love [would] all save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, n' blood-spilling
that won't never came.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Now that the world isn't ending, [it's]love that I’m sending to you.
It isn’t the love of a hero, and that’s why I fear it won’t do.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
[And they're watching us
(Watching Us)
[They're watching us]
(Watching Us)
as we all fly away.
Never a big fan of nickelback, but this song was released on the faithful day. Very ironic... and that, I have learnt, is life...
9/06/2006
破鏡…
一個叫完治的年輕人，離鄉背井到東京打拼，遇到了莉香，他們相愛對方，但最後沒有在一起，因為完治回到他的舊愛身邊…
老掉牙的故事，許多人都會為莉香打抱不平，完治現在幸福了，那莉香怎麼辦? 沒人可以回答，因為不可憐就不是愛情故事…
最近，有許多朋友和舊愛復合，差不多有半打的人一個多月前會問我，「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」，說實在，問這問題的人，多半已經準備復合，就差那麼一點點支持…
但同一批人通常在兩個多月前會提到為什麼要分手，故事都是雷同，基本上女孩對男孩好，男孩愛理不理，說有更重要的事情在等他，不外是工作、學業、或其他女孩，基本上聽起來這份感情好像沒什麼救了…
雖然我讀過幾次劉庸的【我不是教你詐】，知道為什麼要唱和不唱分，但總是看朋友難過不過去，每次都會和朋友說，你要選擇讓自己開心…
所以當他們問「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」的時候，我會反問他們，你們之間的問題有沒有解決? 他們的答案通常是沉默，但之後會給我一個理直氣壯的答案，「但我知道我不給他機會，我一定會後悔!」，或是一副慷慨就義的樣子，「反正過一天算一天…」
我祝福他們，不妥協的愛情是可貴的，破鏡重圓不論是內咎、習慣、藉口、或是脆弱，都是值得珍惜的，因為每個人都要對自己的幸福負責!
但我還是不懂為什麼不可憐的愛情故事就不夠精采?
老掉牙的故事，許多人都會為莉香打抱不平，完治現在幸福了，那莉香怎麼辦? 沒人可以回答，因為不可憐就不是愛情故事…
最近，有許多朋友和舊愛復合，差不多有半打的人一個多月前會問我，「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」，說實在，問這問題的人，多半已經準備復合，就差那麼一點點支持…
但同一批人通常在兩個多月前會提到為什麼要分手，故事都是雷同，基本上女孩對男孩好，男孩愛理不理，說有更重要的事情在等他，不外是工作、學業、或其他女孩，基本上聽起來這份感情好像沒什麼救了…
雖然我讀過幾次劉庸的【我不是教你詐】，知道為什麼要唱和不唱分，但總是看朋友難過不過去，每次都會和朋友說，你要選擇讓自己開心…
所以當他們問「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」的時候，我會反問他們，你們之間的問題有沒有解決? 他們的答案通常是沉默，但之後會給我一個理直氣壯的答案，「但我知道我不給他機會，我一定會後悔!」，或是一副慷慨就義的樣子，「反正過一天算一天…」
我祝福他們，不妥協的愛情是可貴的，破鏡重圓不論是內咎、習慣、藉口、或是脆弱，都是值得珍惜的，因為每個人都要對自己的幸福負責!
但我還是不懂為什麼不可憐的愛情故事就不夠精采?
9/05/2006
The silence after the storm...
I love to emcee events, to entertain a large crowd, to be part of something that is bigger...
Although being recognized right away and bonded with the crowd, the time after the events are something hard to get used to. It is hard to rid the feeling of excitement, and the sudden feeling of a little loneliness. Like the moment you left a rock concert and the morning to wake up to a monday.
Maybe the crowd was never there, or maybe they have never left...
Although being recognized right away and bonded with the crowd, the time after the events are something hard to get used to. It is hard to rid the feeling of excitement, and the sudden feeling of a little loneliness. Like the moment you left a rock concert and the morning to wake up to a monday.
Maybe the crowd was never there, or maybe they have never left...
9/01/2006
丟丟銅...
又到臺灣文化節的時候了﹐每次都會聽到丟丟銅這首歌﹐但說真的﹐聽這麼多遍﹐有二胡﹐有鋼琴﹐有歌唱﹐有其他樂器的表演﹐還是不知道歌詞...
不過它是我最愛的臺語歌﹐沒有太多的悲情味...
丟丟銅
火車行到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷磅空內。
磅空的水伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都滴落來
雙腳踏到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷台北市。
看見電燈伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都寫紅字。
人地生疏伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷來擱去。
險給黑頭伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都撞半死。
借問公園伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷對都去。
問著客人伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都我不知。
拖車走到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷拖我去。
去到公園伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都摸無錢。
拖車大哥伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷免生氣。
明年還你伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都有甲利。
大部份都是聲音﹐怪不得我不知道歌詞...
原版的丟丟銅只有第一段的七句﹐是宜蘭的民謠﹐有人說丟丟銅是一個遊戲﹐也有人說是火車過山洞的聲音﹐後人加長幾句﹐多了描寫去臺北打拼的異鄉人故事...
有人說這首歌像許多臺語歌一樣﹐有色情成份﹐不管如何﹐好聽就是好聽...
不過它是我最愛的臺語歌﹐沒有太多的悲情味...
丟丟銅
火車行到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷磅空內。
磅空的水伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都滴落來
雙腳踏到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷台北市。
看見電燈伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都寫紅字。
人地生疏伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷來擱去。
險給黑頭伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都撞半死。
借問公園伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷對都去。
問著客人伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都我不知。
拖車走到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷拖我去。
去到公園伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都摸無錢。
拖車大哥伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷免生氣。
明年還你伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都有甲利。
大部份都是聲音﹐怪不得我不知道歌詞...
原版的丟丟銅只有第一段的七句﹐是宜蘭的民謠﹐有人說丟丟銅是一個遊戲﹐也有人說是火車過山洞的聲音﹐後人加長幾句﹐多了描寫去臺北打拼的異鄉人故事...
有人說這首歌像許多臺語歌一樣﹐有色情成份﹐不管如何﹐好聽就是好聽...
8/25/2006
Summer of 2006
To Summer of 2006
It seems like you won't be staying, I still have to thank you before you leave.
First of all, I want to thank you for bringing in the nice weather, without the weather, everything else would have looked very differently.
Then, there is love, you have brought in and out a few chances, if it wasn't you, I probably would have no chances of meeting these people and discover what I am looking for and how I need to face them.
Although you haven't really helped me on my business side, you have introduced a few good friends, some of these friends, I know I will hangout for a long while.
As I probably won't see you again, but some of your memories I will always remember, here is a song for you...
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends Lyrics
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when Spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
It seems like you won't be staying, I still have to thank you before you leave.
First of all, I want to thank you for bringing in the nice weather, without the weather, everything else would have looked very differently.
Then, there is love, you have brought in and out a few chances, if it wasn't you, I probably would have no chances of meeting these people and discover what I am looking for and how I need to face them.
Although you haven't really helped me on my business side, you have introduced a few good friends, some of these friends, I know I will hangout for a long while.
As I probably won't see you again, but some of your memories I will always remember, here is a song for you...
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends Lyrics
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when Spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
8/14/2006
玻璃鞋
禮堂的大鍾敲了第十二下，舖著紅毯的階梯，留下仙杜拉的玻璃鞋，還有一臉錯愕的王子…
回到家中的仙杜拉，回到被繼母和姊妹使喚的生活，與王子的那個夜晚，只有她藏在衣櫃裡的一只玻璃鞋才可證明不是夢。
每當夜深人靜的時候，仙杜拉會把玻璃鞋抱在懷中，在她漆黑的小房間裡，哼著當晚的音樂，跳著當晚的華爾茲，跳著跳著，就可以離開艱苦的現實，回到當晚的情景，英俊瀟灑的王子…
有個晚上，仙杜拉在拿出那只玻璃鞋的時候，手滑了一下，玻璃鞋在地上碰斷了鞋跟，她好難過，好像她的夢破碎了一般…
她隔天把壞掉的玻璃鞋拿給隔壁的雅各看，雅各是一個鐵匠學徒，和她一樣是孤兒，也是仙杜拉至小到大的好朋友。她對雅各說出那晚的故事，她流著眼淚說，是不是幸福將離她而去，只要再看到王子一面就好，他靜靜的聽她哭訴，手裡敲敲打打沒有停下。當她低著頭，抱著手臂的時候，他用他黑黑的髒手拍拍她的肩膀，她抬頭看見雅各手中修好的玻璃鞋。
她興奮的跳起來，仔細的左看右看，只在應該斷裂的地方，看得出細細金色的痕跡。金色? 仙杜拉看雅各胸前，他母親唯一留給他的金製十字架不見了，她感動的抱著他，
「謝謝你修好我的玻璃鞋」，
他摸著她的頭，說「妳會幸福的」…
王子焦急的在王宮裡走動，他記不得了，他記不得當晚那個公主的名字，現在連長相都記不得，他只記得她那時毫不做作的表情、美麗的眼睛、她的一顰一笑… 她到底在哪裡? 他看著他手中的玻璃鞋，他不論用什麼方法都要找到它的女主人，因為當他見到她的一霎那，他就知道她將是他的公主…
王子的使者找到了仙杜拉，玻璃鞋安安穩穩的穿在她的腳上，在繼母和姊妹們的驚疑眼光下，她取出了另一只玻璃鞋。金色的痕跡在陽光下發亮，但只有她注意到。
使者隆重的把仙杜拉接回王宮，王子在階梯上迎接她的到來，她下了馬車，見到王子就害羞的低下頭… 全國上下都高興的在道路旁等待王子和他未來妻子的到來，身穿白紗的仙杜拉和王子在馬車上接受人民的讚美和祝福。人群中，她見到了他。她彎下身，雙手緊緊的握著她的摯友，雅各在她耳邊說，
「妳會幸福的」
然後，他在人群裡消失了，留下在她手中的，小小的、微溫的金製百合，代表純潔，也是她最愛的花…
王子也注意到她的不同，至那天回來之後，她變的很沉默，常常看著兩只玻璃鞋，他問了她很多次，她都只有搖搖頭，然後就抱著他，雖然是緊緊抱著，但他非常的不安。
終於，仙杜拉告訴王子，她還想著幫她修過玻璃鞋的鐵匠學徒，王子咬著下唇，帶著蒼白的臉，離開淚流滿面的她…
他選擇讓她離開，就算再不忍、再捨不得，他不恨，因為她給他帶來許多的歡樂… 在禮堂前他們擁抱，然後轉身離開，仙杜拉依依不捨的看著王子的背影，衷心的祝福他可以找到自己的幸福…
他躲在二樓石柱後，看著心愛的她低著頭走下階梯，她的雅各已經在那等他，王子流下了眼淚，輕聲的說
「妳會幸福的」…
回到家中的仙杜拉，回到被繼母和姊妹使喚的生活，與王子的那個夜晚，只有她藏在衣櫃裡的一只玻璃鞋才可證明不是夢。
每當夜深人靜的時候，仙杜拉會把玻璃鞋抱在懷中，在她漆黑的小房間裡，哼著當晚的音樂，跳著當晚的華爾茲，跳著跳著，就可以離開艱苦的現實，回到當晚的情景，英俊瀟灑的王子…
有個晚上，仙杜拉在拿出那只玻璃鞋的時候，手滑了一下，玻璃鞋在地上碰斷了鞋跟，她好難過，好像她的夢破碎了一般…
她隔天把壞掉的玻璃鞋拿給隔壁的雅各看，雅各是一個鐵匠學徒，和她一樣是孤兒，也是仙杜拉至小到大的好朋友。她對雅各說出那晚的故事，她流著眼淚說，是不是幸福將離她而去，只要再看到王子一面就好，他靜靜的聽她哭訴，手裡敲敲打打沒有停下。當她低著頭，抱著手臂的時候，他用他黑黑的髒手拍拍她的肩膀，她抬頭看見雅各手中修好的玻璃鞋。
她興奮的跳起來，仔細的左看右看，只在應該斷裂的地方，看得出細細金色的痕跡。金色? 仙杜拉看雅各胸前，他母親唯一留給他的金製十字架不見了，她感動的抱著他，
「謝謝你修好我的玻璃鞋」，
他摸著她的頭，說「妳會幸福的」…
王子焦急的在王宮裡走動，他記不得了，他記不得當晚那個公主的名字，現在連長相都記不得，他只記得她那時毫不做作的表情、美麗的眼睛、她的一顰一笑… 她到底在哪裡? 他看著他手中的玻璃鞋，他不論用什麼方法都要找到它的女主人，因為當他見到她的一霎那，他就知道她將是他的公主…
王子的使者找到了仙杜拉，玻璃鞋安安穩穩的穿在她的腳上，在繼母和姊妹們的驚疑眼光下，她取出了另一只玻璃鞋。金色的痕跡在陽光下發亮，但只有她注意到。
使者隆重的把仙杜拉接回王宮，王子在階梯上迎接她的到來，她下了馬車，見到王子就害羞的低下頭… 全國上下都高興的在道路旁等待王子和他未來妻子的到來，身穿白紗的仙杜拉和王子在馬車上接受人民的讚美和祝福。人群中，她見到了他。她彎下身，雙手緊緊的握著她的摯友，雅各在她耳邊說，
「妳會幸福的」
然後，他在人群裡消失了，留下在她手中的，小小的、微溫的金製百合，代表純潔，也是她最愛的花…
王子也注意到她的不同，至那天回來之後，她變的很沉默，常常看著兩只玻璃鞋，他問了她很多次，她都只有搖搖頭，然後就抱著他，雖然是緊緊抱著，但他非常的不安。
終於，仙杜拉告訴王子，她還想著幫她修過玻璃鞋的鐵匠學徒，王子咬著下唇，帶著蒼白的臉，離開淚流滿面的她…
他選擇讓她離開，就算再不忍、再捨不得，他不恨，因為她給他帶來許多的歡樂… 在禮堂前他們擁抱，然後轉身離開，仙杜拉依依不捨的看著王子的背影，衷心的祝福他可以找到自己的幸福…
他躲在二樓石柱後，看著心愛的她低著頭走下階梯，她的雅各已經在那等他，王子流下了眼淚，輕聲的說
「妳會幸福的」…
8/05/2006
明天的明天的明天
昨天去唱KTV，震撼的發現這首老歌就是我的寫照!
明天的明天的明天 (動力火車)
愛淹沒了你 你才抓住了我
你逗留多久 我沒有問過
痛痛哭了你 你淚濕了我
你被誰傷透 你從沒有說
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就忘了就斷了 寂寞的昨天的昨天
誰都不必道歉 只是苦會多一點
既然你愛錯了我 認錯是終點
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就算了就放了 空虛的昨天的昨天
你就在我眼前 但別再愛我一天
別看我 別愛我 別怪我 閉上雙眼
朋友留了簡訊給我，祝我找到我的幸福，我知道這個女孩一定會有勇氣陪我到明天的明天的明天...
明天的明天的明天 (動力火車)
愛淹沒了你 你才抓住了我
你逗留多久 我沒有問過
痛痛哭了你 你淚濕了我
你被誰傷透 你從沒有說
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就忘了就斷了 寂寞的昨天的昨天
誰都不必道歉 只是苦會多一點
既然你愛錯了我 認錯是終點
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就算了就放了 空虛的昨天的昨天
你就在我眼前 但別再愛我一天
別看我 別愛我 別怪我 閉上雙眼
朋友留了簡訊給我，祝我找到我的幸福，我知道這個女孩一定會有勇氣陪我到明天的明天的明天...
8/02/2006
那女孩對我說...
在YALETOWN的爵士樂餐廳﹐又見到天枰座的女孩﹐過了三個月﹐她看起來瘦了﹐也靜了。
她對我說過去幾個月發生的事﹐生了場大病﹐談起了她所謂的前男友。她說生了那場病讓她更正面的去對生活﹑對自己。
我想起去年的夏天﹐回臺灣時被一首黃義達的歌給轟炸﹐回到加﹐就失戀了。所以對這首歌念念不忘。
那女孩對我說
心很空 天很大 雲很重
我恨孤單 卻趕不走
捧著她的名字 她的喜怒哀樂
往前走 多久了
一個人心中只有一個寶貝
久了之後 她變成了眼淚
淚一滴在左手 凝固成為寂寞
往回看 有什麼
那女孩對我說 說我保護她的夢
說這個世界 對她這樣的不多
她漸漸忘了我 但是她並不曉得
遍體麟傷的我 一天也沒再愛過
那女孩對我說 說我是一個小偷
偷她的回憶 塞進我的腦海中
我不需要自由 只想揹著她的夢
一步步向前走 她給的永遠不重
我們的對話被臺上的吉它手打斷﹐愁愁淡淡的爵士樂﹐她看著桌上的蠟燭﹐淡淡的笑容...
我想她會遇到﹐不需要自由﹐只想揹著她的夢的男孩...
她對我說過去幾個月發生的事﹐生了場大病﹐談起了她所謂的前男友。她說生了那場病讓她更正面的去對生活﹑對自己。
我想起去年的夏天﹐回臺灣時被一首黃義達的歌給轟炸﹐回到加﹐就失戀了。所以對這首歌念念不忘。
那女孩對我說
心很空 天很大 雲很重
我恨孤單 卻趕不走
捧著她的名字 她的喜怒哀樂
往前走 多久了
一個人心中只有一個寶貝
久了之後 她變成了眼淚
淚一滴在左手 凝固成為寂寞
往回看 有什麼
那女孩對我說 說我保護她的夢
說這個世界 對她這樣的不多
她漸漸忘了我 但是她並不曉得
遍體麟傷的我 一天也沒再愛過
那女孩對我說 說我是一個小偷
偷她的回憶 塞進我的腦海中
我不需要自由 只想揹著她的夢
一步步向前走 她給的永遠不重
我們的對話被臺上的吉它手打斷﹐愁愁淡淡的爵士樂﹐她看著桌上的蠟燭﹐淡淡的笑容...
我想她會遇到﹐不需要自由﹐只想揹著她的夢的男孩...
7/28/2006
If I Were a Rich Man...
In the business of money and greed, I often wonder, what does rich mean? How rich is rich?
One of my most loved musical film when I was a child, Fiddler on the Roof (1971), has a catchy song called "If I were a rich man". The main character, Tevye, a Jewish Farmer living in Pre-revolution Russia. He is a simple character, happy but poor with a good heart, a little greedy, and with 3 daughters. The story revolves around his family and the fate of his daughters. I can see some similarities in this classic with Ang Lee's "Eat Drink Men Women".
In one scene, you see the poor farmer daydreaming, dancing in his barn, singing outloud...
If I Were a Rich Man
"Dear God, you made many, many poor people.
I realize, of course, that it's no shame to be poor.
But it's no great honor either!
So, what would have been so terrible if I had a small fortune?"
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I'd build a big tall house with rooms by the dozen,
Right in the middle of the town.
A fine tin roof with real wooden floors below.
There would be one long staircase just going up,
And one even longer coming down,
And one more leading nowhere, just for show.
I'd fill my yard with chicks and turkeys and geese and ducks
For the town to see and hear.
And each loud "cheep" and "swaqwk" and "honk" and "quack"
Would land like a trumpet on the ear,
As if to say "Here lives a wealthy man."
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I see my wife, my Golde, looking like a rich man's wife
With a proper double-chin.
Supervising meals to her heart's delight.
I see her putting on airs and strutting like a peacock.
Oy, what a happy mood she's in.
Screaming at the servants, day and night.
The most important men in town would come to fawn on me!
They would ask me to advise them,
Like a Solomon the Wise.
"If you please, Reb Tevye..."
"Pardon me, Reb Tevye..."
Posing problems that would cross a rabbi's eyes!
And it won't make one bit of difference if i answer right or wrong.
When you're rich, they think you really know!
If I were rich, I'd have the time that I lack
To sit in the synagogue and pray.
And maybe have a seat by the Eastern wall.
And I'd discuss the holy books with the learned men, several hours every day.
That would be the sweetest thing of all.
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
His view of being Rich is to have a big house, lots of animals, being fed well, being respected, and having lots of time to study. Many things haven't changed over the years, people still want to be richer than they are now. Wealth means big houses, properties, good food, respect... and maybe free time. What Tevye missed is the fact that wealth will probably not bring him happiness, although he thought it might.
Money is the necessary evil in life, it is something we have created to help us to value, to trade, but it also helped us to judge people. Not many people can see pass that...
One of my most loved musical film when I was a child, Fiddler on the Roof (1971), has a catchy song called "If I were a rich man". The main character, Tevye, a Jewish Farmer living in Pre-revolution Russia. He is a simple character, happy but poor with a good heart, a little greedy, and with 3 daughters. The story revolves around his family and the fate of his daughters. I can see some similarities in this classic with Ang Lee's "Eat Drink Men Women".
In one scene, you see the poor farmer daydreaming, dancing in his barn, singing outloud...
If I Were a Rich Man
"Dear God, you made many, many poor people.
I realize, of course, that it's no shame to be poor.
But it's no great honor either!
So, what would have been so terrible if I had a small fortune?"
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I'd build a big tall house with rooms by the dozen,
Right in the middle of the town.
A fine tin roof with real wooden floors below.
There would be one long staircase just going up,
And one even longer coming down,
And one more leading nowhere, just for show.
I'd fill my yard with chicks and turkeys and geese and ducks
For the town to see and hear.
And each loud "cheep" and "swaqwk" and "honk" and "quack"
Would land like a trumpet on the ear,
As if to say "Here lives a wealthy man."
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I see my wife, my Golde, looking like a rich man's wife
With a proper double-chin.
Supervising meals to her heart's delight.
I see her putting on airs and strutting like a peacock.
Oy, what a happy mood she's in.
Screaming at the servants, day and night.
The most important men in town would come to fawn on me!
They would ask me to advise them,
Like a Solomon the Wise.
"If you please, Reb Tevye..."
"Pardon me, Reb Tevye..."
Posing problems that would cross a rabbi's eyes!
And it won't make one bit of difference if i answer right or wrong.
When you're rich, they think you really know!
If I were rich, I'd have the time that I lack
To sit in the synagogue and pray.
And maybe have a seat by the Eastern wall.
And I'd discuss the holy books with the learned men, several hours every day.
That would be the sweetest thing of all.
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
His view of being Rich is to have a big house, lots of animals, being fed well, being respected, and having lots of time to study. Many things haven't changed over the years, people still want to be richer than they are now. Wealth means big houses, properties, good food, respect... and maybe free time. What Tevye missed is the fact that wealth will probably not bring him happiness, although he thought it might.
Money is the necessary evil in life, it is something we have created to help us to value, to trade, but it also helped us to judge people. Not many people can see pass that...
7/26/2006
Fear
Fear is the unpleasant feeling of risk, a force that freezes your thoughts and chokes your breath. The fear of height, the fear of water, the fear of getting old, the fear of death, the fear of giving, the fear of love, the fear of being loved...
My worst fears are 1)being ordinary 2)I will never find someone who understands me in this world.
I watched "Munich" last night, taking the political discussions aside, there was one scene where one of the character told the main character.
"...You do any terrifying thing you're asked to do, but you have to do it running. You think you can outrun your fears, your doubts. The only thing that really scares you guys is stillness."
Fear is what it is, Fear. Every individuals have their ways of dealing with their own fears. Most would run away, going to another country, changing names, making new friends, going into another relationship...
It reminds me of Pac-Man. The yellow pizza-looking creature has to move around to avoid the ghosts chasing him. You can never play Pac-Man having it stationary. However, eventually, your fears will catch up with you. Then, you have no choice but to face your fear.
Do you know what your fears are? And how do you deal with them?
My worst fears are 1)being ordinary 2)I will never find someone who understands me in this world.
I watched "Munich" last night, taking the political discussions aside, there was one scene where one of the character told the main character.
"...You do any terrifying thing you're asked to do, but you have to do it running. You think you can outrun your fears, your doubts. The only thing that really scares you guys is stillness."
Fear is what it is, Fear. Every individuals have their ways of dealing with their own fears. Most would run away, going to another country, changing names, making new friends, going into another relationship...
It reminds me of Pac-Man. The yellow pizza-looking creature has to move around to avoid the ghosts chasing him. You can never play Pac-Man having it stationary. However, eventually, your fears will catch up with you. Then, you have no choice but to face your fear.
Do you know what your fears are? And how do you deal with them?
7/22/2006
小王子第八章
小王子是個寫給大人的故事，他所逛過的星球，見過的人都是大人世界天天可見的角色。小王子的第八章，有一段小王子形容他的玫瑰花...
"Je n'ai alors rien su comprendre! J'aurais dû la juger sur les actes et non sur les mots. Elle m'embaumait et m'éclairait. Je n'aurais jamais dû m'enfuir! J'aurais dû devinre sa tendresse derrière ses pauvres ruses. les fleurs sont si contradictoires! Mais j'étais trop jeune pour savoir l'aimer."
"事實上我以前什麼事情都不了解! 我應該以她的行為去做判斷，而不是只聽她所說的。她的光彩、她的香氣讓我魂牽夢繫。我當時不應該離開她的... 我應該試著去猜她影藏在花招背後的愛意。花是多麼的自相矛盾! 但我當時還太年輕，不知道如何去愛她..."
各位朋友們，看出來了嗎?
小王子說的不只是他的玫瑰，他說的是每位男性所經歷的... 愛過的那個女人...
"Je n'ai alors rien su comprendre! J'aurais dû la juger sur les actes et non sur les mots. Elle m'embaumait et m'éclairait. Je n'aurais jamais dû m'enfuir! J'aurais dû devinre sa tendresse derrière ses pauvres ruses. les fleurs sont si contradictoires! Mais j'étais trop jeune pour savoir l'aimer."
"事實上我以前什麼事情都不了解! 我應該以她的行為去做判斷，而不是只聽她所說的。她的光彩、她的香氣讓我魂牽夢繫。我當時不應該離開她的... 我應該試著去猜她影藏在花招背後的愛意。花是多麼的自相矛盾! 但我當時還太年輕，不知道如何去愛她..."
各位朋友們，看出來了嗎?
小王子說的不只是他的玫瑰，他說的是每位男性所經歷的... 愛過的那個女人...
7/21/2006
我是客家人
小時候，曾經聽見爺爺和爸爸用奇怪的語言溝通，長大之後才知道是客家話，所以我就算是客家人…
從來沒有人教過我客家話，長這麼大，只會說一句”我是神經病”，其他的全部聽不懂。但每次和朋友說我是客家人的時候，都會有以下對話:
「huh~你是客家人哦…」
「是啊~」
「來我家不要讓我爸(或媽)知道你是客家人…」
「為什麼?! 」
「他很討厭客家人」
「…」
「還有聽說嫁給客家人很可憐」
「為什麼?!」
「就很可憐，我也不知道為什麼」
經過幾次沒頭沒腦的對話，我還是不知道客家人哪裡有問題受歧視，倒是對我未來的婚姻有小小的擔憂… 嫁給我會很可憐?!
我問我爺爺幹嘛都不教我客家話，我現在連聽都不會，小小丟臉，爺爺就一直跟我講有很多名人都是客家人，不過說來說去都是一些政治人物。
沒關係，我自己上網找。
原來客家人沒有自己的省份，傳說可能是古久之前，戰亂時從北逃到南方，所以現在廣東和福建有不少客家人。我家聽說就是十一代前從廣東梅縣移民到台灣的。
客家人大概是因為沒有自己的家，所以特別重視功名，過去科舉時代，有不少客家狀元。客家人相信從政或在政府工作是最揚眉吐氣的事。怪不得我爸那邊，全都在政府工作，還都很會唸書，而我爺爺每次看到我還一直叫我考試唸書…
另外，客家的女性在以前是需要下田工作的，所以很多人都說客家女人非常刻苦耐勞，反之，客家男性就顯得很大男人，現代的客家女人不只要工作，家務也要照顧，因為客家男人是不管的。(這是真的，我從來沒有看過我爺爺伯伯下廚煮飯給任何人吃，我想幫奶奶姑姑還都會被罵) 怪不得有人說嫁給客家人很可憐…
客家人很節省，能省就省，能反覆使用的就反覆使用，但我覺得我媽比我爸省多了，雖然我媽不是客家人。但我覺得這是我最客家的地方，對自己是很刻的，非常小氣芭樂，買自己的東西，可能要在心中三審，三審後又否決，但買給女朋友的東西就很啊莎力。有位朋友說我這種人真犯賤，只有女朋友的時候才會去高級餐廳，平常在家就吃泡麵…
從來沒有人教過我客家話，長這麼大，只會說一句”我是神經病”，其他的全部聽不懂。但每次和朋友說我是客家人的時候，都會有以下對話:
「huh~你是客家人哦…」
「是啊~」
「來我家不要讓我爸(或媽)知道你是客家人…」
「為什麼?! 」
「他很討厭客家人」
「…」
「還有聽說嫁給客家人很可憐」
「為什麼?!」
「就很可憐，我也不知道為什麼」
經過幾次沒頭沒腦的對話，我還是不知道客家人哪裡有問題受歧視，倒是對我未來的婚姻有小小的擔憂… 嫁給我會很可憐?!
我問我爺爺幹嘛都不教我客家話，我現在連聽都不會，小小丟臉，爺爺就一直跟我講有很多名人都是客家人，不過說來說去都是一些政治人物。
沒關係，我自己上網找。
原來客家人沒有自己的省份，傳說可能是古久之前，戰亂時從北逃到南方，所以現在廣東和福建有不少客家人。我家聽說就是十一代前從廣東梅縣移民到台灣的。
客家人大概是因為沒有自己的家，所以特別重視功名，過去科舉時代，有不少客家狀元。客家人相信從政或在政府工作是最揚眉吐氣的事。怪不得我爸那邊，全都在政府工作，還都很會唸書，而我爺爺每次看到我還一直叫我考試唸書…
另外，客家的女性在以前是需要下田工作的，所以很多人都說客家女人非常刻苦耐勞，反之，客家男性就顯得很大男人，現代的客家女人不只要工作，家務也要照顧，因為客家男人是不管的。(這是真的，我從來沒有看過我爺爺伯伯下廚煮飯給任何人吃，我想幫奶奶姑姑還都會被罵) 怪不得有人說嫁給客家人很可憐…
客家人很節省，能省就省，能反覆使用的就反覆使用，但我覺得我媽比我爸省多了，雖然我媽不是客家人。但我覺得這是我最客家的地方，對自己是很刻的，非常小氣芭樂，買自己的東西，可能要在心中三審，三審後又否決，但買給女朋友的東西就很啊莎力。有位朋友說我這種人真犯賤，只有女朋友的時候才會去高級餐廳，平常在家就吃泡麵…
客家人有根深蒂固的家庭觀念，父母的話唯命是從。我爸以前睡覺打呼被我媽抱怨十幾年，都沒怎樣，和我爺爺出遊一次，同樣被抱怨，兩個月後就去做手術，雖然我爺爺打呼大聲多了…
看著看著，發現自己還真不客家，許多觀點都很不一樣，只有長大後才慢慢了解，有很多東西我都不能接受。所以，我是客家人，但我還蠻不客家的…
7/20/2006
我是超級風象男人
以前對星座沒什麼興趣，更別提什麼火像、風象的，但自從知道原來還有上升、太陽、月亮星座的，我的上升是水瓶，太陽是天枰，月亮是雙子。三個都是所謂的風象星座，所以我是超級無敵風象男人...
風象星座的人喜歡說話，flirtatious，喜歡社交，看我的幾個外號: 小羊碎碎唸、social butterfly、社交貴賓狗... 好像還蠻準的...
Wikipedia的風像說明:
Air Sign According to astrological theory, air signs are the talkers and communicators of the Zodiac. Typically they are supposed to be intellectual, analytical, articulate and versatile - able to discuss just about any topic. Air signs are also seen as the masters of social graces because they enjoy socialising and are very good at "small talk". They are often seen as so objective that they are unable to be practical and realistic.
At worst, air signs are supposed to be so changeable they will not stay anywhere for any length of time, and so restless they have trouble with serious concentration on any single job they might be required to carry out. Air signs' role is seen as providing the ideas that make the future different from the past, whereas fire signs carry out the actions necessary for this. In human relationships, air signs are said to be gregarious and extroverted, often attracting friends very willingly and easily with their charm and ability to communicate.
However, air signs are believed to be lacking in passion and unable to form strong, lasting relationships; astrologers believe few air sign people are able to have a single marriage, for they are said to be as apt to try out new people as new ideas. Air signs are also thought to be extremely lacking in emotional depth because they tend to intellectualise their feelings and generally want to avoid difficult obstacles that might be needed to hold a partnership together.
Air signs are seen as complementary to fire signs because they provide the ideas that allow the fire signs to carry out their action. However, it is often though that fire signs are too flagrant and impatient for the air signs to tolerate permanently. Air signs are supposed to more or less understand Earth signs because they share a basically rational nature. However, whilst air signs are supposed to admire earth signs' will to achieve, they supposedly find them too timid, pessimistic, undemonstrative and cautious, and the earth signs, though attracted by the air signs' unique thoughts, find them completely unrealistic. Water signs are believed to be much too passionate and emotionally deep for air signs' flighty, flirtatious nature: indeed, astrology believes air signs hate water signs as too subjective, secretive and illogical. For their part water signs supposedly deride air signs as emotionally shallow, excessively concerned with worldly pleasure, and uncaring.
With most planets in air signs, astrology belives the individual is likely to tend to try to do too many things at once and be impractical, restless, even scheming. At best, such a person could be extraordinarily bright and intelligent and able to provide new innovations. With few or no planets in air signs, astrology believes the person will be unable to articulate thoughts or ideas. they may lack social graces necessary to communicate and, at worst, are supposed to distance themselves from their own ideas ...
我看得有點毛骨悚然，因為還真準，只有講到感情和工作，我就不大茍同，照上面說的，我應該沒有辦法和一個人在一起太久，或在一個工作做太久。認識我的人都覺得我還蠻死心榻地的，不過很多剛認識我的人，都承認他們對我的第一印象是... 我應該是很不專情、很愛換工作的人... 還有我絕對絕對不會逃避感情中的困難!
看了半天，我最大的心得是.... 我應該要找一個火象女人把我燒一燒，要不找一個風象女人跟我自相殘殺、一起作夢...
風象星座的人喜歡說話，flirtatious，喜歡社交，看我的幾個外號: 小羊碎碎唸、social butterfly、社交貴賓狗... 好像還蠻準的...
Wikipedia的風像說明:
Air Sign According to astrological theory, air signs are the talkers and communicators of the Zodiac. Typically they are supposed to be intellectual, analytical, articulate and versatile - able to discuss just about any topic. Air signs are also seen as the masters of social graces because they enjoy socialising and are very good at "small talk". They are often seen as so objective that they are unable to be practical and realistic.
At worst, air signs are supposed to be so changeable they will not stay anywhere for any length of time, and so restless they have trouble with serious concentration on any single job they might be required to carry out. Air signs' role is seen as providing the ideas that make the future different from the past, whereas fire signs carry out the actions necessary for this. In human relationships, air signs are said to be gregarious and extroverted, often attracting friends very willingly and easily with their charm and ability to communicate.
However, air signs are believed to be lacking in passion and unable to form strong, lasting relationships; astrologers believe few air sign people are able to have a single marriage, for they are said to be as apt to try out new people as new ideas. Air signs are also thought to be extremely lacking in emotional depth because they tend to intellectualise their feelings and generally want to avoid difficult obstacles that might be needed to hold a partnership together.
Air signs are seen as complementary to fire signs because they provide the ideas that allow the fire signs to carry out their action. However, it is often though that fire signs are too flagrant and impatient for the air signs to tolerate permanently. Air signs are supposed to more or less understand Earth signs because they share a basically rational nature. However, whilst air signs are supposed to admire earth signs' will to achieve, they supposedly find them too timid, pessimistic, undemonstrative and cautious, and the earth signs, though attracted by the air signs' unique thoughts, find them completely unrealistic. Water signs are believed to be much too passionate and emotionally deep for air signs' flighty, flirtatious nature: indeed, astrology believes air signs hate water signs as too subjective, secretive and illogical. For their part water signs supposedly deride air signs as emotionally shallow, excessively concerned with worldly pleasure, and uncaring.
With most planets in air signs, astrology belives the individual is likely to tend to try to do too many things at once and be impractical, restless, even scheming. At best, such a person could be extraordinarily bright and intelligent and able to provide new innovations. With few or no planets in air signs, astrology believes the person will be unable to articulate thoughts or ideas. they may lack social graces necessary to communicate and, at worst, are supposed to distance themselves from their own ideas ...
我看得有點毛骨悚然，因為還真準，只有講到感情和工作，我就不大茍同，照上面說的，我應該沒有辦法和一個人在一起太久，或在一個工作做太久。認識我的人都覺得我還蠻死心榻地的，不過很多剛認識我的人，都承認他們對我的第一印象是... 我應該是很不專情、很愛換工作的人... 還有我絕對絕對不會逃避感情中的困難!
看了半天，我最大的心得是.... 我應該要找一個火象女人把我燒一燒，要不找一個風象女人跟我自相殘殺、一起作夢...
7/19/2006
so I am a snake
I was born as a fire snake, according to the chinese zodiac. I also know that snakes are creepy, cold blood creatures.
According to Wikipedia,
The person born in the year of snake is perhaps the wisest and most enigmatic of all. He/she can become a philosopher, a theologian, a political lizard or a wily financier. Such a person is a thinker who also likes to live well. The snake-person loves books, music, clothes, and fine food; but with all his fondness for the good things in life, his innate elegance gives him a dislike for frivolities and foolish talk. Snake-persons like communicating and like interesting conversations; if the conversation becomes repetitive their attention may soon wander. It is almost impossible to fix their attention for long talking about the weather. They prefer to focus on new, interesting, unusual ideas and on intelligent discussion in general. These people have a special talent that enables them to judge situations correctly. They are alert to new possibilities: when they have an idea of what to do and how to do it, they will pursue it persistently and energetically. They are self-confident and usually don't bother to listen to someone else's opinion. But this can also have a negative effect. Refusing to listen to constructive advice, they may get into needless trouble. Although it is difficult for such people to take advice, they are patient with others when it comes to giving a helping hand, and their ability to look at a problem from a variety of angles is extremely appreciated. When faced with a dilemma, snake people, as a rule, act with speed and conviction, since they believe intensely in what they are doing and rarely waste time or energy on projects lacking in good potential.
I think many of the points are very similar to my horoscope, for example, likes finer things in life (sun sign libra), looks at a problem from a variety of angles (sun sign libra), likes interesting ppl and conversations (rising sign aquarius), hard to take advice (rising sign aquarius), short attention span (moon sign gemini)...
However, the biggest difference is on situations when I may face a dilemma, Libra cannot decide while a snake act with speed and conviction.
On the other hand, my blood type AB doesn't not share any traits with snake, which is kinda interesting, considering AB does share some characteristics with my horoscope, rational (aquarius), sociable (libra), cool (aquarius), indecisive (libra)...
Again, you shouldn't divide ppl up into 12 groups, but including all the other stuff in, this might become interesting... :)
According to Wikipedia,
The person born in the year of snake is perhaps the wisest and most enigmatic of all. He/she can become a philosopher, a theologian, a political lizard or a wily financier. Such a person is a thinker who also likes to live well. The snake-person loves books, music, clothes, and fine food; but with all his fondness for the good things in life, his innate elegance gives him a dislike for frivolities and foolish talk. Snake-persons like communicating and like interesting conversations; if the conversation becomes repetitive their attention may soon wander. It is almost impossible to fix their attention for long talking about the weather. They prefer to focus on new, interesting, unusual ideas and on intelligent discussion in general. These people have a special talent that enables them to judge situations correctly. They are alert to new possibilities: when they have an idea of what to do and how to do it, they will pursue it persistently and energetically. They are self-confident and usually don't bother to listen to someone else's opinion. But this can also have a negative effect. Refusing to listen to constructive advice, they may get into needless trouble. Although it is difficult for such people to take advice, they are patient with others when it comes to giving a helping hand, and their ability to look at a problem from a variety of angles is extremely appreciated. When faced with a dilemma, snake people, as a rule, act with speed and conviction, since they believe intensely in what they are doing and rarely waste time or energy on projects lacking in good potential.
I think many of the points are very similar to my horoscope, for example, likes finer things in life (sun sign libra), looks at a problem from a variety of angles (sun sign libra), likes interesting ppl and conversations (rising sign aquarius), hard to take advice (rising sign aquarius), short attention span (moon sign gemini)...
However, the biggest difference is on situations when I may face a dilemma, Libra cannot decide while a snake act with speed and conviction.
On the other hand, my blood type AB doesn't not share any traits with snake, which is kinda interesting, considering AB does share some characteristics with my horoscope, rational (aquarius), sociable (libra), cool (aquarius), indecisive (libra)...
Again, you shouldn't divide ppl up into 12 groups, but including all the other stuff in, this might become interesting... :)
7/18/2006
so I am type AB
I never knew what my blood type was until I was 14, checking my blood was part of the physical check-up. I am type AB positive, which didn't come to a surprise since my mom is a B, my dad is an A.
However, I did receive some weird looks when I disclosed that I am type AB. My friends told me that type ABs are selfish, sneaky and weird, I suppose being weird can be subjective, but I didn't think that I was that selfish nor sneaky.
When I was in biology class, I learnt that people with AB blood can receive blood from any type in tranfusion, but AB blood can only be accepted by people with AB blood. So, to put it another way, AB takes blood from everyone, but only gives blood to AB. I suppose this is where the selfish thingie come from.
When I was donating blood a few years ago, I asked the nurse, since AB blood can only be accepted by AB and O blood can be accepted by everyone, does that mean my blood is less desirable? She said no, because the plasma from AB blood can only be donated to people with AB blood, while O blood people can take plasma from any blood type. Another thing, she added, AB is only about 4% of the population in the world, while O and A take about 75%. I guess that is where the sneaky thing come from, we are a rare breed!
So I have done further research, the blood type personality research was done in the early 20th century, when German Nazi used it to justified that they are a superior race. (more A and O, while more B in Jews and Asian) Then Japanese catched on, thought the finding will breed better soliders, then the craze faded in the 1930s as its unscientific basis became evident. However, in 1970s, some writer/journalist named Masahiko Nomi, who had no medical background, wrote books on blood type and personality. In the book, A is common in Japan, O is prime minister material (60% of Japanese prime ministers are Os), B makes good cooks while, AB is often considered the least desirable type. Nomi became famous, and so did the theory.
According to Nomi:
A - law-abiding, conservative, introverted, reserved, patient, punctual, perfectionist, good with plants, obsessive, stubborn, self conscious, and uptight.
O - outgoing, passionate, and individualistic, ambitious, athletic, robust and self-confident, natural leaders, arrogant, vain, insensitive and ruthless.
B - carefree and cheerful, creative and passionate, animal loving, optimistic, flexible, individualist, forgetful, irresponsible, and self-centered.
AB - serious, cool, controlled, rational, sociable, popular, empathic, aloof, critical, indecisive and unforgiving.
I know it is probably not right to divide people into four groups and determine their personalities that way. If there are only four types of people in the world, it would be a very boring place. Plus, I found myself with traits from other blood type as well. I wonder what if I combine horoscope, blood type, chinese horoscope all together, would that be an accurate description of my personality?
oh, and please, now you know where the theory came from, please stop discriminate people by blood types (esp. type AB), try discriminating them by the way they treat small animals. :)
However, I did receive some weird looks when I disclosed that I am type AB. My friends told me that type ABs are selfish, sneaky and weird, I suppose being weird can be subjective, but I didn't think that I was that selfish nor sneaky.
When I was in biology class, I learnt that people with AB blood can receive blood from any type in tranfusion, but AB blood can only be accepted by people with AB blood. So, to put it another way, AB takes blood from everyone, but only gives blood to AB. I suppose this is where the selfish thingie come from.
When I was donating blood a few years ago, I asked the nurse, since AB blood can only be accepted by AB and O blood can be accepted by everyone, does that mean my blood is less desirable? She said no, because the plasma from AB blood can only be donated to people with AB blood, while O blood people can take plasma from any blood type. Another thing, she added, AB is only about 4% of the population in the world, while O and A take about 75%. I guess that is where the sneaky thing come from, we are a rare breed!
So I have done further research, the blood type personality research was done in the early 20th century, when German Nazi used it to justified that they are a superior race. (more A and O, while more B in Jews and Asian) Then Japanese catched on, thought the finding will breed better soliders, then the craze faded in the 1930s as its unscientific basis became evident. However, in 1970s, some writer/journalist named Masahiko Nomi, who had no medical background, wrote books on blood type and personality. In the book, A is common in Japan, O is prime minister material (60% of Japanese prime ministers are Os), B makes good cooks while, AB is often considered the least desirable type. Nomi became famous, and so did the theory.
According to Nomi:
A - law-abiding, conservative, introverted, reserved, patient, punctual, perfectionist, good with plants, obsessive, stubborn, self conscious, and uptight.
O - outgoing, passionate, and individualistic, ambitious, athletic, robust and self-confident, natural leaders, arrogant, vain, insensitive and ruthless.
B - carefree and cheerful, creative and passionate, animal loving, optimistic, flexible, individualist, forgetful, irresponsible, and self-centered.
AB - serious, cool, controlled, rational, sociable, popular, empathic, aloof, critical, indecisive and unforgiving.
I know it is probably not right to divide people into four groups and determine their personalities that way. If there are only four types of people in the world, it would be a very boring place. Plus, I found myself with traits from other blood type as well. I wonder what if I combine horoscope, blood type, chinese horoscope all together, would that be an accurate description of my personality?
oh, and please, now you know where the theory came from, please stop discriminate people by blood types (esp. type AB), try discriminating them by the way they treat small animals. :)
7/16/2006
童話
一個夏天週日的下午，懶洋洋的大太陽，看了場莎翁的戲劇，和幾個好友參加了無聊的派對，卻意外的找到一間很棒的義大利餐廳，回家的路上，聽到了光良的童話，從來都沒有好好聽過這首歌，每次都被ktv的悲慘劇情吸引...
童話
忘了有多久 再沒聽到你
對我說你最愛的故事
我想了很久 我開始慌了
是不是我又做錯了甚麼
你哭著對我說 童話裡都是騙人的
我不可能是你的王子
也許你不會懂 從你說愛我以後
我的天空星星都亮了
我願變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使
張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
一開始覺得是很標準的台式愛情，女孩一不開心，就覺得自己有錯，但還浪漫的相信自己可以給女生幸福，就算那女生根本不想要，但那旋律還真是好聽，不知不覺就哼到家裡，也許我還是有些童話情結，不管愛不愛，都是做那個守護的天使...
童話
忘了有多久 再沒聽到你
對我說你最愛的故事
我想了很久 我開始慌了
是不是我又做錯了甚麼
你哭著對我說 童話裡都是騙人的
我不可能是你的王子
也許你不會懂 從你說愛我以後
我的天空星星都亮了
我願變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使
張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
一開始覺得是很標準的台式愛情，女孩一不開心，就覺得自己有錯，但還浪漫的相信自己可以給女生幸福，就算那女生根本不想要，但那旋律還真是好聽，不知不覺就哼到家裡，也許我還是有些童話情結，不管愛不愛，都是做那個守護的天使...
7/12/2006
Mr. Big
"Why the heck are you still talking to him?", I asked
"You know he is my Mr. Big...", my friend told me the other day, over the phone, I could imagine her shrugging at the same time.
Who is this Mr. Big? Like the Mr. Big in "Sex and City", he is handsome, mature, wealth, and romantic. The only problem is that he is in another relationship...
The thing is, as most girls who are seeking someone of Mr. Big quality, they idolize Mr. Big. Doesn't matter if Mr. Big is abusive, mentally unavaliable, or a complete moral faliure, he is the thing that make a girl's knees weak.
Why is that the case? I suspect that subconsciouslly these girls are sabotaging their own relationships by getting into relationships that have no tomorrows. Even though most of them say, "all I want is a stable and long term relationship with someone who cares about me...", but by being with Mr. Big, how the heck will they satisfy any of the above needs? I think they should just admit that, "I want fiery, passionate love, with rollercoaster rides and heartaches in between", not there is anything wrong with that, I think that is a more accurate statment of the girls who are looking for Mr. Big.
Of course, that is a little cynical, given that wanting to be with someone who is mature, wealthy, good looking and romantic is every girl's dream. However, they really don't have to pick the ones with all of the above quality plus being abusive, mentally unavaliable, or a complete moral faliure. I understand why girls would love Mr. Big, but please don't tell me that all you want is Adian, while you are still looking for Mr. Big. Maybe, you are not ready for Adian?
Girls, I think Mr. Big is Mr. Big only because you want him to be your Mr. Big, you have given the power to him to become a Mr. Big... Hopefully, I am not someone's Mr. Big.
"You know he is my Mr. Big...", my friend told me the other day, over the phone, I could imagine her shrugging at the same time.
Who is this Mr. Big? Like the Mr. Big in "Sex and City", he is handsome, mature, wealth, and romantic. The only problem is that he is in another relationship...
The thing is, as most girls who are seeking someone of Mr. Big quality, they idolize Mr. Big. Doesn't matter if Mr. Big is abusive, mentally unavaliable, or a complete moral faliure, he is the thing that make a girl's knees weak.
Why is that the case? I suspect that subconsciouslly these girls are sabotaging their own relationships by getting into relationships that have no tomorrows. Even though most of them say, "all I want is a stable and long term relationship with someone who cares about me...", but by being with Mr. Big, how the heck will they satisfy any of the above needs? I think they should just admit that, "I want fiery, passionate love, with rollercoaster rides and heartaches in between", not there is anything wrong with that, I think that is a more accurate statment of the girls who are looking for Mr. Big.
Of course, that is a little cynical, given that wanting to be with someone who is mature, wealthy, good looking and romantic is every girl's dream. However, they really don't have to pick the ones with all of the above quality plus being abusive, mentally unavaliable, or a complete moral faliure. I understand why girls would love Mr. Big, but please don't tell me that all you want is Adian, while you are still looking for Mr. Big. Maybe, you are not ready for Adian?
Girls, I think Mr. Big is Mr. Big only because you want him to be your Mr. Big, you have given the power to him to become a Mr. Big... Hopefully, I am not someone's Mr. Big.
7/06/2006
Whatever Will Be, Will Be
最近花了很多時間在想事情，有的可以控制，有的無法避免，但我變得很散神，專注力大受影響...
腦中好像有很多事等我去做，但就是提不起勁，好像有很多話可以說，但就是停在喉中，都是大腦打結...
直到聽到這首歌，耳熟能詳的旋律，但從沒有仔細的去聽歌詞...
Whatever Will Be, Will Be
Performed by Doris Day
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me
Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said
Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
Now I have children of my own
They asked their mother what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly
Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
一生的過程好像就是這樣，感情、婚姻、事業，有些事情超出我們控制範圍的，該放手，認天命... 但真的難，真的要放手做到 Que sera, sera?
腦中好像有很多事等我去做，但就是提不起勁，好像有很多話可以說，但就是停在喉中，都是大腦打結...
直到聽到這首歌，耳熟能詳的旋律，但從沒有仔細的去聽歌詞...
Whatever Will Be, Will Be
Performed by Doris Day
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me
Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said
Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
Now I have children of my own
They asked their mother what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly
Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
一生的過程好像就是這樣，感情、婚姻、事業，有些事情超出我們控制範圍的，該放手，認天命... 但真的難，真的要放手做到 Que sera, sera?
7/05/2006
What is that humming noise?
When I woke up this morning, I remember this moment I had last month, and I chuckled...
It was when a few of my friends and I went down to Seattle to attend a buddy's graduation. My buddy actually rented a very nice place for us to stay.
In the morning, when I found some of my friends missing, I decided to take a walk at the nearby lake, Green lake, pretty close to the Woodland park. It was a beautiful late spring/early summer morning, you see people jogging, young and old, you see family playing basketball, it felt like another world...
When I went back to the house, my buddy was preparing breakfast. We had a wonderful time chatting away, and then... we heard this humming noise... first it was very faint, then it became louder.
We thought it came from the wall, no, we checked the tv, kitchen, upstairs, washrooms. You could almost feel that the floor is humming as well. What the heck! We did a full house search, nothing...
Fine, we were just about to leave the house anyways. That is when I picked up my bag on the floor... and the bag is humming! I opened the bag, there it was, my braun electric shaver, humming away. I turned off the shaver, and the humming noise was gone. Everyone just looked at each other for a few seconds, then bursted into laughs... some good times!
It was when a few of my friends and I went down to Seattle to attend a buddy's graduation. My buddy actually rented a very nice place for us to stay.
In the morning, when I found some of my friends missing, I decided to take a walk at the nearby lake, Green lake, pretty close to the Woodland park. It was a beautiful late spring/early summer morning, you see people jogging, young and old, you see family playing basketball, it felt like another world...
When I went back to the house, my buddy was preparing breakfast. We had a wonderful time chatting away, and then... we heard this humming noise... first it was very faint, then it became louder.
We thought it came from the wall, no, we checked the tv, kitchen, upstairs, washrooms. You could almost feel that the floor is humming as well. What the heck! We did a full house search, nothing...
Fine, we were just about to leave the house anyways. That is when I picked up my bag on the floor... and the bag is humming! I opened the bag, there it was, my braun electric shaver, humming away. I turned off the shaver, and the humming noise was gone. Everyone just looked at each other for a few seconds, then bursted into laughs... some good times!
7/03/2006
稻香
又是一個炎熱夏天的夜晚，突然在深夜中清醒，反正睡不著，翻翻書架上大部分做裝飾的書。
在風扇聲音的背景音樂中，我翻起了爺爺送我的一本書。
我每次和朋友提起我爺爺是種田的，都沒有人相信。我小時候印象，爺爺的辦公室在稻田中，稍微長大後，才知道爺爺是做稻米的研究。我爺爺和我爸爸、弟弟一樣是沉默的人，每次過年回鄉下，他都會帶祖孫三代去逛他工作的研究園，這是芭蕉、這是可可、那是麵包樹...多年不改，直到他退休後都保持習慣，還是帶我和我爸爸去逛研究園，這是芭蕉、這是可可、那是麵包樹...
爺爺從沒解釋過他做的研究是什麼，我只有在片片段段了解他年輕時差點被日軍送去東南亞做砲灰，曾在巴拿馬待過... 至於他的工作，我並不清楚，對我來說，爺爺是個長的很可愛，喜歡在公園唱卡拉OK，喜歡叫我唸書，受過日本教育的白髮老人...
「稻香」是我今年回台灣，爺爺送我的書，他說是他的著作，我看看封面寫著「稻作育種試驗研究推廣生涯之回顧」，說真的，沒有想要看的衝動，書被我當裝飾幾個月，終於被我拿起來催眠... 沒想到，一讀就是停不下來，原來爺爺研究稻米幾十年的經驗，就被縮成幾十頁，就好像一本自傳，原來爺爺曾被政府送去巴拿馬、芠萊、菲律賓做農產品的援助發展，又像是武功密籍，詳細的記載每種米的差異，堆肥的方式，甚至煮飯的方式... 一粒粒的米就是爺爺幾十年的苦心...
翻到最後一頁，爺爺把祖孫三代的照片，也是我去年回台灣照的照片，佔滿整頁，寫了大大的「全家福照」，我才赫然發現，原來不擅言詞的爺爺，花時間把他的經驗寫成書的原因就是要讓家裡的人了解他的過去，他的熱誠... 我應該打個電話給爺爺說，他真的好了不起...
在風扇聲音的背景音樂中，我翻起了爺爺送我的一本書。
我每次和朋友提起我爺爺是種田的，都沒有人相信。我小時候印象，爺爺的辦公室在稻田中，稍微長大後，才知道爺爺是做稻米的研究。我爺爺和我爸爸、弟弟一樣是沉默的人，每次過年回鄉下，他都會帶祖孫三代去逛他工作的研究園，這是芭蕉、這是可可、那是麵包樹...多年不改，直到他退休後都保持習慣，還是帶我和我爸爸去逛研究園，這是芭蕉、這是可可、那是麵包樹...
爺爺從沒解釋過他做的研究是什麼，我只有在片片段段了解他年輕時差點被日軍送去東南亞做砲灰，曾在巴拿馬待過... 至於他的工作，我並不清楚，對我來說，爺爺是個長的很可愛，喜歡在公園唱卡拉OK，喜歡叫我唸書，受過日本教育的白髮老人...
「稻香」是我今年回台灣，爺爺送我的書，他說是他的著作，我看看封面寫著「稻作育種試驗研究推廣生涯之回顧」，說真的，沒有想要看的衝動，書被我當裝飾幾個月，終於被我拿起來催眠... 沒想到，一讀就是停不下來，原來爺爺研究稻米幾十年的經驗，就被縮成幾十頁，就好像一本自傳，原來爺爺曾被政府送去巴拿馬、芠萊、菲律賓做農產品的援助發展，又像是武功密籍，詳細的記載每種米的差異，堆肥的方式，甚至煮飯的方式... 一粒粒的米就是爺爺幾十年的苦心...
翻到最後一頁，爺爺把祖孫三代的照片，也是我去年回台灣照的照片，佔滿整頁，寫了大大的「全家福照」，我才赫然發現，原來不擅言詞的爺爺，花時間把他的經驗寫成書的原因就是要讓家裡的人了解他的過去，他的熱誠... 我應該打個電話給爺爺說，他真的好了不起...
7/02/2006
It wasn't you...
It was me on the dance floor,
Did you see me?
No, it wasn't you,
it wasn't you in that corner,
looking at me.
Alone on the dance floor,
moving with the music,
my eyes wonder,
my mind wonders,
Is that you,
is that you in white?
No, it wasn't you,
it wasn't you in white,
looking at me.
Moving my body with the music,
I thought I saw your face,
in the crowd,
No, it wasn't you,
it wasn't you in the crowd,
smiling at me.
I know it wasn't you,
but I still saw your face,
everywhere I turned,
I still saw your smile,
everytime I closed my eyes,
I know it wasn't,
it wasn't you...
Did you see me?
No, it wasn't you,
it wasn't you in that corner,
looking at me.
Alone on the dance floor,
moving with the music,
my eyes wonder,
my mind wonders,
Is that you,
is that you in white?
No, it wasn't you,
it wasn't you in white,
looking at me.
Moving my body with the music,
I thought I saw your face,
in the crowd,
No, it wasn't you,
it wasn't you in the crowd,
smiling at me.
I know it wasn't you,
but I still saw your face,
everywhere I turned,
I still saw your smile,
everytime I closed my eyes,
I know it wasn't,
it wasn't you...
6/27/2006
Be married, be merry…
剛收到一封久未見面國中摯友的來信，他說下個月要結婚了，要我跨海祝福他。當然，收到他的信並不奇怪，只是身邊的朋友好像都悄悄的結了婚…
從去年六月到今年六月，我一共參加了四次婚禮，當了三次主持，一次男儐相，得到一次新娘的吊帶，感覺像作夢，作了一次又一次的夢，朋友們都悄悄的往人生的下一步走…
我曾經是個婚姻的逃兵，有很想嫁給我的女生，但我還太年輕，太害怕婚姻。我總覺得，現代人對婚姻很隨便，好聚好散，我不相信自己，也不敢相信別人對婚姻有多認真…
我要求自己花時間去了解自己，害怕的原因到底在哪? 我積極參與朋友們的婚禮，和準新人們一起計畫流程，和新郎去買新表、拿禮服… 發現兩人的溝通有多麼重要，一個婚禮，一個婚姻並不只兩個人的結合，而是兩個家庭的結合。許多口角，許多爭執，可以不是有關兩人，但會延伸到兩人的家庭背景、兩個人的價值觀、兩個人教育子女的方式… 我深深相信，一個婚禮幹麼辦的那麼隆重，那麼多習俗，那麼多人，做麼多事，又吃飯，又迎娶，又鬧洞房… 為的只是有一天，可能是多年後，可能是幾個月後，兩口子鬧得不開心，還可以回想當年為了在一起，花了多少力氣，有什麼事不能溝通?
慢慢的，我也受到了感染，朋友的開心，婚禮的歡樂，尤其是每次主持後才發現自己是一個人，該死的…還是一個人…
想有個牽掛的同時，也開始看見有朋友們，年輕結婚，或已經訂了婚，因為小事，因為外遇，也是不愉快，有的結不成婚，有的要離婚，好像證明我年輕時對婚姻的不信任感，看起來像一個又一個的惡夢…
對我現在來說，be merry比be married還要重要多了，還是希望可以轟轟烈烈、認認真真的談戀愛，如果繼續走下去，那是最完美的，但我不奢求，畢竟我沒有太多可以給的，除了我自己…
從去年六月到今年六月，我一共參加了四次婚禮，當了三次主持，一次男儐相，得到一次新娘的吊帶，感覺像作夢，作了一次又一次的夢，朋友們都悄悄的往人生的下一步走…
我曾經是個婚姻的逃兵，有很想嫁給我的女生，但我還太年輕，太害怕婚姻。我總覺得，現代人對婚姻很隨便，好聚好散，我不相信自己，也不敢相信別人對婚姻有多認真…
我要求自己花時間去了解自己，害怕的原因到底在哪? 我積極參與朋友們的婚禮，和準新人們一起計畫流程，和新郎去買新表、拿禮服… 發現兩人的溝通有多麼重要，一個婚禮，一個婚姻並不只兩個人的結合，而是兩個家庭的結合。許多口角，許多爭執，可以不是有關兩人，但會延伸到兩人的家庭背景、兩個人的價值觀、兩個人教育子女的方式… 我深深相信，一個婚禮幹麼辦的那麼隆重，那麼多習俗，那麼多人，做麼多事，又吃飯，又迎娶，又鬧洞房… 為的只是有一天，可能是多年後，可能是幾個月後，兩口子鬧得不開心，還可以回想當年為了在一起，花了多少力氣，有什麼事不能溝通?
慢慢的，我也受到了感染，朋友的開心，婚禮的歡樂，尤其是每次主持後才發現自己是一個人，該死的…還是一個人…
想有個牽掛的同時，也開始看見有朋友們，年輕結婚，或已經訂了婚，因為小事，因為外遇，也是不愉快，有的結不成婚，有的要離婚，好像證明我年輕時對婚姻的不信任感，看起來像一個又一個的惡夢…
對我現在來說，be merry比be married還要重要多了，還是希望可以轟轟烈烈、認認真真的談戀愛，如果繼續走下去，那是最完美的，但我不奢求，畢竟我沒有太多可以給的，除了我自己…
6/24/2006
SFO a few months later...
Here I am, 8 months later, 8 months older, travelling on the same highway from SFO to Santa Clara. An interesting day it has been, delayed flight, cramped seat, between meals, talked to you...
Only 8 months ago, I thought I was in love, only 1 month ago, I thought I was in love again. It hasn't been easy... seeing you being happy with someone else, but it has to be, as it has always been...
On the lonely road in the middle of nowhere, I thought about you, where the road could have led to, I thought about the things you said, the things I might have said, it hasn't been easy... wishing you happy with someone else, but it has to be, as it has always been...
I wish I can be the childish me, telling you to stay, but instead, I wish you well, in the city of Santa Clara, I wish you joy, under the starless cloudless sky, I wish you nothing more and nothing less than what you wish for, as always, only in SFO, only a few weeks later, only a few months later...
Only 8 months ago, I thought I was in love, only 1 month ago, I thought I was in love again. It hasn't been easy... seeing you being happy with someone else, but it has to be, as it has always been...
On the lonely road in the middle of nowhere, I thought about you, where the road could have led to, I thought about the things you said, the things I might have said, it hasn't been easy... wishing you happy with someone else, but it has to be, as it has always been...
I wish I can be the childish me, telling you to stay, but instead, I wish you well, in the city of Santa Clara, I wish you joy, under the starless cloudless sky, I wish you nothing more and nothing less than what you wish for, as always, only in SFO, only a few weeks later, only a few months later...
6/22/2006
Please forgive me...
If you ask me, who is my favourite Canadian singer, there are quite a few choices, Michael Buble, Nelly Furtado, Diana Krall, Alanis Morissette, Celine Dion, Shania Twain... But, without a second thought, I would say "Bryan Adams".
Every since high school, I have been listening to Bryan, good old songs like "summer of '69", "All for one", newer songs like "cloud #9", "let's make a night to remember", every song brings back some memory, somehow, his songs were always there, playing in the background.
He always has this casual attutide towards his music, you would see him in old jeans in his concerts or even in his own music videos. To me, that is canadian music, that is canadian, non-pretentious and passionate, kinda like me...
One song I love the most, is "Please forgive me"...
Please Forgive Me
It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on
So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me
This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do
One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...
With his rugged voice and mellow rock music. The somewhat sisi song begging for love actually worked. In the music video, there was no story, just a camera following a dog while it is wondering around in the stuido when Bryan and his band is performing the song. Very Bryan...
Towards the end of the song, it turns into this soft rambling... Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you...
This song was always there, everytime I fell in love...
Every since high school, I have been listening to Bryan, good old songs like "summer of '69", "All for one", newer songs like "cloud #9", "let's make a night to remember", every song brings back some memory, somehow, his songs were always there, playing in the background.
He always has this casual attutide towards his music, you would see him in old jeans in his concerts or even in his own music videos. To me, that is canadian music, that is canadian, non-pretentious and passionate, kinda like me...
One song I love the most, is "Please forgive me"...
Please Forgive Me
It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on
So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me
This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do
One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...
With his rugged voice and mellow rock music. The somewhat sisi song begging for love actually worked. In the music video, there was no story, just a camera following a dog while it is wondering around in the stuido when Bryan and his band is performing the song. Very Bryan...
Towards the end of the song, it turns into this soft rambling... Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you...
This song was always there, everytime I fell in love...
6/18/2006
後來...
辛苦熬了一年，終於把青商會傳承下去。
吵雜的餐廳中，算是人生的另一個階段的開始，事實上，心情有些激動，事實上，很希望有些人目睹我的卸任，事實上，好像沒什麼大不了...
找了藉口，離開了晚上的第二攤，覺得應該讓他們聊聊，我好像應該想想後來該如何...
後來
後來 我總算學會了 如何去愛
可惜你 早已遠去 消失在人海
後來 終於在眼淚中明白
有些人 一旦錯過就不再
梔子花 白花瓣 落在我藍色百褶裙
「愛你」 你輕聲說
我低下頭 聞見一陣芬芳
那個永恆的夜晚 十七歲仲夏 你吻我的那個夜晚
讓我往後的時光 每當有感嘆
總想起 當天的星光
那時候的愛情 為什麼就能那樣簡單
而又是為什麼 人年少時
一定要讓深愛的受傷
在這相似的深夜裡 你是否一樣 也在靜靜追懷感傷
如果當時我們能 不那麼倔強
現在也 不那麼遺憾
你都如何回憶我 帶著笑或是很沉默
這些年來 有沒有人能讓你不寂寞
永遠不會再重來
有一個男孩 愛著那個女孩
事實上劉若英的聲音並不好聽，但歌詞卻讓懷舊的我有許多感觸...
過去的一年，真的很開心，認識了許多朋友，一起工作的感覺，不帶勾心鬥角，不計較功勞，真的非常謝謝你們的照顧!
最近久沒見的高中同學，都說我一點都沒變，聽了有些氣餒，以為經歷幾年至少有變成熟，變帥吧? 幾個月沒見的朋友卻說，我看起來很累，我想是裡裡外外都累了，但還有很多東西想做，是該放給合適的人做的時候了...
不知為什麼，想起了那個獨立的女孩，獨立到完全不需我的存在，她唱過這首歌給我聽，如果妳看見，妳覺得我有變嗎?
吵雜的餐廳中，算是人生的另一個階段的開始，事實上，心情有些激動，事實上，很希望有些人目睹我的卸任，事實上，好像沒什麼大不了...
找了藉口，離開了晚上的第二攤，覺得應該讓他們聊聊，我好像應該想想後來該如何...
後來
後來 我總算學會了 如何去愛
可惜你 早已遠去 消失在人海
後來 終於在眼淚中明白
有些人 一旦錯過就不再
梔子花 白花瓣 落在我藍色百褶裙
「愛你」 你輕聲說
我低下頭 聞見一陣芬芳
那個永恆的夜晚 十七歲仲夏 你吻我的那個夜晚
讓我往後的時光 每當有感嘆
總想起 當天的星光
那時候的愛情 為什麼就能那樣簡單
而又是為什麼 人年少時
一定要讓深愛的受傷
在這相似的深夜裡 你是否一樣 也在靜靜追懷感傷
如果當時我們能 不那麼倔強
現在也 不那麼遺憾
你都如何回憶我 帶著笑或是很沉默
這些年來 有沒有人能讓你不寂寞
永遠不會再重來
有一個男孩 愛著那個女孩
事實上劉若英的聲音並不好聽，但歌詞卻讓懷舊的我有許多感觸...
過去的一年，真的很開心，認識了許多朋友，一起工作的感覺，不帶勾心鬥角，不計較功勞，真的非常謝謝你們的照顧!
最近久沒見的高中同學，都說我一點都沒變，聽了有些氣餒，以為經歷幾年至少有變成熟，變帥吧? 幾個月沒見的朋友卻說，我看起來很累，我想是裡裡外外都累了，但還有很多東西想做，是該放給合適的人做的時候了...
不知為什麼，想起了那個獨立的女孩，獨立到完全不需我的存在，她唱過這首歌給我聽，如果妳看見，妳覺得我有變嗎?
6/15/2006
十年
一九九六年的初夏，幾位在下課時間打了好多年撲克牌的高中朋友，打了最後一次大老二… 然後就好幾年沒再見了…
兩千零六年的初夏，蚊子回到溫哥華，四位久未見面的朋友又坐在一起…
蚊子、天豬、豬、小羊在本拿比的一間餐館回溯過去，兩個女生都沒有什麼變，兩個男生都發福了…
因為幾個人十年沒見了，輪流提供自己最新的訊息，一個在國外晃了一圈又回來，一個過去十年都在唸書，一個自大學畢業後都在同一個地方工作(雖然公司換了三次名字)，好像大家都繞了一個大圈圈回到原點…
當然，我免不了又問過去十年大家快不快樂? 大家都是有一點快樂，我說非常快樂，因為有機會經歷了許多…
不知為什麼，開始回憶起老師的名字，蚊子不愧為當年的老師寵物，不止記得許多ESL老師的名字，還知道哪些退休，哪些轉行，哪些仙逝了，說著說著，我提議回去學校走走…
真的有好多年沒回去了，學校建了新的校舍，但停車場、操場、側門、餐廳… 都沒有變… 我們走在校園的角落，一切都很像作夢，夢境不是很清晰，但場景和人物都是似曾相識…
隔著鐵門往裡看，熟悉的桌椅，熟悉的走廊，熟悉的Locker，熟悉的教室，彷彿可以看見自己和朋友坐在地上打牌，第一次上課背著背包迷惘的跟著人群，彷彿可以看見自己第一次嚐到失戀的滋味，痛苦的一個人坐在走廊邊，彷彿…
天豬說好像學校的樹都沒有長大，我也覺得我們好像也都沒有長大，停留在最青澀的那一刻，擔心考試，擔心明天，等著下課，等著打球… We have changed, but we are still the same…
不知道誰突然問，如果有選擇，會選擇回到學生年代嗎?
不會，十年前高中那個青澀純真的年代，有美麗、有痛苦的回憶，但它只適合作回憶，因為我們還會有更多的回憶，不是嗎?
兩千零六年的初夏，蚊子回到溫哥華，四位久未見面的朋友又坐在一起…
蚊子、天豬、豬、小羊在本拿比的一間餐館回溯過去，兩個女生都沒有什麼變，兩個男生都發福了…
因為幾個人十年沒見了，輪流提供自己最新的訊息，一個在國外晃了一圈又回來，一個過去十年都在唸書，一個自大學畢業後都在同一個地方工作(雖然公司換了三次名字)，好像大家都繞了一個大圈圈回到原點…
當然，我免不了又問過去十年大家快不快樂? 大家都是有一點快樂，我說非常快樂，因為有機會經歷了許多…
不知為什麼，開始回憶起老師的名字，蚊子不愧為當年的老師寵物，不止記得許多ESL老師的名字，還知道哪些退休，哪些轉行，哪些仙逝了，說著說著，我提議回去學校走走…
真的有好多年沒回去了，學校建了新的校舍，但停車場、操場、側門、餐廳… 都沒有變… 我們走在校園的角落，一切都很像作夢，夢境不是很清晰，但場景和人物都是似曾相識…
隔著鐵門往裡看，熟悉的桌椅，熟悉的走廊，熟悉的Locker，熟悉的教室，彷彿可以看見自己和朋友坐在地上打牌，第一次上課背著背包迷惘的跟著人群，彷彿可以看見自己第一次嚐到失戀的滋味，痛苦的一個人坐在走廊邊，彷彿…
天豬說好像學校的樹都沒有長大，我也覺得我們好像也都沒有長大，停留在最青澀的那一刻，擔心考試，擔心明天，等著下課，等著打球… We have changed, but we are still the same…
不知道誰突然問，如果有選擇，會選擇回到學生年代嗎?
不會，十年前高中那個青澀純真的年代，有美麗、有痛苦的回憶，但它只適合作回憶，因為我們還會有更多的回憶，不是嗎?
6/13/2006
When did you?
I had a chance to go down to the states for a buddy's MBA graduation, it was a great chance to get away...
During the prolonged ceremony and between speeches, I found myself wondering outside of the theatre. In the hall way, there were two kids running around at full speed, chasing each other. An attendent went over and asked them to walk instead of running. Of course, her request was promptly ignored.
But...
When did you learn to walk instead of running?
When did you learn to cry instead of laughing?
When did you learn to lie instead of telling the truth?
When did you learn to walk away instead of fighting?
When did you learn to let go instead of holding on?
When did you start clapping instead of jumping for joy?
When did you start talking instead of listening?
When did you start to be dissatisfied instead of being contented?
When did you learn to hate instead of to love?
When did you start to walk instead of running?
During the prolonged ceremony and between speeches, I found myself wondering outside of the theatre. In the hall way, there were two kids running around at full speed, chasing each other. An attendent went over and asked them to walk instead of running. Of course, her request was promptly ignored.
But...
When did you learn to walk instead of running?
When did you learn to cry instead of laughing?
When did you learn to lie instead of telling the truth?
When did you learn to walk away instead of fighting?
When did you learn to let go instead of holding on?
When did you start clapping instead of jumping for joy?
When did you start talking instead of listening?
When did you start to be dissatisfied instead of being contented?
When did you learn to hate instead of to love?
When did you start to walk instead of running?
6/07/2006
一年換十年的愛情…
昨天晚上，出外透透氣，見見有陣沒碰面的朋友，順便幫她慶生，在酒精微薰的情況下開車回家，半路上，朋友打電話來，問我最近如何，我覺得十分窩心，因為她再30分鐘就生日了，還關心我過得好不好。
我老實跟她說不怎麼好，但會過去的。倒是她讓我擔心，聊了一下感情事，我不禁要問，到底什麼愛情才是值得? 對妳最好? 最愛妳? 讓妳最開心? 讓妳最有安全感? 有共同的未來? 我想大部分的人因該會選以上其中一個答案…
但說真的，妳現在的選擇真的是以上的其中一個嗎? 是值得的愛情嗎?
以前有一個客戶，我從來沒見過，聽我同事說，他幾年前得了Alzheimer，俗稱的老人癡呆症，長期住在療養院，所以他的事情，通知夫人就可以了。我看看夫人的名字，居然姓不同，一個八十歲的老先生，一個七十歲的老太太，為什麼有不同的姓?
我特地去客戶家裡見這位老太太，她提到他先生，他們的故事…
有正統牛津腔的老太太是德國人，第二次世界大戰時在奧地利學英文，認識她的前夫，他前夫是有愛爾蘭血統的英國大兵，戰後就隨他到英國，然後是加國…
他們結婚幾十年後，先生過世了，當時鄰居也是喪偶多年，兩人就互相照顧，這鄰居年輕時也打過二戰，還是加拿大歷史上第一位飛行有雷達飛機的技師，這位技師，就是她現在長住療養院的丈夫。
那她的姓呢? 為什麼沒有跟夫姓? 她說那是她前夫的姓，她跟她現在的丈夫結婚不到一年，就發現有輕微的老人癡呆症，然後慢慢的惡化，直到需要住療養院，她天天照三餐去療養院餵他吃飯，已經五年了…
她說著就露出了微笑，「他今天不錯哦，他今天記得我哦…」 我問她，那不好的時候呢? 「不好的時候，看我就好像看陌生人一樣…」綠色的瞳孔充滿了憂傷…
我聽的好感動，我之前的工作經驗告訴我，老人癡呆症平均壽命是十年，我想這老太太也知道這個數據。但他們才結婚一年，她為什麼可以為一個漸漸把她當陌生人的人，犧牲她自己沒剩幾年的人生? 尤其是一個她深愛的人，她怎麼忍心去天天面對他? 看他在自己面前慢慢消失?
當然，我不忍問她，但她的笑容，「他今天不錯哦…」，答案已經很明顯在表情、言語中…
她用十年的生命去陪伴、去愛一位只有當她一年的丈夫，從不問值得，如果這不是真愛，什麼是真愛?
我老實跟她說不怎麼好，但會過去的。倒是她讓我擔心，聊了一下感情事，我不禁要問，到底什麼愛情才是值得? 對妳最好? 最愛妳? 讓妳最開心? 讓妳最有安全感? 有共同的未來? 我想大部分的人因該會選以上其中一個答案…
但說真的，妳現在的選擇真的是以上的其中一個嗎? 是值得的愛情嗎?
以前有一個客戶，我從來沒見過，聽我同事說，他幾年前得了Alzheimer，俗稱的老人癡呆症，長期住在療養院，所以他的事情，通知夫人就可以了。我看看夫人的名字，居然姓不同，一個八十歲的老先生，一個七十歲的老太太，為什麼有不同的姓?
我特地去客戶家裡見這位老太太，她提到他先生，他們的故事…
有正統牛津腔的老太太是德國人，第二次世界大戰時在奧地利學英文，認識她的前夫，他前夫是有愛爾蘭血統的英國大兵，戰後就隨他到英國，然後是加國…
他們結婚幾十年後，先生過世了，當時鄰居也是喪偶多年，兩人就互相照顧，這鄰居年輕時也打過二戰，還是加拿大歷史上第一位飛行有雷達飛機的技師，這位技師，就是她現在長住療養院的丈夫。
那她的姓呢? 為什麼沒有跟夫姓? 她說那是她前夫的姓，她跟她現在的丈夫結婚不到一年，就發現有輕微的老人癡呆症，然後慢慢的惡化，直到需要住療養院，她天天照三餐去療養院餵他吃飯，已經五年了…
她說著就露出了微笑，「他今天不錯哦，他今天記得我哦…」 我問她，那不好的時候呢? 「不好的時候，看我就好像看陌生人一樣…」綠色的瞳孔充滿了憂傷…
我聽的好感動，我之前的工作經驗告訴我，老人癡呆症平均壽命是十年，我想這老太太也知道這個數據。但他們才結婚一年，她為什麼可以為一個漸漸把她當陌生人的人，犧牲她自己沒剩幾年的人生? 尤其是一個她深愛的人，她怎麼忍心去天天面對他? 看他在自己面前慢慢消失?
當然，我不忍問她，但她的笑容，「他今天不錯哦…」，答案已經很明顯在表情、言語中…
她用十年的生命去陪伴、去愛一位只有當她一年的丈夫，從不問值得，如果這不是真愛，什麼是真愛?
5/31/2006
觸摸一下回憶…
凌晨三點半，不知什麼原因，從沉睡中醒來。月光透過新裝上的窗簾，神秘又不可捉摸的顏色…
我無法克制的去觸摸那月光，只能感覺到窗簾細細冷冷的布料，但在指尖下好像逐漸溫暖…
我是個念舊的人，每次每次，人忙到一種地步，都會想起從前，想一些如果、想一些可能。尤其是想念自己，那個昨天的自己，不是想要回到過去，只是總覺得好像現在的自己不認識以前的自己。
翻翻桌上剛洗回來的照片，拖了半年，有兩百多張，但裡面的人真的是我嗎? 站在朋友婚禮、坐在火車上、和女友合照，每一張看起來都很開心，那真的是我嗎? 為什麼現在都感覺不到那時的快樂?
我總在夜深人靜時，觸摸一下回憶，感覺一下許許多多的喜怒哀樂，回憶不像照片，永遠是快樂的一霎那… 在指尖下流過那刻苦銘心的痛、那朦朧的月光、那狂喜的心跳、那茫然的焦急、那漠然的眼神、那逗留在胸口她的睙、那莫名的害怕、那幸福和痛苦交集的感覺、那完全不需妥協的快樂…
沉澱感情，觸摸一下回憶，才知道自己呼吸過空氣…
我無法克制的去觸摸那月光，只能感覺到窗簾細細冷冷的布料，但在指尖下好像逐漸溫暖…
我是個念舊的人，每次每次，人忙到一種地步，都會想起從前，想一些如果、想一些可能。尤其是想念自己，那個昨天的自己，不是想要回到過去，只是總覺得好像現在的自己不認識以前的自己。
翻翻桌上剛洗回來的照片，拖了半年，有兩百多張，但裡面的人真的是我嗎? 站在朋友婚禮、坐在火車上、和女友合照，每一張看起來都很開心，那真的是我嗎? 為什麼現在都感覺不到那時的快樂?
我總在夜深人靜時，觸摸一下回憶，感覺一下許許多多的喜怒哀樂，回憶不像照片，永遠是快樂的一霎那… 在指尖下流過那刻苦銘心的痛、那朦朧的月光、那狂喜的心跳、那茫然的焦急、那漠然的眼神、那逗留在胸口她的睙、那莫名的害怕、那幸福和痛苦交集的感覺、那完全不需妥協的快樂…
沉澱感情，觸摸一下回憶，才知道自己呼吸過空氣…
5/30/2006
As matter of Exs...
Last night, I had a nice dinner with a few friends at home. When I was reading some fashion magazines from TW. I heard one of my friend said, “shhhh… he can hear us...”
Not trying to be paranoid, but I was the only person not involved in the conversation.
“Okay, what were you guys talking about?”
“Er… we were just talking about which of your Exs suits you the best…”
That was interesting, even though they were all history; I definitely wanted to know what everyone thinks!
”Well, I think Ms. A is the most suited as far as personality, you guys are both out going and sociable, you are very compatible.” said Mr. B, the graphic designer.
“Really? Other than the fact that she can’t determine what she wants to do?”
“I think Ms. N is the best for him, she was nice, quiet and very housewife type, probably balance out his life better.” said Ms. J, the marketing entrepreneur.
“Ya… and she is currently married with a kid…”
“I think Ms. C is the most suitable one, you two look good together.” said Mr. A, the usually quiet professional photographer.
“Right… because we took salon pictures together?”
“I think Ms. L (not herself) is pretty, why do you like her again?” asked Ms. L, the real estate agent.
Me: er… (trying to think…)
Ms. J: If you have to think, then you don’t really like her.
Me: hm… (trying to think… with a smile on my face)
Ms. L: That’s right! You don’t like her.
Me: Did you guys know we have the same birthday?
Mr. B: No way…
Ms. J: So you are saying you have similar personalities?
Me: Ya… but we use different parts of our brains, I am the rational one, she is the artistic one.
Mr. A: She uses right brain, you use left brain.
Me: And, without going into details, with her family situation, she is the person I really want to protect and share her burdens.
…. (everyone)
Ms. L: Hey, what about Ms. R I introduced you the other day? Isn’t she pretty?
Ms. J: I don’t think he is interested… (others echoed)
Me: Well, she is very pretty, but I don’t think I am ready to be in a relationship yet. Let me rest a little first.
………... (everyone)
I couldn’t remember how the conversation ended, but I think it was a discussion about how I spoil my girls, and how I will get a trophy wife at home, she doesn’t even have to work after I get married. And of course, about how I would eat McDee everyday when single, but nice meals with girlfriends.
I couldn’t sleep last night, I couldn’t help to think, to think about how each relationship started and ended. Some started romantic, some started passionate, some ended with understanding, and some ended with a lame phone call. They are all very different, but they are all very independent in their own ways…
The only person who was involved in all these was me. Have I changed over the years? I think I have. I understand more, I care more. Most importantly, I think I know what type of girl I really want.
Have I changed the way I love? Probably not, as a few friends pointed out, I jumped into a relationship too quickly; fell in love too quickly, without making sure if others can return the same feelings.
I agree with the above statement. Some people go into relationship with extreme cautions because they don’t want to get hurt, and they will run at the first sign of trouble. I have to admit that I am quite picky when choosing a girl, but once in a relationship, I would pour in my feelings without reservation, hoping to receive something back.
That is why I still get burnt, no matter how long a relationship lasts. But without hesitation, I would do the same again. Like what I have heard before, “Work like you don’t need the money, Love like you haven’t been hurt before, and Dance like no one is looking.”
Would I change the way I love? No dear, I won’t!
Not trying to be paranoid, but I was the only person not involved in the conversation.
“Okay, what were you guys talking about?”
“Er… we were just talking about which of your Exs suits you the best…”
That was interesting, even though they were all history; I definitely wanted to know what everyone thinks!
”Well, I think Ms. A is the most suited as far as personality, you guys are both out going and sociable, you are very compatible.” said Mr. B, the graphic designer.
“Really? Other than the fact that she can’t determine what she wants to do?”
“I think Ms. N is the best for him, she was nice, quiet and very housewife type, probably balance out his life better.” said Ms. J, the marketing entrepreneur.
“Ya… and she is currently married with a kid…”
“I think Ms. C is the most suitable one, you two look good together.” said Mr. A, the usually quiet professional photographer.
“Right… because we took salon pictures together?”
“I think Ms. L (not herself) is pretty, why do you like her again?” asked Ms. L, the real estate agent.
Me: er… (trying to think…)
Ms. J: If you have to think, then you don’t really like her.
Me: hm… (trying to think… with a smile on my face)
Ms. L: That’s right! You don’t like her.
Me: Did you guys know we have the same birthday?
Mr. B: No way…
Ms. J: So you are saying you have similar personalities?
Me: Ya… but we use different parts of our brains, I am the rational one, she is the artistic one.
Mr. A: She uses right brain, you use left brain.
Me: And, without going into details, with her family situation, she is the person I really want to protect and share her burdens.
…. (everyone)
Ms. L: Hey, what about Ms. R I introduced you the other day? Isn’t she pretty?
Ms. J: I don’t think he is interested… (others echoed)
Me: Well, she is very pretty, but I don’t think I am ready to be in a relationship yet. Let me rest a little first.
………... (everyone)
I couldn’t remember how the conversation ended, but I think it was a discussion about how I spoil my girls, and how I will get a trophy wife at home, she doesn’t even have to work after I get married. And of course, about how I would eat McDee everyday when single, but nice meals with girlfriends.
I couldn’t sleep last night, I couldn’t help to think, to think about how each relationship started and ended. Some started romantic, some started passionate, some ended with understanding, and some ended with a lame phone call. They are all very different, but they are all very independent in their own ways…
The only person who was involved in all these was me. Have I changed over the years? I think I have. I understand more, I care more. Most importantly, I think I know what type of girl I really want.
Have I changed the way I love? Probably not, as a few friends pointed out, I jumped into a relationship too quickly; fell in love too quickly, without making sure if others can return the same feelings.
I agree with the above statement. Some people go into relationship with extreme cautions because they don’t want to get hurt, and they will run at the first sign of trouble. I have to admit that I am quite picky when choosing a girl, but once in a relationship, I would pour in my feelings without reservation, hoping to receive something back.
That is why I still get burnt, no matter how long a relationship lasts. But without hesitation, I would do the same again. Like what I have heard before, “Work like you don’t need the money, Love like you haven’t been hurt before, and Dance like no one is looking.”
Would I change the way I love? No dear, I won’t!
5/29/2006
Cool
It was brought to my attention that this song has been on the airwave for the past 2 years. I have to admit that I have never seriously listened to the lyrics, until a week ago. It reminds me of another song, 明年今日. Similar story, different attitudes...
It has been probably one of my biggest regret, that I have lost my best friend, someone who knew me dearly, when we broke up...
Cool
It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
Yeah, I know we're cool
And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
C-cool, I know we're cool
I know we're cool
___________________________________________
"We have changed but we're still the same"... I am happy for you, you are happy for me too, right?
It has been probably one of my biggest regret, that I have lost my best friend, someone who knew me dearly, when we broke up...
Cool
It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
Yeah, I know we're cool
And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
C-cool, I know we're cool
I know we're cool
___________________________________________
"We have changed but we're still the same"... I am happy for you, you are happy for me too, right?
5/26/2006
朣
「但我真的真的很愛他…」
「那我們呢? 」
「我們不該存在…」
「你陪我幾十年，會不會寂寞，會不會? 」
在構思幾年後，最近終於有動力把我心中的短篇小說寫完，當感覺對的時候，真的停不下來，從下午三點，一直寫到晚上十二點，寫完之後，有點惆悵，比起之前試著寫的小說，時間差了十一年，每一段，都是自己的故事...
http://girlseyes.blogspot.com/
「那我們呢? 」
「我們不該存在…」
「你陪我幾十年，會不會寂寞，會不會? 」
在構思幾年後，最近終於有動力把我心中的短篇小說寫完，當感覺對的時候，真的停不下來，從下午三點，一直寫到晚上十二點，寫完之後，有點惆悵，比起之前試著寫的小說，時間差了十一年，每一段，都是自己的故事...
http://girlseyes.blogspot.com/
5/23/2006
You are beautiful...
My friend said,
Come by my house after work, I still have some whiskey,
Let it go, it is better this way,
You are too good for her,
Please be strong and continue to have faith in love,
I say thank you, but I was thinking...
Maybe I should have held you longer,
kiss you longer,
listen to you more,
talk to you more,
hear you sing...
Maybe, it was not suppose to be...
Maybe, if I had met you earlier, or later...
Maybe, I will never be with you... or never should have...
"You're Beautiful"
My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
or never should have...
Come by my house after work, I still have some whiskey,
Let it go, it is better this way,
You are too good for her,
Please be strong and continue to have faith in love,
I say thank you, but I was thinking...
Maybe I should have held you longer,
kiss you longer,
listen to you more,
talk to you more,
hear you sing...
Maybe, it was not suppose to be...
Maybe, if I had met you earlier, or later...
Maybe, I will never be with you... or never should have...
"You're Beautiful"
My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
or never should have...
5/22/2006
給自己一個機會去愛...
過去幾個月， 工作、社團讓我喘不過氣，從台灣回來後，生了場大病，突然覺得好累好累，如果有人可以分享我的快樂悲傷，寂寞不會是有人陪的唯一理由，等待也絕對不是愛情空檔的原因...
在朋友的遵遵勸導下，我給自己一個機會去愛，畢竟放自己去忙，回到家，還是要面對自己...
真的去愛了，還會怕傷害嗎? 當然不怕，我怕的是沒有痛的感覺，如果都麻木了，愛還是愛嗎? 我想妳也認同，不是嗎?
妳是一個跟我同月同日生的可愛女生，非常勇敢，非常獨立，但也非常寂寞，我常跟朋友們開玩笑，我喜歡的對象一定不是單身又快樂的，單身又不快樂的或非單身又快樂也不 行，好像一定要非單身又不快樂的，才會激起我的雄性細胞。而妳，也不例外，每次聊到感情，都會說到妳以前的事，不是第一段感情，就是最近的一段，我才發現妳還真的很可愛，說自己的事，敘述得像別人的故事一般，有聲有色。每次每次，都是聊到深夜...
就這樣，像普通愛情故事的開始，我們走在一起了。年齡是我一開始還蠻介意的事，畢竟之前有試過年輕又不定的對象。後來，我慢慢的相信，也許，真的也許，我們的故事可以有快樂的結局。因為妳不一樣，妳真的不一樣。
去妳同學的畢業展，和妳朋友們吃飯，和我朋友們吃飯，參加社交活動，細細的觀察，好像喜歡的感覺越來越強烈...
通常，太過美好的事情都不是真的，一個念頭可以改變所有的事，一時的固執，妳選擇妳的過去，我可以了解妳的困難，自己經歷過，再加上天平的個性，我不贊同，但我可以了解，因為，我也說過: 不知道是不是對的選擇，但不試，我將來一定後悔...的話。
雖然，那一瞬間的感覺很像永遠，但妳並不是，我以為找到一個可以為我付出的人，但妳並不是，我認為我有愛過，那是真的...
感謝妳給過的一段情，我相信妳是真的，妳真的有試過，雖然我並沒有太多東西可以給妳，謝謝妳，我給了自己一個機會好好去愛，那一瞬間，我感覺我腳有離開地球，有真的被愛…
5/20/2006
要賺很多很多的錢...
家裡的教育，讓我至小對錢有些不削，但家裡的人一旦講到錢，又嚴肅的不得了，這種矛盾讓我對錢這個東西，產生極大的興趣，所以在商學院選主修時，毅然決然就選修金融...
事實上，現在社會的開放，你可以跟知心朋友談感情、談政治、談宗教、甚至談性，但談起錢，好像就很傷感情，例如問你的朋友，啊你都賺多少錢? 啊你每個月存多少錢? 而且年紀越大越不可說...
我每次和祖母的對話都類似以下:
祖母: 啊你每個月賺多少錢?
我: (努力換算成台幣，再除以十二) 哦~大概是xxxxx...
祖母: ....(不知道是覺得少還多) 那你有沒有在存錢?
我: (努力回想每月的預算報表) 大概是10%到15%吧...
祖母: (搖頭...) 怎麼存那麼少...
(祖父加入)
祖父: 要多唸書...
我: 阿公啊~我都畢業那麼久了，還唸哦~
祖父: 反正去考一些牌照，還有不要跟女朋友太近
我: 阿公~我都快半年沒女朋友了...
祖父: 不要太早結婚...
我: (啊我不是都說沒女朋友，要跟誰結?)
這次見到祖父母，終於忍不住問祖母...
我: 阿媽啊~幹嘛存這麼多錢? 阿公都說不要早結婚了
祖母: 存錢才會有錢啊~
我: 怎樣才算有錢?
祖母: 就有很多地，很多房子
我: 哪一種房子? 透天宅? 公寓? 還是皇宮?
祖母: …. (被我問到昏頭) 啊就是要有很多錢就對了
不過最近，我媽也開始類似的對話，以前她是真的不管的，她現在會面帶神秘又八卦的表情，好像是問我的感情事一般，啊 你每個月會存多少錢? 問她為什麼想知道，她就會理直氣壯的說，關心啊，不行嗎? 說真的，我要問她，她以前每個月都存多少，或她現在有多少存款，她大概會翻臉吧…
之前的工作，每天應對的客人是銀行所篩選出來的有錢人，所以我見了不少上流人士，但他們就像平常人一樣，擔心小孩的教育，擔心自己的婚姻，擔心錢不夠用，擔心借不到錢... 有沒有比較快樂，不用我說也知道當然沒有...
印象最深刻的是一位六十多歲的先生，第一次見到他是為他做信用貸款，為數不少，這位先生面帶笑容，看得出來是很樂天的人，但他說到他最近發現前列腺癌復發，他說著說著就哭了，面對這個第一次見面的客人，我真的不知所措，但這位樂天的先生，擦乾淚說我一定可以打敗病魔的，我也真的相信他做得到...
但幾個月後，我常常見到他，見到他慢慢的消瘦，態度也不再樂觀了，他在一次投資回顧時，跟我說他好累，作化療很難過，他真的撐不下去了，但又很擔心他的太太，他這次掉眼淚，不再樂觀了...
又幾個月後，他走了... 這個經驗我大概一輩子都忘不了，錢怎麼多，都換不了他自己的健康，這個每個人都知道，但為什麼每個人都瘋狂的跳同一個舞步呢?
事實上，現在社會的開放，你可以跟知心朋友談感情、談政治、談宗教、甚至談性，但談起錢，好像就很傷感情，例如問你的朋友，啊你都賺多少錢? 啊你每個月存多少錢? 而且年紀越大越不可說...
我每次和祖母的對話都類似以下:
祖母: 啊你每個月賺多少錢?
我: (努力換算成台幣，再除以十二) 哦~大概是xxxxx...
祖母: ....(不知道是覺得少還多) 那你有沒有在存錢?
我: (努力回想每月的預算報表) 大概是10%到15%吧...
祖母: (搖頭...) 怎麼存那麼少...
(祖父加入)
祖父: 要多唸書...
我: 阿公啊~我都畢業那麼久了，還唸哦~
祖父: 反正去考一些牌照，還有不要跟女朋友太近
我: 阿公~我都快半年沒女朋友了...
祖父: 不要太早結婚...
我: (啊我不是都說沒女朋友，要跟誰結?)
這次見到祖父母，終於忍不住問祖母...
我: 阿媽啊~幹嘛存這麼多錢? 阿公都說不要早結婚了
祖母: 存錢才會有錢啊~
我: 怎樣才算有錢?
祖母: 就有很多地，很多房子
我: 哪一種房子? 透天宅? 公寓? 還是皇宮?
祖母: …. (被我問到昏頭) 啊就是要有很多錢就對了
不過最近，我媽也開始類似的對話，以前她是真的不管的，她現在會面帶神秘又八卦的表情，好像是問我的感情事一般，啊 你每個月會存多少錢? 問她為什麼想知道，她就會理直氣壯的說，關心啊，不行嗎? 說真的，我要問她，她以前每個月都存多少，或她現在有多少存款，她大概會翻臉吧…
之前的工作，每天應對的客人是銀行所篩選出來的有錢人，所以我見了不少上流人士，但他們就像平常人一樣，擔心小孩的教育，擔心自己的婚姻，擔心錢不夠用，擔心借不到錢... 有沒有比較快樂，不用我說也知道當然沒有...
印象最深刻的是一位六十多歲的先生，第一次見到他是為他做信用貸款，為數不少，這位先生面帶笑容，看得出來是很樂天的人，但他說到他最近發現前列腺癌復發，他說著說著就哭了，面對這個第一次見面的客人，我真的不知所措，但這位樂天的先生，擦乾淚說我一定可以打敗病魔的，我也真的相信他做得到...
但幾個月後，我常常見到他，見到他慢慢的消瘦，態度也不再樂觀了，他在一次投資回顧時，跟我說他好累，作化療很難過，他真的撐不下去了，但又很擔心他的太太，他這次掉眼淚，不再樂觀了...
又幾個月後，他走了... 這個經驗我大概一輩子都忘不了，錢怎麼多，都換不了他自己的健康，這個每個人都知道，但為什麼每個人都瘋狂的跳同一個舞步呢?
5/15/2006
Where is lamb?
Yesterday afternoon I had a chance to volunteer at the International Children's Festival, to help setting up a tent.
The festival is held at Vanier Park. It was a gorgeous day yesterday. Green grass with white tents, blue sky, blue ocean, with kids playing kites, and birds flying by. With the warm breeze gentlely touching my face...
Turning around, you would have seen the Burrard bridge standing in the middle of the city, at a distant, you can almost hear the cars zipping over the bridge. It is quiet, maybe children's laughters far far away...
After exposing myself under the sun, I had a great dinner with 2 best friends and one really really special friend. It makes me wonder, why does anyone want to leave this city to go somewhere else?
The festival is held at Vanier Park. It was a gorgeous day yesterday. Green grass with white tents, blue sky, blue ocean, with kids playing kites, and birds flying by. With the warm breeze gentlely touching my face...
Turning around, you would have seen the Burrard bridge standing in the middle of the city, at a distant, you can almost hear the cars zipping over the bridge. It is quiet, maybe children's laughters far far away...
After exposing myself under the sun, I had a great dinner with 2 best friends and one really really special friend. It makes me wonder, why does anyone want to leave this city to go somewhere else?
5/09/2006
Michelle...
我的台灣行收穫最多的，居然是CD。去了那麼久，才買兩件T-shirt，CD卻買了5-6張，其中一張披頭四的CD，聽得非常感動，一些熟悉的歌，像 imagine，hey jude, let it be, help, yesterday... 其中的Michelle 還是第一次聽到，Paul有點懶懶的聲音，加上那句法文 Michelle Ma Belle Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble (Michelle my beautiful, these words go so well together)，很小品，很甜蜜，就好像我嚮往的愛情，不是轟轟烈烈，死去活來的...
Michelle (1965)
Michelle, ma belle
These are words that go together well
My Michelle
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I love you, I love you, I love you
that's all I want to say
Until I find a way
I will say the only words
I know you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I need to, I need to, I need to
I need to make you see
Oh, what you mean to me
Until I do I'm hoping you will know what I mean
I love you I want you, I want you,
I want you I think you know by now
I'll get to you some how
Until I do I'm telling you so you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
And I will say the only words
I know that you'll understand
My Michelle
我的Michelle到底去了哪裡?
Michelle (1965)
Michelle, ma belle
These are words that go together well
My Michelle
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I love you, I love you, I love you
that's all I want to say
Until I find a way
I will say the only words
I know you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I need to, I need to, I need to
I need to make you see
Oh, what you mean to me
Until I do I'm hoping you will know what I mean
I love you I want you, I want you,
I want you I think you know by now
I'll get to you some how
Until I do I'm telling you so you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
And I will say the only words
I know that you'll understand
My Michelle
我的Michelle到底去了哪裡?
5/08/2006
Celebration...
I had 3 songs that have brainwashed me all through the Taiwan trip, this is number 3. I hate to admit that, since this is performed by someone who is probably in the early 20s, and the original is from a korean group consist of kids 4-10. Nevertheless, it is a very invasive song...
楊承琳﹏慶祝‥
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
當年的你什麼都怕
怎麼會變成女警察
妳不是說永遠不嫁
搶先生了個胖娃娃
我們都在偷偷的長大
當簡單都變的複雜
當初就簡單的夢可別忘啦,歐~~歐~~
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
沒有一點世俗尷尬
尖叫著彼此的變化
誰發了財誰苦哈哈
這一刻煩惱誰理它
我們還在慢慢的長大
遲早會看見白頭髮
女生天生的單純 不會氧化
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
看不到成熟的辛苦
聽不見世界的忙碌
夢穿著無憂無慮的制服
在心裡長成一顆樹
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
楊承琳﹏慶祝‥
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
當年的你什麼都怕
怎麼會變成女警察
妳不是說永遠不嫁
搶先生了個胖娃娃
我們都在偷偷的長大
當簡單都變的複雜
當初就簡單的夢可別忘啦,歐~~歐~~
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
沒有一點世俗尷尬
尖叫著彼此的變化
誰發了財誰苦哈哈
這一刻煩惱誰理它
我們還在慢慢的長大
遲早會看見白頭髮
女生天生的單純 不會氧化
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
看不到成熟的辛苦
聽不見世界的忙碌
夢穿著無憂無慮的制服
在心裡長成一顆樹
每個夢都得到祝福
每顆淚都變成珍珠
每盞燈都像許願的蠟燭
每一天都值得慶祝
5/06/2006
reamt of getting hit by lightening 9 times...
When the Lottery money is high and I am feeling the pinch from work. I would spend that two dollars to dream about not needing to work for a while.
Last night's winning was 35 million, just imagine how all the material things you can get with that kind of money... Unfortunately, the odds of winning is about 1 in 63 million, that is 1/63,000,000, to put it another way, it is more like getting hit by lightening 9 times.
Although we can all agree that money is not the important thing in the world, it is pretty up there on the list, wouldn't it be nice that you don't have to worry about it?
I think there is another way, if your luck proves not to be 1 in the millions, how about arranging your own finances? Starting from today, find a good investment advisor (like me), and make your hard earned money working harder than you!
Last night's winning was 35 million, just imagine how all the material things you can get with that kind of money... Unfortunately, the odds of winning is about 1 in 63 million, that is 1/63,000,000, to put it another way, it is more like getting hit by lightening 9 times.
Although we can all agree that money is not the important thing in the world, it is pretty up there on the list, wouldn't it be nice that you don't have to worry about it?
I think there is another way, if your luck proves not to be 1 in the millions, how about arranging your own finances? Starting from today, find a good investment advisor (like me), and make your hard earned money working harder than you!
5/02/2006
我要快樂...
前幾天，少有的機會和朋友半夜長談，聊的是感情，我問她，妳現在快樂嗎? 她說，好像不怎麼快樂，一點都不快樂...
回到家，居然失眠了，反反覆覆想的是，什麼才是真正的愛? 過一天算一天，天若有情的愛，還是平平淡淡，沒有味道才算愛? 是不是快樂開心都只是片刻，傷心流淚才是永久，才是真?
想著想著，就想起張惠妹的歌...
我要快樂
又被愛傷了一遍 無所謂 當作成長
剛剛走開的人 煙還點著 味道卻淡了
我並不是天生愛寂寞 卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我 我還是一無所有
我要快樂 我要能睡的安穩
有些人 不抱了才溫暖
離開了才不恨 我早應該割捨
我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的 全都是假的
只有眼淚是真的
把從前想了一遍 謝謝了 傷我的人
想做樂觀的人 每種雨聲 聽了都不冷
我並不是天生愛寂寞 卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我 我還是一無所有
我要快樂 我要能睡的安穩
有些人 不抱了才溫暖
離開了才不恨 我早應該割捨
我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的 全都是假的
我的決定是對的
回到家，居然失眠了，反反覆覆想的是，什麼才是真正的愛? 過一天算一天，天若有情的愛，還是平平淡淡，沒有味道才算愛? 是不是快樂開心都只是片刻，傷心流淚才是永久，才是真?
想著想著，就想起張惠妹的歌...
我要快樂
又被愛傷了一遍 無所謂 當作成長
剛剛走開的人 煙還點著 味道卻淡了
我並不是天生愛寂寞 卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我 我還是一無所有
我要快樂 我要能睡的安穩
有些人 不抱了才溫暖
離開了才不恨 我早應該割捨
我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的 全都是假的
只有眼淚是真的
把從前想了一遍 謝謝了 傷我的人
想做樂觀的人 每種雨聲 聽了都不冷
我並不是天生愛寂寞 卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我 我還是一無所有
我要快樂 我要能睡的安穩
有些人 不抱了才溫暖
離開了才不恨 我早應該割捨
我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的 全都是假的
我的決定是對的
4/28/2006
I'm too nice?...
Here is a piece of my horoscope today...
"You're nice. That's not to say that you're too nice, or that you're a pushover, or that you're saccharine sweet. No, you're just nice, and you're nice to your fellow humans and people appreciate it. They like to work with you and they like to play with you. They like to talk to you and they like to walk with you. You care and they share and things work out nicely. Terrific. Just make sure that people are nice to you back. You've earned it!"
I always thought "nice" is a very boring word. To call someone "nice", is almost like you can't find any other word to describe that person, or you don't really know that person very well, so you settle for nice.
I have to admit, "nice" is probably the word most of my friends would describe me. Hopefully, they can find other words to describe me...
"You're nice. That's not to say that you're too nice, or that you're a pushover, or that you're saccharine sweet. No, you're just nice, and you're nice to your fellow humans and people appreciate it. They like to work with you and they like to play with you. They like to talk to you and they like to walk with you. You care and they share and things work out nicely. Terrific. Just make sure that people are nice to you back. You've earned it!"
I always thought "nice" is a very boring word. To call someone "nice", is almost like you can't find any other word to describe that person, or you don't really know that person very well, so you settle for nice.
I have to admit, "nice" is probably the word most of my friends would describe me. Hopefully, they can find other words to describe me...
4/26/2006
Yesterday...
First time I really listened to Yesterday was actually by Boyz to Men, back in the 90s. They did it in A capalle style, very cool. Of course, when I get older, I realized it was actually a Beatles' song. I have to admit, even though I know the lyrics, I still don't understand what it means...
Yesterday
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they’re here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly, I’m not half the man I used to be,
There’s a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go I don’t know she wouldn’t say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
_________________________________
I do know that I also believe in yesterday...
Yesterday
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they’re here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly, I’m not half the man I used to be,
There’s a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go I don’t know she wouldn’t say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
_________________________________
I do know that I also believe in yesterday...
4/25/2006
Dear friends, you have been B-listed...
Maybe spring is in the air, when I took a vacation back to Taiwan, many of my friends are dating, some after being single for a long time, some for the first time in twenty something years. I was amazed, but I thought at least I won't be around when they are in their little sweet world...
When I come back, I was again amazed to find out some of my friends are dating again, all of them happy!!
I guess being single long enough will turn a person into a couple-phobic, sometimes it becomes a little intolerable having people around you too happily in love. My solution? I have created different lists for different categories of friends.
A. Single friends: Doesn't have to be the positive sex, just friends I know I can usually count on when I need someone to dine out/watch a movie with.
B. Couple friends: They will sometimes occasionally call you, if their love ones are out of town/busy, and they feel bored. These friends are still okay to hang out with, because you never know when they will come back to A-list. Of course, picking up their calls are optional, and you can avoid their "double dates", especially there is just you and both of them.
C. Married friends: They are probably the worst for singles. They usually contact you once in a long time to host a home party at their house, trying to set up dates (so you can join their group), or trying to gossip about the people they know (maybe they are too bored?).
So, for those of you who just got B-listed, no worries, I know some of you will come back to A-list...
When I come back, I was again amazed to find out some of my friends are dating again, all of them happy!!
I guess being single long enough will turn a person into a couple-phobic, sometimes it becomes a little intolerable having people around you too happily in love. My solution? I have created different lists for different categories of friends.
A. Single friends: Doesn't have to be the positive sex, just friends I know I can usually count on when I need someone to dine out/watch a movie with.
B. Couple friends: They will sometimes occasionally call you, if their love ones are out of town/busy, and they feel bored. These friends are still okay to hang out with, because you never know when they will come back to A-list. Of course, picking up their calls are optional, and you can avoid their "double dates", especially there is just you and both of them.
C. Married friends: They are probably the worst for singles. They usually contact you once in a long time to host a home party at their house, trying to set up dates (so you can join their group), or trying to gossip about the people they know (maybe they are too bored?).
So, for those of you who just got B-listed, no worries, I know some of you will come back to A-list...
4/23/2006
人總是會變...
記得以前很討厭膠框眼鏡，但現在我配了，記得我以前不削開歐洲車的人，現在我自己開了，以前不會唱KTV，現在居然有人說我聲音不錯，以前說過每天只寫一個post...
在台灣有三首歌我在起床後就一直在收音機、便利商店、計程車、服飾店、餐廳、百貨公司、任何有人的地方... 聽見，記得以前好像也不怎麼喜歡他，但這首歌越聽越喜歡...
Kiss Goodbye
作詞王力宏 作曲王力宏
Baby 不要再哭泣
這一幕多麼熟悉
緊握著妳的手彼此都捨不得分離
每一次想開口 但不如保持安靜
給我一分鐘專心好好欣賞妳的美
幸福搭配悲傷 同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回 還欠妳的我不能給
別把我心也帶走去跟隨
每一次和妳分開
深深地被妳打敗
每一次放棄妳的溫柔 痛苦難以釋懷
每一次和妳分開
每一次Kiss You Goodbye
愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白
幸福搭配悲傷 同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回 還欠妳的我不能給
我才明白愛最真實的滋味
在台灣有三首歌我在起床後就一直在收音機、便利商店、計程車、服飾店、餐廳、百貨公司、任何有人的地方... 聽見，記得以前好像也不怎麼喜歡他，但這首歌越聽越喜歡...
Kiss Goodbye
作詞王力宏 作曲王力宏
Baby 不要再哭泣
這一幕多麼熟悉
緊握著妳的手彼此都捨不得分離
每一次想開口 但不如保持安靜
給我一分鐘專心好好欣賞妳的美
幸福搭配悲傷 同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回 還欠妳的我不能給
別把我心也帶走去跟隨
每一次和妳分開
深深地被妳打敗
每一次放棄妳的溫柔 痛苦難以釋懷
每一次和妳分開
每一次Kiss You Goodbye
愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白
幸福搭配悲傷 同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回 還欠妳的我不能給
我才明白愛最真實的滋味
人生一場夢...
我這次台灣香港行去了一個婚禮、一個葬禮、一個生日、三次錢櫃、兩次溫泉、見了朋友的第一個小孩、見了才認識五個月的網友、第一次醉倒、第一次抽煙... 真的非常精采
去婚禮的時候，會感嘆時間過得很快，看看同桌的朋友都是sfu的同學，又都是一對一對的，好像那時間已離我們很遠..
去葬禮的時候，會感覺人生一場鬧劇，當家祭舉行一半，葬者兒女跪一排的時候，居然還有其他親戚遲到進來，遲到就算了，一坐下來居然先把禮品包好，好像是看電影遲到一樣自然，想跟父親抱怨，一轉頭，我老爸居然在看自己帶來的小說，還做出不要出聲的動作，而司儀反覆一模一樣的台詞一點幫助都沒有，不到三十分鐘，真的有人睡著了，司儀還不厭其煩的問，還有沒有人沒有拜過，說也奇怪，他問的時候，就一定沒人理他，好像是問誰要自願去洗他家廁所一樣，但就會有已經拜過的親戚會和司儀耳語一番，司儀就會問'三叔公'在不在，三叔公就如釋重負得出來拜，這景象連續發生好多次，一定要人叫才會出來，我就覺得奇怪，人都來了，幹嘛不拜? 拜完就是吃飯，吃的人也不管家裡人準備的是素菜，吵餐廳給他們做葷菜，同桌的親戚(我都不認識)一個個輪流問，結婚沒? 什麼時候結? (很想問他們我要跟誰結?) 還有一個不知道是什麼姑姑輩的，每一道菜都會用她的筷子翻來翻去，一直問，這是什麼? 好不容易送入口中，又直喊飽，下一道菜又重複一樣動作...
去生日的時候，發現大家都不一樣了，壽星在一年中結婚又生子，但動作又和以前一樣..
見朋友小孩時，感覺生命的奇妙...
見到才認識五個月的網友時，認識緣分的奇妙，我們開始是在Friendster上聯絡，我們並沒有共同的朋友，只是我東晃西晃的時候看過她的profile，她寄一個smile給我，我加入她在Friendster，然後是msn，webcam，skype，電話... 我們聊了許多，但誰也沒想到五個月後，我們居然會在香港島蘭桂舫附近小巷裡的埃及小店中一起抽水煙、談心...
回到加，好像一場夢，是喜是悲，說不出來...
去婚禮的時候，會感嘆時間過得很快，看看同桌的朋友都是sfu的同學，又都是一對一對的，好像那時間已離我們很遠..
去葬禮的時候，會感覺人生一場鬧劇，當家祭舉行一半，葬者兒女跪一排的時候，居然還有其他親戚遲到進來，遲到就算了，一坐下來居然先把禮品包好，好像是看電影遲到一樣自然，想跟父親抱怨，一轉頭，我老爸居然在看自己帶來的小說，還做出不要出聲的動作，而司儀反覆一模一樣的台詞一點幫助都沒有，不到三十分鐘，真的有人睡著了，司儀還不厭其煩的問，還有沒有人沒有拜過，說也奇怪，他問的時候，就一定沒人理他，好像是問誰要自願去洗他家廁所一樣，但就會有已經拜過的親戚會和司儀耳語一番，司儀就會問'三叔公'在不在，三叔公就如釋重負得出來拜，這景象連續發生好多次，一定要人叫才會出來，我就覺得奇怪，人都來了，幹嘛不拜? 拜完就是吃飯，吃的人也不管家裡人準備的是素菜，吵餐廳給他們做葷菜，同桌的親戚(我都不認識)一個個輪流問，結婚沒? 什麼時候結? (很想問他們我要跟誰結?) 還有一個不知道是什麼姑姑輩的，每一道菜都會用她的筷子翻來翻去，一直問，這是什麼? 好不容易送入口中，又直喊飽，下一道菜又重複一樣動作...
去生日的時候，發現大家都不一樣了，壽星在一年中結婚又生子，但動作又和以前一樣..
見朋友小孩時，感覺生命的奇妙...
見到才認識五個月的網友時，認識緣分的奇妙，我們開始是在Friendster上聯絡，我們並沒有共同的朋友，只是我東晃西晃的時候看過她的profile，她寄一個smile給我，我加入她在Friendster，然後是msn，webcam，skype，電話... 我們聊了許多，但誰也沒想到五個月後，我們居然會在香港島蘭桂舫附近小巷裡的埃及小店中一起抽水煙、談心...
回到加，好像一場夢，是喜是悲，說不出來...
4/12/2006
南台灣小少爺養豬記...
繼台北羅董熱情招待豪華烏來斷背之旅 ，南部陳董也熱情款待高雄半日吃透透...
一大早從台北搭車南下，一路上期待的鐵路便當都沒有出現，一直餓肚子到高雄，一出車站，就被送去吃牛肉麵加小菜，剛吃得飽飽的，還沒去酒店，先去買了一些Mister Donut，到達下榻的酒店，才發現居然是高雄101的金典酒店，六十二樓加無敵高雄港海景，真得住得很不好意思，休息片刻，先去西子灣看打狗英國領事館，水果茶加兩種甜點，再去旗津走走，晚餐海鮮很棒不提，還擺了滿滿一小桌，我們才兩個人，抱著飽飽的肚子，經過一攤賣番茄的，原來是旗津有名的古早吃法，又來兩盤，再來，又被帶去吃水果刨冰，一直報怨肚子脹的時候，陳董說去愛河畔走走，我想也好，幫助消化，一到愛河，又被拉去喝有超濃奶油的奶茶...
一路吃到10點半，在超高級酒店久久不能入睡，只好紀錄今天的養豬過程...
一大早從台北搭車南下，一路上期待的鐵路便當都沒有出現，一直餓肚子到高雄，一出車站，就被送去吃牛肉麵加小菜，剛吃得飽飽的，還沒去酒店，先去買了一些Mister Donut，到達下榻的酒店，才發現居然是高雄101的金典酒店，六十二樓加無敵高雄港海景，真得住得很不好意思，休息片刻，先去西子灣看打狗英國領事館，水果茶加兩種甜點，再去旗津走走，晚餐海鮮很棒不提，還擺了滿滿一小桌，我們才兩個人，抱著飽飽的肚子，經過一攤賣番茄的，原來是旗津有名的古早吃法，又來兩盤，再來，又被帶去吃水果刨冰，一直報怨肚子脹的時候，陳董說去愛河畔走走，我想也好，幫助消化，一到愛河，又被拉去喝有超濃奶油的奶茶...
一路吃到10點半，在超高級酒店久久不能入睡，只好紀錄今天的養豬過程...
4/11/2006
烏來斷背 今日自己
昨天早上起來十分宿醉，十一點就被朋友拉到烏來泡湯，台北異常的下了大雨，在朦朧的溪邊，我和好友坦承相見，春秋烏來真的是蠻高級的地方，很有SPA的味道，加上週一沒什人，空曠的幾個湯就給我們兩個享用，我們從新婚生活聊到工作，又聊到女人... 多年來罕有的男性bonding時間...
下午去見了一位也在匯豐的朋友，聊了一陣，談到了最近她的感情生活...
晚上見了一位半年沒見的朋友，聊了她自歐洲巡迴演出後家裡的事情，陪她在家具店買了一些東西...
今天早上起床，把接下來三四天的行程都排好，和父親用過中餐，赫然發現我下午三點居然都沒事做了? 再看看昨天做了些什麼... 好像跟在溫哥華的週末沒什麼兩樣?
把一封寄出一定會遲，但收到人不會有心的生日卡寄出後，決定給自己一個假期中的假期...
下午去見了一位也在匯豐的朋友，聊了一陣，談到了最近她的感情生活...
晚上見了一位半年沒見的朋友，聊了她自歐洲巡迴演出後家裡的事情，陪她在家具店買了一些東西...
今天早上起床，把接下來三四天的行程都排好，和父親用過中餐，赫然發現我下午三點居然都沒事做了? 再看看昨天做了些什麼... 好像跟在溫哥華的週末沒什麼兩樣?
把一封寄出一定會遲，但收到人不會有心的生日卡寄出後，決定給自己一個假期中的假期...
4/09/2006
iving in a cashbox...
I went to Cashbox KTV again last night, this time, I got pissed drunk...
I have been to cashbox before, but I never knew ppl in taiwan actually went to cashbox for food and alchohol and much less singing. Very rightly so, my friends were fighting over which KTV has the best food?!?! I told them, if there is wireless internet connection, you can practically live in a cashbox KTV lounge, some rooms have their own private washrooms too!
So, went with a few friends, a friend I just knew for a month, a high school friend I didn't really know back in High school and haven't seen since high school, and 4 other newly made friends, started drinking whisky from 7pm, and I pretty much passed out around 10pm, woke up around 10.30pm to throw up in the washroom, attempted to clean the washroom, then passed out somemore in on the couch...
My head hurts like hell...
I have been to cashbox before, but I never knew ppl in taiwan actually went to cashbox for food and alchohol and much less singing. Very rightly so, my friends were fighting over which KTV has the best food?!?! I told them, if there is wireless internet connection, you can practically live in a cashbox KTV lounge, some rooms have their own private washrooms too!
So, went with a few friends, a friend I just knew for a month, a high school friend I didn't really know back in High school and haven't seen since high school, and 4 other newly made friends, started drinking whisky from 7pm, and I pretty much passed out around 10pm, woke up around 10.30pm to throw up in the washroom, attempted to clean the washroom, then passed out somemore in on the couch...
My head hurts like hell...
4/08/2006
一個演唱會 三小時KTV...
雖然清晨一點才到家，但一天還是十點準時開始...
和父親用過早餐，聊過天，就去公館走走，週六十一點的公館，還沒起床，晃了公館，吃過飯，就去看朋友的小孩，四個月大的娃娃，已經不錯好玩，和朋友座公車到內湖提他的愛車，去和另一對朋友在環亞碰面，在去年曾吃過的同一間餐廳，晚餐磨牙，就到對面的台北小巨蛋看平生第一場正式的演場會，近距離看到渝澄慶 李玟 南拳媽媽 4F裡的兩個F 楊承琳 小黒的兒子 黃義達 蜜雪薇琪其中一枝 游鴻明 吳宗憲 康康 ... 站了三個小時，又回環亞的錢櫃，唱了三個小時，回到家中已經三點，想起來，還真的豐富的一天。
以上是昨日的流水帳...
和父親用過早餐，聊過天，就去公館走走，週六十一點的公館，還沒起床，晃了公館，吃過飯，就去看朋友的小孩，四個月大的娃娃，已經不錯好玩，和朋友座公車到內湖提他的愛車，去和另一對朋友在環亞碰面，在去年曾吃過的同一間餐廳，晚餐磨牙，就到對面的台北小巨蛋看平生第一場正式的演場會，近距離看到渝澄慶 李玟 南拳媽媽 4F裡的兩個F 楊承琳 小黒的兒子 黃義達 蜜雪薇琪其中一枝 游鴻明 吳宗憲 康康 ... 站了三個小時，又回環亞的錢櫃，唱了三個小時，回到家中已經三點，想起來，還真的豐富的一天。
以上是昨日的流水帳...
4/07/2006
The real reasons why I came back...
Many friends had asked me, why now, why April, why come back to Taiwan? Especially I was only back here 10 months ago.
The reasons? That question has bothered me all thru the flights, I haven't really been thinking about that question, I thought that question was easy enough, I needed a vacation...
Was it really? At first, I thought I needed the trip to confront with my Zahir, my obessession, my obessession with relationship, or my obessession trying to understand a relationship. When that opportunity did not arrive, I got a little lost, but I knew back in March, I need to get away, for just a little while.
I was pretty tired, haven't had decent sleep for months, stressed from work, from the organizations I am participating in, from relationships (or lack of), from social engagements... things I was so fond of have ganged up on me. But I had to hold on, as I need to maintain my calm, as it is my character to be completely zen...
However, why do I have to justisfy myself? Isn't needing a break something shameful to admit?
Then, I realized, yesterday, I was ready again to embrace new experiences in my life, when I landed HK, for the first time, a place where I have always wanted to visited, although it was only a transfer, I knew I wanted to experience more of "the first time"s in my life, like the first time I will be visiting my grandparents at their new place, the first I will be staying in HK, meeting that friend in HK for the first time, seeing my best buddy's son for the first...
I know, for a fact, when I go back to the place I belong, back to the things I love to do, I will embrace them much more, because of these new experiences, I will...
The reasons? That question has bothered me all thru the flights, I haven't really been thinking about that question, I thought that question was easy enough, I needed a vacation...
Was it really? At first, I thought I needed the trip to confront with my Zahir, my obessession, my obessession with relationship, or my obessession trying to understand a relationship. When that opportunity did not arrive, I got a little lost, but I knew back in March, I need to get away, for just a little while.
I was pretty tired, haven't had decent sleep for months, stressed from work, from the organizations I am participating in, from relationships (or lack of), from social engagements... things I was so fond of have ganged up on me. But I had to hold on, as I need to maintain my calm, as it is my character to be completely zen...
However, why do I have to justisfy myself? Isn't needing a break something shameful to admit?
Then, I realized, yesterday, I was ready again to embrace new experiences in my life, when I landed HK, for the first time, a place where I have always wanted to visited, although it was only a transfer, I knew I wanted to experience more of "the first time"s in my life, like the first time I will be visiting my grandparents at their new place, the first I will be staying in HK, meeting that friend in HK for the first time, seeing my best buddy's son for the first...
I know, for a fact, when I go back to the place I belong, back to the things I love to do, I will embrace them much more, because of these new experiences, I will...
4/05/2006
Embarking a not so new journey...
I have told my closest friends last time I visited TW, that it felt like I would visit it either in the near future, or not for a long time...
I guess the first is true, it has been actually 10 months since I last visited TW. A place I lost many friends to.
As usual, I will be writing a journal on my trip, so, if you care, join me with my adventure, yet again..
I guess the first is true, it has been actually 10 months since I last visited TW. A place I lost many friends to.
As usual, I will be writing a journal on my trip, so, if you care, join me with my adventure, yet again..
4/01/2006
Depressing song on a sat morning...
Heard this song a few months back, thought it was a great song, very freaking depressing though... by James Blunt, with his whiny voice, the song sounds surprisingly like many oriental love songs...
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
Heard this song a few months back, thought it was a great song, very freaking depressing though... by James Blunt, with his whiny voice, the song sounds surprisingly like many oriental love songs...
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
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