自從幾個月前被人說是不負責任之後,我想我的愛情名聲應該有受不小的挑戰.有個朋友是直接說我是濫情...天阿,幾年前我是純情,後來是花心,現在變成濫情.
是的,我之前談戀愛中間的間隔都不長.是的,可能有幾段戀愛時間也不長.但至少我一次只愛一個吧,而且都很用力,幹麼說濫情?
朋友說,濫情是說了難聽點,我是只要別人喜歡,自己就栽進去了,好像很需要一樣.我覺得這是花癡吧?
回想,好像真的有這麼回事. 有的朋友覺得我好像很厲害,好像很容易就有新對象,其實也沒有,但只要對方對我有一點點好感,好像進行的就很快,我覺得這應該是"受人滴水之恩,必當湧泉回報". 我相信善有善報(不是每一次),感情的加溫就快.我也試過一追就追三年,苦苦的單戀,現在想,真是傻,但傻的可愛.
還是我的信心不足? 怕沒人愛? 只要有喜歡我的都不放過?
還是,休息一下好了....
4/29/2009
4/24/2009
喬克叔叔就是我
很多人都希望別人喜歡自己,方式都不一樣,有特殊才藝會替自己加分.我自己的方式就是搞笑,也不介意自己給別人笑,只要讓別人喜歡自己就好,久了就被人當作小丑,被當成不問重,或不重要,有時還很不習慣,尤其女朋友也用同樣方式看自己的時候.聽到喬克叔叔的時候,直接覺得一個非常貼切,最近越來越介意自己像小丑.
親愛的 別嚇到閉上了眼睛 小丑把戲 不是大家都可以
誇張眼影 藍色憂傷的淚滴 丟丟刀 噴噴火 踩高蹺吹笛
跌倒失手燒到眉毛我故意 哈哈你笑的開心我可是在玩命
撲克牌裡 我的肖像才一兩張 你看你看我的重要性
彩色的 大捲髮 紅鼻子 最滑稽 的步法 這樣的快樂你學會了嗎
用笨拙 又驚險 的雜耍 繼續對 你裝傻 所有的悲傷通通忘了吧
聽我說 拿出你的鈔票 笑平常買不到 先生小姐們趕快來 趕快來
再慢就看不到 座位沒剩多少 還能跟喬克叔叔拍 一張照
我只是 卑微的小丑 翻幾個跟斗 就等你拍一拍手
人群散了後 夜色多朦朧 月光也會跟著我
我不是 孤獨的小丑 你笑了之後 不需要記得我
燈熄的時候 滿天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞
下著雨 我躲在 面具裡 偷偷地 在哭泣 因為看了不能說的祕密
魔術師 我恨你 搶走我 的生意 別忘記 蝙蝠俠靠我才票房冠軍
聽我說 拿出你的鈔票 笑平常買不到 先生小姐們趕快來 趕快來
再慢就看不到 座位沒剩多少 還能跟喬克叔叔拍 一張照
我只是 卑微的小丑 翻幾個跟斗 就等你拍一拍手
人群散了後 夜色多朦朧 月光也會跟著我
我不是 孤獨的小丑 你笑了之後 不需要記得我
燈熄的時候 滿天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞
_______________________________
小丑是真的不被重視,真的寂寞.
親愛的 別嚇到閉上了眼睛 小丑把戲 不是大家都可以
誇張眼影 藍色憂傷的淚滴 丟丟刀 噴噴火 踩高蹺吹笛
跌倒失手燒到眉毛我故意 哈哈你笑的開心我可是在玩命
撲克牌裡 我的肖像才一兩張 你看你看我的重要性
彩色的 大捲髮 紅鼻子 最滑稽 的步法 這樣的快樂你學會了嗎
用笨拙 又驚險 的雜耍 繼續對 你裝傻 所有的悲傷通通忘了吧
聽我說 拿出你的鈔票 笑平常買不到 先生小姐們趕快來 趕快來
再慢就看不到 座位沒剩多少 還能跟喬克叔叔拍 一張照
我只是 卑微的小丑 翻幾個跟斗 就等你拍一拍手
人群散了後 夜色多朦朧 月光也會跟著我
我不是 孤獨的小丑 你笑了之後 不需要記得我
燈熄的時候 滿天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞
下著雨 我躲在 面具裡 偷偷地 在哭泣 因為看了不能說的祕密
魔術師 我恨你 搶走我 的生意 別忘記 蝙蝠俠靠我才票房冠軍
聽我說 拿出你的鈔票 笑平常買不到 先生小姐們趕快來 趕快來
再慢就看不到 座位沒剩多少 還能跟喬克叔叔拍 一張照
我只是 卑微的小丑 翻幾個跟斗 就等你拍一拍手
人群散了後 夜色多朦朧 月光也會跟著我
我不是 孤獨的小丑 你笑了之後 不需要記得我
燈熄的時候 滿天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞
_______________________________
小丑是真的不被重視,真的寂寞.
4/20/2009
If Today Was Your Last Day
Heard this song on the radio yesterday, Nickleback is not the type of band i listen to, but the lyrics in tis song requires some thinking. I think it is song with a lot of old sayings, but a good song.
my best friend gave me the best advice
he said each day's a gift & not a given right
leave no stone unturned
leave your fears behind
& try to take the path less travelled by
that first step you take is the longest stride
if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
if today was your last day
against the grain should be a way of life
what's worth the price is always worth the fight
every second counts 'cause
there's no second try
so live like you're never livin twice
don't take the free ride in your own life
if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
would you call those friends you've never seen?
reminisce old memories?
would you forgive your enemies?
would you find that one your dreaming of?
swear up & down to God above
that you'll finally fall in love?
if today was your last day
if today was your last day
would you make it up by mending a broken heart
you know it's never too late
to shoot for the stars
regardless of who you are
so do whatever it takes
'cause you can't rewind
a moment in this life
let nothing stand in your way
cause the hands of time are never on your side
if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
would you call those friends you've never seen?
reminisce old memories?
would you forgive your enemies?
would you find that one your dreaming of?
swear up & down to God above
that you'll finally fall in love?
if today was your last day
____________________________
would you?
my best friend gave me the best advice
he said each day's a gift & not a given right
leave no stone unturned
leave your fears behind
& try to take the path less travelled by
that first step you take is the longest stride
if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
if today was your last day
against the grain should be a way of life
what's worth the price is always worth the fight
every second counts 'cause
there's no second try
so live like you're never livin twice
don't take the free ride in your own life
if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
would you call those friends you've never seen?
reminisce old memories?
would you forgive your enemies?
would you find that one your dreaming of?
swear up & down to God above
that you'll finally fall in love?
if today was your last day
if today was your last day
would you make it up by mending a broken heart
you know it's never too late
to shoot for the stars
regardless of who you are
so do whatever it takes
'cause you can't rewind
a moment in this life
let nothing stand in your way
cause the hands of time are never on your side
if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
would you call those friends you've never seen?
reminisce old memories?
would you forgive your enemies?
would you find that one your dreaming of?
swear up & down to God above
that you'll finally fall in love?
if today was your last day
____________________________
would you?
4/18/2009
昏婚昏
今年是第二批朋友結婚的一年,最近的幾週末都是圍繞在誰跟誰的婚禮怎麼辦.休息一年沒有拿的主持麥克風,今年暑假之前就會拿不少次.不提其他想婚的人,在身邊的好朋友,和他們一個個計畫婚禮,我們那幾個不小心幫很多朋友的固定組合,有彈鋼琴的,有照相的,有主持的,自己是連個對象都沒有.
記得一個主持界的前輩在一個朋友的婚禮上對我說,"你要是當太多次主持,小心一輩子只能當主持".
主持是一份需要興趣和天份的工作,根據一份老調查,人最怕的東西不是死,而是在公眾場合講話.這差事就常常會是我扛,並不是往自己臉上貼金,畢竟作的多了,認識的人也想不到別人.
千萬不要以為主持很風光,真的主角畢竟是新人,需要坐立不安,飯也吃不好才是真的.以前拐我就範的朋友就會在婚禮前說會幫我介紹好女生一類的話,我還天真相信,直到婚禮當天,被安排在三等親友,或其他也沒法安穩吃飯工作人員的那一桌,偶爾回桌上,面對這輩子應該不會再見,或幾乎每次婚禮都見的同桌人,再遙望主檯的談笑風生,自己才明白,主持離真正幸福的距離是相當遠的.
其實,只要調適心理就可以了,人言"新人入洞房,媒人扔過牆",主持還不用等到入洞房就被扔到太平洋裡.婚禮結束後,可能有幾個認識的人過來稱讚幾句,不知多少是場面話,好話收下就好,不要回味太多. 如果有伴,大概已經被掛在一邊整個晚上要處理,如果沒伴,婚禮後主持心理的落差,再加上突然對自己一個人很敏感,那孤零零的感覺更加難受.
那為什麼還主持呢?其實那是對朋友的一種祝福,畢竟朋友開心,自己也會開心可以參與,那跟坐台下看的感覺完全不一樣.最重要的是,輪到自己的那一天,我也希望朋友圍繞著(希望他們沒有都已經攜家帶眷了).
我倒是想到一個問題,誰來幫我主持婚禮?
記得一個主持界的前輩在一個朋友的婚禮上對我說,"你要是當太多次主持,小心一輩子只能當主持".
主持是一份需要興趣和天份的工作,根據一份老調查,人最怕的東西不是死,而是在公眾場合講話.這差事就常常會是我扛,並不是往自己臉上貼金,畢竟作的多了,認識的人也想不到別人.
千萬不要以為主持很風光,真的主角畢竟是新人,需要坐立不安,飯也吃不好才是真的.以前拐我就範的朋友就會在婚禮前說會幫我介紹好女生一類的話,我還天真相信,直到婚禮當天,被安排在三等親友,或其他也沒法安穩吃飯工作人員的那一桌,偶爾回桌上,面對這輩子應該不會再見,或幾乎每次婚禮都見的同桌人,再遙望主檯的談笑風生,自己才明白,主持離真正幸福的距離是相當遠的.
其實,只要調適心理就可以了,人言"新人入洞房,媒人扔過牆",主持還不用等到入洞房就被扔到太平洋裡.婚禮結束後,可能有幾個認識的人過來稱讚幾句,不知多少是場面話,好話收下就好,不要回味太多. 如果有伴,大概已經被掛在一邊整個晚上要處理,如果沒伴,婚禮後主持心理的落差,再加上突然對自己一個人很敏感,那孤零零的感覺更加難受.
那為什麼還主持呢?其實那是對朋友的一種祝福,畢竟朋友開心,自己也會開心可以參與,那跟坐台下看的感覺完全不一樣.最重要的是,輪到自己的那一天,我也希望朋友圍繞著(希望他們沒有都已經攜家帶眷了).
我倒是想到一個問題,誰來幫我主持婚禮?
4/14/2009
Breakfast at Tiffany's
If you ask me what are my favourite romantic movies of all time, "Breakfast at Tiffany's" will be near the top of the list. For those of you who haven't had the chance to watch this great film, please do watch it. Please be warned, however, it is very old, made in 1961 old.
The story is about this struggling young writer attracted to his neighbour upstairs, an eccentric young woman who cares about no one except her brother (not even her cat, which she named "cat").
Neither of them is perfect, actually, they were far from perfect. The man has a sugar mommy who pays him for sex, and the woman sleeps around (presumed) trying to marry a rich man.
Even from today's point of view, the story is very interesting, and the song "moonriver" defintiely pushes the movie to another level.
It is hard not to fall in love with Audrey Hepburn after you watch this film, even harder after you have also watched "Roman Vacation".
Back in 1996, there was a song by Deep Blue Something called "Breakfast At Tiffany's". The song was about a young guy trying to convince a girl that they have something in common to save their relationship. The only thing he can think of is actually, "Breakfast At Tiffany's".
You'll say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
Still I know you just don't care
And I said, "What about 'Breakfast at Tiffany's'?"
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got."
I see you - the only one who knew me
And now your eyes see through me
I guess I was wrong
So what now? It's plain to see we're over,
And I hate when things are over -
When so much is left undone
And I said, "What about 'Breakfast at Tiffany's'?"
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got."
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btw, this post means that i now have more posts about songs than posts about relationships. yikes!
The story is about this struggling young writer attracted to his neighbour upstairs, an eccentric young woman who cares about no one except her brother (not even her cat, which she named "cat").
Neither of them is perfect, actually, they were far from perfect. The man has a sugar mommy who pays him for sex, and the woman sleeps around (presumed) trying to marry a rich man.
Even from today's point of view, the story is very interesting, and the song "moonriver" defintiely pushes the movie to another level.
It is hard not to fall in love with Audrey Hepburn after you watch this film, even harder after you have also watched "Roman Vacation".
Back in 1996, there was a song by Deep Blue Something called "Breakfast At Tiffany's". The song was about a young guy trying to convince a girl that they have something in common to save their relationship. The only thing he can think of is actually, "Breakfast At Tiffany's".
You'll say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
Still I know you just don't care
And I said, "What about 'Breakfast at Tiffany's'?"
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got."
I see you - the only one who knew me
And now your eyes see through me
I guess I was wrong
So what now? It's plain to see we're over,
And I hate when things are over -
When so much is left undone
And I said, "What about 'Breakfast at Tiffany's'?"
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got."
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btw, this post means that i now have more posts about songs than posts about relationships. yikes!
4/07/2009
And now you know... the rest of the story
I have been pretty lucky to have a few friends who like my writing style. Although most like my writing in Chinese, some like my English writing as well. Very few know where the inspiration come from.
It is a radio host. The first time I heard him was when I was still in university, working my co-op program, it was a boring job with time slot from 5pm to 11pm. We couldn't really chat at our desks, so I started to listen to radio while working, back then, i didn't have an ipod.
There was one segment I really enjoy, it was called "the rest of the story", it was only about 5-10 min, an old dude would read a story, starting quite innocently, then it always ends with a twist that makes you say, "huh...", or "wow..."
I have spent about 4 months every weeknight waiting for his segment without actually knowing his name, until a few weeks ago. I googled "the rest of story", and found this person, born before WW1. The segment "rest of the story" was actually on air since WW2, and the old dude has just passed away this Feb.
This guy's name is Paul Harvey, inspiration for my English writing. Now you know... the rest of story...
It is a radio host. The first time I heard him was when I was still in university, working my co-op program, it was a boring job with time slot from 5pm to 11pm. We couldn't really chat at our desks, so I started to listen to radio while working, back then, i didn't have an ipod.
There was one segment I really enjoy, it was called "the rest of the story", it was only about 5-10 min, an old dude would read a story, starting quite innocently, then it always ends with a twist that makes you say, "huh...", or "wow..."
I have spent about 4 months every weeknight waiting for his segment without actually knowing his name, until a few weeks ago. I googled "the rest of story", and found this person, born before WW1. The segment "rest of the story" was actually on air since WW2, and the old dude has just passed away this Feb.
This guy's name is Paul Harvey, inspiration for my English writing. Now you know... the rest of story...
4/06/2009
葉子
葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
天堂 原來應該不是妄想
只是我早已經遺忘 當初怎麼開始飛翔
＊孤單 是一個人的狂歡
狂歡 是一群人的孤單
愛情 原來的開始是陪伴
但我也漸漸地遺忘 當時是怎樣有人陪伴
＃我一個人吃飯 旅行 到處走走停停
也一個人看書 寫信 自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡 就連自己看也看不清 我想我不僅僅是失去你
Repeat ＃ ＊,＃,＃
葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
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rest in peace 阿桑
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
天堂 原來應該不是妄想
只是我早已經遺忘 當初怎麼開始飛翔
＊孤單 是一個人的狂歡
狂歡 是一群人的孤單
愛情 原來的開始是陪伴
但我也漸漸地遺忘 當時是怎樣有人陪伴
＃我一個人吃飯 旅行 到處走走停停
也一個人看書 寫信 自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡 就連自己看也看不清 我想我不僅僅是失去你
Repeat ＃ ＊,＃,＃
葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
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rest in peace 阿桑
面目全非
今天有機會到大統華樓上的food court上廁所,以前那裡有小歇亭的珍奶,財神爺的牛肉麵,忘掉名字的排骨飯,後來有永和豆漿...現在全部不見了,剩下角落的幾台本世紀初的遊戲機,和幾間一看就知道不會開久的中國地方小吃檔,樓下本來有以前中大學會光顧的金石堂,去年倒了...
大統華這個mall其實是一個管理很濫的mall,撐這麼多年事實上不容易,居然也曾經有過幾年的風光,有好多次我中午去都找不到停車位.
記得那牛肉麵是誰的最愛,那排骨飯是我的最愛,那珍奶是全溫第一間,常常當週末brunch的飯團,蛋餅加豆漿,只敢遠觀不敢買的超貴書籍,在那配過眼鏡,在那洗過照片...
那個food court是代表我中學大學的年代,現已面目全非,只能從回憶裡品嘗了.
大統華這個mall其實是一個管理很濫的mall,撐這麼多年事實上不容易,居然也曾經有過幾年的風光,有好多次我中午去都找不到停車位.
記得那牛肉麵是誰的最愛,那排骨飯是我的最愛,那珍奶是全溫第一間,常常當週末brunch的飯團,蛋餅加豆漿,只敢遠觀不敢買的超貴書籍,在那配過眼鏡,在那洗過照片...
那個food court是代表我中學大學的年代,現已面目全非,只能從回憶裡品嘗了.
4/01/2009
You are My Sunshine
This Spring has been more like an extension of neverending winter. We need sunshine, I need sunshine!
This song is actually 70 years old country song, official state song of louisiana. Most ppl including me only know the first part of the song. Now, you know the rest of the song...
You Are My Sunshine
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamt I held you in my arms.
When I awoke dear, I was mistaken,
So I hung my head down and cried.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
This song is actually 70 years old country song, official state song of louisiana. Most ppl including me only know the first part of the song. Now, you know the rest of the song...
You Are My Sunshine
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamt I held you in my arms.
When I awoke dear, I was mistaken,
So I hung my head down and cried.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
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