南海姑娘

找了好久的歌, 鄧麗君唱的, 很好聽, 想像熱帶的南洋..

南海姑娘

椰風挑動銀浪

夕陽躲雲偷看
看見金色的沙灘上
獨坐一位美麗的姑娘
眼睛星樣燦爛
眉似新月彎彎
穿著一件紅色的紗籠
紅得像她嘴上的檳榔
她在輕歎
歎那無情郎
想到淚汪汪
濕了紅色紗籠白衣裳
哎呀 南海姑娘

何必太過悲傷
年紀輕輕只十六吧
舊夢失去有新侶做伴

她在輕歎
歎那無情郎
想到淚汪汪
濕了紅色紗籠白衣裳
哎呀 南海姑娘
何必太過悲傷
年紀輕輕只十六吧
舊夢失去有新侶做伴

A confession from far far away...

Okay, read this on the internet, do not judge this young man until you finish reading the whole confession...

*****************DISCLAIMER************************************

NOT MY STORY, BUT TO UNDERSTAND THE JOKE, YOU HAVE TO WATCH STARWARS, AND YOU HAVE TO KNOW WHOSE DAD IS DARTH VADER...

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'm just sharing my story because people asked...

Wow... okay, I wasn't sure if I was ever going to tell anyone about this, but it's late and I'm sleep deprived so i guess I'll just write it now and regret it in the morning

First of all, - just for some background: My mom died right when I was born, (she was actually really, really hot- but this isn't about her. I guess that's messed up to say, but whatever.) I actually grew up with my dad's family, because my dad has all sorts of emotional issues and he bailed before I was born. So you can see, my childhood was really kind of messed up.

Anyways, growing up I feel like there was always a lot of distance between me and my sister. When I was about 17 or 18 I first noticed that my sister was a hottie.

I don't want to go into to many details about it, but basically what happened is that I accidentally found a video that she made of herself. I knew she didn't make it for me- but I thought she was so beautiful that I watched it twice. (probably would have watched it a hell of a lot more, except that like right around the time I found the video, all this crazy ***** went down and I had to leave home. (My dad's family who I was staying with got in bad trouble with the law. I never talk about it).

Sooo... I was totally lusting after my sister at that point. She was also having bad trouble with the law. She was actually in custody when I left home.

My friend and I went to go pick her up. When I saw her that day, after seeing the video, I have to be honest, I just wanted to f' her brains out. Looking back on it now, it's pretty messed up- but I think she had feelings for me too. She actually kissed me right after we came to get her... and it wasn't a sisterly kiss, you know? I mean, it wasn't like ridiculously sexual or anything, but it definitely wasn't sisterly.

After we left, we all went to crash with my Sister's friends. On the trip there, my friend sort of implied that he wanted to get with my Sister, and I got a little jealous. He's a good looking guy- and even though she was my sister- I just felt like he was competition. Not much else happened between us for a while except some maybe-sexy hugging.

Pretty much everyone in my life at that point was wanted by the government, so we all moved around a lot. I'm not saying that I'm proud of it or anything, but it was kind of an awesome time.

My friend and my sister never hooked up I don't think- but I thought there was some serious sexual tension going on between them. It was around that time that I got really badly hurt in an accident. It was *****ed up. I almost died. But when I was in recovery my sister came to see me, and out of the clear blue sky she started gives me this awesome, slow, passionate kiss on the lips.

Sadly (although, I guess for the best) nothing ever came of it. We spent some time apart... and I started to get really religious, so I tried not to think of her that way. It was actually going well for a long time- like I was totally over her. But I have to say, like a year or so after all that stuff went down, we were out sailing (not like a date or anything romantic like that), and she was wearing like the hottest bikini I've ever *****ing seen and it brought back all the old feelings. Sigh.

A little while later she actually wound up with my friend from before (the sexual tension guy). I can't say I was surprised.

But even after she was shacking up with my friend, there was one time we were at a party... my friend was inside, and my sister and I were outside alone. It was a really intimate moment. I think something might have happened, except that I killed the mood when I told her that Darth Vader was our father and that I had to go face him.

When I was a kid...

When I was a kid, I dreamed of going up to space, and touched the stars.

I dreamed of operating the crane, the big yellow machine that picks up debris and knock down buildings.

I promised my grandma, that one day, I will buy a convertible car and take her out for a spin.

When I was a kid, I couldn't imagine by the time I turned 23, it would be in the 21st century!

喜歡愛...

昨天有個朋友問我, 什麼是愛, 什麼是喜歡, 我一開始以為愛比喜歡多了點對未來的期望, 但如果這樣說, 很多人, 包括我的初戀就不算愛嗎? 也不對, 聊到後來, 我也糊塗了, 到底什麼是愛, 是那種小鹿亂撞的感覺? 還是為他開心的感覺?

大概很久沒愛過了, 也不是很記得那是什麼感覺, 也說不上來跟喜歡有什麼不一樣, 但就愛一定是多一點, 好像回憶中有發生過, 趕快把舊的照片挖出來, 那個笑容是不是戀愛中的笑容? 感覺很遠了...

我有愛過吧?

Wavin' Flag - K'naan

An awesome song by K'naan, it makes me wonder... aren't I old enough?

When I get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin' flag

你們不要走...

新的一年代表又是一年的好事, 各個朋友結婚的消息像潮水撲了過來, 現在才一月, 應邀的婚禮就有五個, 還不包括已經訂婚, 尚未決定時間的人. 說也起怪, 好像朋友結婚都專選我單身的時候...

幾天前, 和準新郎以及其他的朋友在吃飯的時候, 默默的發現, 這桌的朋友又都是以結婚, 或是將結婚的, 感覺好像這些高中, 大學就認識的朋友們都已經進行到人生的下一階段了. 從 A 到 B 到 C 到 D, 一個個尋獲自己的幸福...

雖然, 自己好不容易工作有點成績, 但新的一年又代表全新的開始, 頭一個月的成績又沒有什麼, 兩頭加起來, 壓力還真不小.

有人說我玩得不夠, 有人說我太挑, 有人說時間未到, 無論如何, 你們不要走太快, 我的朋友們... 我快看不見你們了...

btw, 婚禮參與者現開始接受報名, 有需要我參與的婚禮, 請及早報名, 以免相偶.

Productivity = singleness?

2009 was a very productive year for my blog, averaging 10 posts a month. Does that mean I use more brain power when single?

村上你個春樹

這次在台灣每沒買什麼, 但書買了三本, 一本是侯文詠的靈魂擁抱, 一本是這樣照相曝光才漂亮(沒錯, 韓國翻譯本就是這奇怪的名字), 本不想再帶書了, 但好友一直推薦, 就買了本春上村樹的世界末日與冷酷異境...

說起台灣有個很好的地方, 就是到哪裡都有書店, 到哪裡都有人在看書, 雖然書有百百種, 但有在看書不會是壞事.

說起這春上村樹, 是我好朋友的最愛作者, 從以前就聽過他的大名, 但我知道我好朋友與我的興趣大不相同, 從來沒想過要拜讀他的大作. 感謝感冒加時差, 還是看了他的書. 其實有些後悔, 他的書很像碎碎唸, 不是在唸看過的英文的電影名字, 就是英文的酒名, 要不就一直提到性交, 性器官... 開始的沒頭沒腦, 結束的也沒頭沒腦, 看了以後頭更痛了.

興趣差這麼多, 我跟好朋友還能是好朋友, 真了不起...

2009 was big, how about 2010?

2009 went by very quickly, i did the count down at a hotel at Zhiben in Taidong with a few friends, we counted down with the tv, then we went to bed, we are getting old...

2009 was a good year for me, I have finally picked up a few things as interests, guitar and photography. Although I am not making big headway with guitar, I am seeing some results with my photographic skills, that is probably from years and years of taking pictures of food.

2009 was also a cool year on concerts, the only concert I have been to was maybe a 2006 concert in Taipei, although I saw a few stars, it wasn't really a concert experience for me. In 2009, I have seen Il Divo (yes Il Divo), Jason Mraz, and the best, Bryan Adams. Come to think of it... I have been to a Mayday concert at Taiwanese Cultural Festival, but it felt more like work...

On the career side, it was a good year for me too, finally seeing some results, it is not going to get any easier, but I am going to do alright.

Relationship wasn't something one can really ask for, 2009 wasn't a year for me, a few misses, but maybe after the praying at two most popular temples in Taipei, things will change. Papa Lo thought, maybe I am enjoying my single time too much, maybe I haven't done playing. I don't really think so, because I haven't really done any playing yet. I did watch too much tw variety show on my spare time though. ( you can check with friends in tw, i know more about current events in variety shows then they do)

So, what is in 2010? I don't know, but I am excited to find out!

回家回加

我去年回台灣的時候有, 提到好像每次回台灣都不像去度假, 每次總要找一些理由, 每次回去之前就要做很多的心理準備, 其實, 為什麼要這樣? 應該是回家不是嗎? 還是因為近鄉情怯?

最主要, 是回去看生病的奶奶, 她老人家年紀大了, 身體也不好, 但我其實很怕見到她,變得那麼的瘦小, 變得那麼的脆弱, 好像, 一轉眼, 她就會縮小不見了. 老人家這次見到我, 不只提醒我要存錢, 唸書, 開始提醒我要考慮結婚了. 還好, 他們給的壓力並不大, 因為我自己給的壓力比較大.

這次回去見到的親戚是近年來最多的, 也聽了許多有關家裡的故事, 很開心, 但最大的感覺是親戚都年長了, 已經沒有小時記憶中的樣子.

上次回去沒演到海角七號, 這次陳董還是找了我跟喬治兩人, 陪他和愛美麗去南台灣走一趟, 雖然去年才和他們出遊新竹桃園, 南台灣玩的又不一樣, 那兩個男人還是一樣超會點菜, 每一餐都是吃到想吐. 這幾個高中時的玩伴也長大了, 都有自己的世界, 也不知道什麼時候我們還會再像這樣亂吃亂喝?

已經有家庭的羅董把我當年假在用, 泡溫泉, 走北台灣,樣樣來, 感謝他和renee關心我的愛情生活, 一個招待我去月老廟, 一個招待我去做造型, 看他們的小孩長這麼快, 只能感嘆歲月不饒人.

台灣對我, 是一個熟悉的陌生人, 我可以做一個十足十的遊客, 認識新/舊朋友, 最酷的, 初戀女友的弟弟的亁姐把我認出來, 我們臭氣相投, 只可惜相見恨晚. 不小心闖進別人的生日趴, 那壽星是我剛認識朋友的高中同學以前的同事...認識一屋子的人, 其實台灣還有很多人可以認識.

東西沒什麼買, 倒是替朋友帶了不少, 載著是滿滿的回憶, 滿滿的記憶卡, 會不會想台灣, 當然, 尤其是想那裡的人. 就這樣, 台灣東南西北跑一趟, 月老廟拜兩次, 計程車做幾回, 我又回加了, 這邊的朋友也想知道台灣玩的開不開心, 有人在乎, 有人陪, 真好!

先生哪裡人?

我是台北出生﹐所以我是台北人,我父母都是嘉義人,小時候又在嘉義住過一陣所以我是嘉義人,我在加拿大長大,住的時間又比在台灣久,所以我是加拿大人。最近去了嘉義人文館,才發現我母親也是客家人﹐加上我父親,我也是百分百客家人。

有時分得不是很清楚,有加拿大的人問起,我說我是台灣人,有加國的台灣人問起,就說我是台北人﹐台灣的新朋友問,就說我是加拿大回來的,有朋友問,我也可以說我是客家人...

但我不會加國官方語之一的法語,不會客家話,不大會說台語﹐對嘉義的印象也不深,對各個的認知也不全﹐當伯父搖頭晃腦的說加拿大是美國一部分,我會不爽(雖然也不曉得這麼回應),就像如果有人把我認成內地人一樣(雖然從來沒去過中國)對有些人對客家人的刻板印象,我也會不開心,雖然不是特別喜歡客家菜但它們對我有那些意義,我也說不上來...

我是有情人!