剛好一年前，在每年生日憂鬱症前夕開始了'小羊碎碎唸' ，用了整個上午的時間回顧過去的一年，從開始的寂寞感，到對感情的討論，喜愛歌曲的歌詞，遊記，小羊碎碎唸慢慢的變成我生活的一部分，我的一部分，當然，一些忠實的讀者給我不少鼓勵...
過去的一年，過得很多采多姿，認識了不少新朋友，一些很好的朋友，談了幾次沒結果的戀愛，受了幾次傷，也傷了人，出了幾次國，上過廣播節目，當過社團的會長，找到夢寐以求的工作，第一次喝醉...
過去的一年最大的收穫，應該就是有好好去認識自己，在生活中，工作中，面對自己的喜怒愛樂，接受自己的優缺點，好像，真的有長了一歲...
但免不了，還是擔心，擔心自己好像還是一事無成，雖然已經做了不少，總覺得還是太懶...
看看我去年給自己定下的一年和五年計劃...
My own place (either 200k condo or 300k townhouse)
BMW 325i (Mystic Blue or Jet Black)
Laser eye surgery (might need mental support)
Fall in love (yes, I still believe in love)
25 million portfolio (my clients', not mine)
The small list for this year:
Hit golf ball straight 80% of the time (at least with 7 ~ 9 irons)
Learn how to drive a stick (might need friends' cars)
Learn to play guitar (maybe self-learning?)
Make a new 5 year list (if the above doesn't work :) )
老實講我的一年計劃，學什麼學什麼的，一個都沒有達成，整年只有揮幾次桿，摸過一次吉他，手排擋連碰都沒碰過，五年計劃倒做得不錯，看來我要好好考慮新的一年計劃...
再次感謝各位的支持，因為我的二十八歲，有你跟隨，我很開心...
9/30/2006
9/24/2006
Politics for idiots...
Now I am starting to notice a lot of disturbance in the air surrounding political issues in Taiwan. Of course politics have always been a hot topic in Taiwan. It is also a taboo in the cultural as well. If you declare that you are supporting a certain political party in the public, you would have created a few friends and enemies at the same time.
I realized the seriousness of the subject a few years back, when I asked my dad who he was going to vote for in that year's presidential election. He said "it is a secret"... I was thinking, "What the heck! I am your son who is living thousands km away and cannot vote anyhow!” That is just to show how serious voting can be in Taiwan, and “thou shall not share the secret, even it is your eldest offspring…”
To make people remember a certain political party, a certain colour will be used, or even animals, the two big parties in US, democrats (blue and donkey), republicans (red and elephant), in Taiwan, there are blue, green, yellow, orange... Why? A simple association of colour is so easy to remember, you don't have to know what each party stands for in order to vote for them, just remember the colours...
In Taiwan, I think politics is still at its infancy stage, just look at the poll turnout for each election, you see high 80%, that is to show that people are passionate about politics, they still believe that politicians will do what they have promised to do, and voters themselves will feel good to be part of something.
To feel good to be part of something... That is very important in politics. That is why you see rallies, protests, and songs in election campaigns. The feeling of being part of something larger than life has the same effect as a rock concert, honestly, if you pick anyone in the crowd and ask him/her what he/she is fighting for, he/she will probably give you a commendatory piece from news outlet, but really, is that what people think?
Media has to take a lot of heat for stirring up things, of course, it is easy to say that people demands it, and people are not interested in boring news, thus some creativity should be added into the news. For example, when the conflict in middle east started recently, various news outlets will find experts to warn the public that World War 3 is coming, is that really necessary? Would that help the public to understand and be interested in the subject? I argue that Media has a lot to do with the uncomfortable atmosphere in Taiwan, but some will not agree, they will think they are smarter than the media, they can see thru the fabrication in the news, sadly, it is not as easy to see thru when politics are involved…
I realized the seriousness of the subject a few years back, when I asked my dad who he was going to vote for in that year's presidential election. He said "it is a secret"... I was thinking, "What the heck! I am your son who is living thousands km away and cannot vote anyhow!” That is just to show how serious voting can be in Taiwan, and “thou shall not share the secret, even it is your eldest offspring…”
To make people remember a certain political party, a certain colour will be used, or even animals, the two big parties in US, democrats (blue and donkey), republicans (red and elephant), in Taiwan, there are blue, green, yellow, orange... Why? A simple association of colour is so easy to remember, you don't have to know what each party stands for in order to vote for them, just remember the colours...
In Taiwan, I think politics is still at its infancy stage, just look at the poll turnout for each election, you see high 80%, that is to show that people are passionate about politics, they still believe that politicians will do what they have promised to do, and voters themselves will feel good to be part of something.
To feel good to be part of something... That is very important in politics. That is why you see rallies, protests, and songs in election campaigns. The feeling of being part of something larger than life has the same effect as a rock concert, honestly, if you pick anyone in the crowd and ask him/her what he/she is fighting for, he/she will probably give you a commendatory piece from news outlet, but really, is that what people think?
Media has to take a lot of heat for stirring up things, of course, it is easy to say that people demands it, and people are not interested in boring news, thus some creativity should be added into the news. For example, when the conflict in middle east started recently, various news outlets will find experts to warn the public that World War 3 is coming, is that really necessary? Would that help the public to understand and be interested in the subject? I argue that Media has a lot to do with the uncomfortable atmosphere in Taiwan, but some will not agree, they will think they are smarter than the media, they can see thru the fabrication in the news, sadly, it is not as easy to see thru when politics are involved…
9/15/2006
山頂黑狗兄
我記得第一次失戀時﹐總覺得每天都像世界末日﹐朋友們也不知道怎麼安慰我﹐直到有天聽到庾澄慶的歌...
山頂黑狗兄
山頂一個黑狗兄 伊是牧場的少爺
透早到晚真打拼 牧場開闊歸山拼
嘴唸明朗的歌聲 透日歌聲唸抹定
伊的歌韻真好聽 聲好會唸介出名
有聽聲音無影 U Lay E Lee 歌喉聲山嶺
歌生幼軟緣投得人痛 U Lay E Lee
阮的貼心黑狗兄 逍遙自在真好命
姑娘聽著心肝神魂跟伊行
央三拖四甲伊求親成
U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee
我哼著哼著 (因為不會歌詞)﹐才發現我已經走出傷痛...
說真的很多中文歌都不大健康﹐不是愛的人不愛你﹐愛的人去愛別人﹐不愛的人愛你﹐要不就是愛你的人要離開﹐反正都是愛死去活來﹐海枯石爛的﹐好像談起愛情就一定要正經八百。我覺得如果沒事聽聽KTV還可以﹐如果真的失戀﹐用來逼哭也可以﹐但長期使用會使人內傷的...
山頂黑狗兄
山頂一個黑狗兄 伊是牧場的少爺
透早到晚真打拼 牧場開闊歸山拼
嘴唸明朗的歌聲 透日歌聲唸抹定
伊的歌韻真好聽 聲好會唸介出名
有聽聲音無影 U Lay E Lee 歌喉聲山嶺
歌生幼軟緣投得人痛 U Lay E Lee
阮的貼心黑狗兄 逍遙自在真好命
姑娘聽著心肝神魂跟伊行
央三拖四甲伊求親成
U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee U Lay E Lee
我哼著哼著 (因為不會歌詞)﹐才發現我已經走出傷痛...
說真的很多中文歌都不大健康﹐不是愛的人不愛你﹐愛的人去愛別人﹐不愛的人愛你﹐要不就是愛你的人要離開﹐反正都是愛死去活來﹐海枯石爛的﹐好像談起愛情就一定要正經八百。我覺得如果沒事聽聽KTV還可以﹐如果真的失戀﹐用來逼哭也可以﹐但長期使用會使人內傷的...
9/11/2006
On that Autumn morning...
It was an autumn morning, 7 months into unemployment, after completing several video games, and built a few model cars/tanks, I was sleeping. Then, my mom woke me up, in the middle of the morning, she said, "US was under a full scale attack!".
There was so much excitement in her voice, like someone had found Santa Claus. That woke me up, I went to the TV, seeing the burning buildings was really surreal. Of course, there wasn't a full scale attack. But over two thousand people died...
The world paused for a second, then the world moved on. The president in US started a war, then another war. I found a job, then another job. I found love, then another love. Many people have moved on, but there was an autumn morning when people stopped and thought about life.
Hero - Nickelback
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
Oh but heaven, no heaven don’t hear me.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Someone told me love [would] all save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, n' blood-spilling
that won't never came.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Now that the world isn't ending, [it's]love that I’m sending to you.
It isn’t the love of a hero, and that’s why I fear it won’t do.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
[And they're watching us
(Watching Us)
[They're watching us]
(Watching Us)
as we all fly away.
Never a big fan of nickelback, but this song was released on the faithful day. Very ironic... and that, I have learnt, is life...
There was so much excitement in her voice, like someone had found Santa Claus. That woke me up, I went to the TV, seeing the burning buildings was really surreal. Of course, there wasn't a full scale attack. But over two thousand people died...
The world paused for a second, then the world moved on. The president in US started a war, then another war. I found a job, then another job. I found love, then another love. Many people have moved on, but there was an autumn morning when people stopped and thought about life.
Hero - Nickelback
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
Oh but heaven, no heaven don’t hear me.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Someone told me love [would] all save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, n' blood-spilling
that won't never came.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Now that the world isn't ending, [it's]love that I’m sending to you.
It isn’t the love of a hero, and that’s why I fear it won’t do.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I’m not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
[And they're watching us
(Watching Us)
[They're watching us]
(Watching Us)
as we all fly away.
Never a big fan of nickelback, but this song was released on the faithful day. Very ironic... and that, I have learnt, is life...
9/06/2006
破鏡…
一個叫完治的年輕人，離鄉背井到東京打拼，遇到了莉香，他們相愛對方，但最後沒有在一起，因為完治回到他的舊愛身邊…
老掉牙的故事，許多人都會為莉香打抱不平，完治現在幸福了，那莉香怎麼辦? 沒人可以回答，因為不可憐就不是愛情故事…
最近，有許多朋友和舊愛復合，差不多有半打的人一個多月前會問我，「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」，說實在，問這問題的人，多半已經準備復合，就差那麼一點點支持…
但同一批人通常在兩個多月前會提到為什麼要分手，故事都是雷同，基本上女孩對男孩好，男孩愛理不理，說有更重要的事情在等他，不外是工作、學業、或其他女孩，基本上聽起來這份感情好像沒什麼救了…
雖然我讀過幾次劉庸的【我不是教你詐】，知道為什麼要唱和不唱分，但總是看朋友難過不過去，每次都會和朋友說，你要選擇讓自己開心…
所以當他們問「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」的時候，我會反問他們，你們之間的問題有沒有解決? 他們的答案通常是沉默，但之後會給我一個理直氣壯的答案，「但我知道我不給他機會，我一定會後悔!」，或是一副慷慨就義的樣子，「反正過一天算一天…」
我祝福他們，不妥協的愛情是可貴的，破鏡重圓不論是內咎、習慣、藉口、或是脆弱，都是值得珍惜的，因為每個人都要對自己的幸福負責!
但我還是不懂為什麼不可憐的愛情故事就不夠精采?
老掉牙的故事，許多人都會為莉香打抱不平，完治現在幸福了，那莉香怎麼辦? 沒人可以回答，因為不可憐就不是愛情故事…
最近，有許多朋友和舊愛復合，差不多有半打的人一個多月前會問我，「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」，說實在，問這問題的人，多半已經準備復合，就差那麼一點點支持…
但同一批人通常在兩個多月前會提到為什麼要分手，故事都是雷同，基本上女孩對男孩好，男孩愛理不理，說有更重要的事情在等他，不外是工作、學業、或其他女孩，基本上聽起來這份感情好像沒什麼救了…
雖然我讀過幾次劉庸的【我不是教你詐】，知道為什麼要唱和不唱分，但總是看朋友難過不過去，每次都會和朋友說，你要選擇讓自己開心…
所以當他們問「你覺得我應不應該給他機會?」的時候，我會反問他們，你們之間的問題有沒有解決? 他們的答案通常是沉默，但之後會給我一個理直氣壯的答案，「但我知道我不給他機會，我一定會後悔!」，或是一副慷慨就義的樣子，「反正過一天算一天…」
我祝福他們，不妥協的愛情是可貴的，破鏡重圓不論是內咎、習慣、藉口、或是脆弱，都是值得珍惜的，因為每個人都要對自己的幸福負責!
但我還是不懂為什麼不可憐的愛情故事就不夠精采?
9/05/2006
The silence after the storm...
I love to emcee events, to entertain a large crowd, to be part of something that is bigger...
Although being recognized right away and bonded with the crowd, the time after the events are something hard to get used to. It is hard to rid the feeling of excitement, and the sudden feeling of a little loneliness. Like the moment you left a rock concert and the morning to wake up to a monday.
Maybe the crowd was never there, or maybe they have never left...
Although being recognized right away and bonded with the crowd, the time after the events are something hard to get used to. It is hard to rid the feeling of excitement, and the sudden feeling of a little loneliness. Like the moment you left a rock concert and the morning to wake up to a monday.
Maybe the crowd was never there, or maybe they have never left...
9/01/2006
丟丟銅...
又到臺灣文化節的時候了﹐每次都會聽到丟丟銅這首歌﹐但說真的﹐聽這麼多遍﹐有二胡﹐有鋼琴﹐有歌唱﹐有其他樂器的表演﹐還是不知道歌詞...
不過它是我最愛的臺語歌﹐沒有太多的悲情味...
丟丟銅
火車行到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷磅空內。
磅空的水伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都滴落來
雙腳踏到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷台北市。
看見電燈伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都寫紅字。
人地生疏伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷來擱去。
險給黑頭伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都撞半死。
借問公園伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷對都去。
問著客人伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都我不知。
拖車走到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷拖我去。
去到公園伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都摸無錢。
拖車大哥伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷免生氣。
明年還你伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都有甲利。
大部份都是聲音﹐怪不得我不知道歌詞...
原版的丟丟銅只有第一段的七句﹐是宜蘭的民謠﹐有人說丟丟銅是一個遊戲﹐也有人說是火車過山洞的聲音﹐後人加長幾句﹐多了描寫去臺北打拼的異鄉人故事...
有人說這首歌像許多臺語歌一樣﹐有色情成份﹐不管如何﹐好聽就是好聽...
不過它是我最愛的臺語歌﹐沒有太多的悲情味...
丟丟銅
火車行到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷磅空內。
磅空的水伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都滴落來
雙腳踏到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷台北市。
看見電燈伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都寫紅字。
人地生疏伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷來擱去。
險給黑頭伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都撞半死。
借問公園伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷對都去。
問著客人伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都我不知。
拖車走到伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷拖我去。
去到公園伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都摸無錢。
拖車大哥伊都，阿末伊都丟，唉唷免生氣。
明年還你伊都，丟丟銅仔伊都，阿末伊都，丟仔伊都有甲利。
大部份都是聲音﹐怪不得我不知道歌詞...
原版的丟丟銅只有第一段的七句﹐是宜蘭的民謠﹐有人說丟丟銅是一個遊戲﹐也有人說是火車過山洞的聲音﹐後人加長幾句﹐多了描寫去臺北打拼的異鄉人故事...
有人說這首歌像許多臺語歌一樣﹐有色情成份﹐不管如何﹐好聽就是好聽...
8/25/2006
Summer of 2006
To Summer of 2006
It seems like you won't be staying, I still have to thank you before you leave.
First of all, I want to thank you for bringing in the nice weather, without the weather, everything else would have looked very differently.
Then, there is love, you have brought in and out a few chances, if it wasn't you, I probably would have no chances of meeting these people and discover what I am looking for and how I need to face them.
Although you haven't really helped me on my business side, you have introduced a few good friends, some of these friends, I know I will hangout for a long while.
As I probably won't see you again, but some of your memories I will always remember, here is a song for you...
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends Lyrics
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when Spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
It seems like you won't be staying, I still have to thank you before you leave.
First of all, I want to thank you for bringing in the nice weather, without the weather, everything else would have looked very differently.
Then, there is love, you have brought in and out a few chances, if it wasn't you, I probably would have no chances of meeting these people and discover what I am looking for and how I need to face them.
Although you haven't really helped me on my business side, you have introduced a few good friends, some of these friends, I know I will hangout for a long while.
As I probably won't see you again, but some of your memories I will always remember, here is a song for you...
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends Lyrics
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when Spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
8/14/2006
玻璃鞋
禮堂的大鍾敲了第十二下，舖著紅毯的階梯，留下仙杜拉的玻璃鞋，還有一臉錯愕的王子…
回到家中的仙杜拉，回到被繼母和姊妹使喚的生活，與王子的那個夜晚，只有她藏在衣櫃裡的一只玻璃鞋才可證明不是夢。
每當夜深人靜的時候，仙杜拉會把玻璃鞋抱在懷中，在她漆黑的小房間裡，哼著當晚的音樂，跳著當晚的華爾茲，跳著跳著，就可以離開艱苦的現實，回到當晚的情景，英俊瀟灑的王子…
有個晚上，仙杜拉在拿出那只玻璃鞋的時候，手滑了一下，玻璃鞋在地上碰斷了鞋跟，她好難過，好像她的夢破碎了一般…
她隔天把壞掉的玻璃鞋拿給隔壁的雅各看，雅各是一個鐵匠學徒，和她一樣是孤兒，也是仙杜拉至小到大的好朋友。她對雅各說出那晚的故事，她流著眼淚說，是不是幸福將離她而去，只要再看到王子一面就好，他靜靜的聽她哭訴，手裡敲敲打打沒有停下。當她低著頭，抱著手臂的時候，他用他黑黑的髒手拍拍她的肩膀，她抬頭看見雅各手中修好的玻璃鞋。
她興奮的跳起來，仔細的左看右看，只在應該斷裂的地方，看得出細細金色的痕跡。金色? 仙杜拉看雅各胸前，他母親唯一留給他的金製十字架不見了，她感動的抱著他，
「謝謝你修好我的玻璃鞋」，
他摸著她的頭，說「妳會幸福的」…
王子焦急的在王宮裡走動，他記不得了，他記不得當晚那個公主的名字，現在連長相都記不得，他只記得她那時毫不做作的表情、美麗的眼睛、她的一顰一笑… 她到底在哪裡? 他看著他手中的玻璃鞋，他不論用什麼方法都要找到它的女主人，因為當他見到她的一霎那，他就知道她將是他的公主…
王子的使者找到了仙杜拉，玻璃鞋安安穩穩的穿在她的腳上，在繼母和姊妹們的驚疑眼光下，她取出了另一只玻璃鞋。金色的痕跡在陽光下發亮，但只有她注意到。
使者隆重的把仙杜拉接回王宮，王子在階梯上迎接她的到來，她下了馬車，見到王子就害羞的低下頭… 全國上下都高興的在道路旁等待王子和他未來妻子的到來，身穿白紗的仙杜拉和王子在馬車上接受人民的讚美和祝福。人群中，她見到了他。她彎下身，雙手緊緊的握著她的摯友，雅各在她耳邊說，
「妳會幸福的」
然後，他在人群裡消失了，留下在她手中的，小小的、微溫的金製百合，代表純潔，也是她最愛的花…
王子也注意到她的不同，至那天回來之後，她變的很沉默，常常看著兩只玻璃鞋，他問了她很多次，她都只有搖搖頭，然後就抱著他，雖然是緊緊抱著，但他非常的不安。
終於，仙杜拉告訴王子，她還想著幫她修過玻璃鞋的鐵匠學徒，王子咬著下唇，帶著蒼白的臉，離開淚流滿面的她…
他選擇讓她離開，就算再不忍、再捨不得，他不恨，因為她給他帶來許多的歡樂… 在禮堂前他們擁抱，然後轉身離開，仙杜拉依依不捨的看著王子的背影，衷心的祝福他可以找到自己的幸福…
他躲在二樓石柱後，看著心愛的她低著頭走下階梯，她的雅各已經在那等他，王子流下了眼淚，輕聲的說
「妳會幸福的」…
回到家中的仙杜拉，回到被繼母和姊妹使喚的生活，與王子的那個夜晚，只有她藏在衣櫃裡的一只玻璃鞋才可證明不是夢。
每當夜深人靜的時候，仙杜拉會把玻璃鞋抱在懷中，在她漆黑的小房間裡，哼著當晚的音樂，跳著當晚的華爾茲，跳著跳著，就可以離開艱苦的現實，回到當晚的情景，英俊瀟灑的王子…
有個晚上，仙杜拉在拿出那只玻璃鞋的時候，手滑了一下，玻璃鞋在地上碰斷了鞋跟，她好難過，好像她的夢破碎了一般…
她隔天把壞掉的玻璃鞋拿給隔壁的雅各看，雅各是一個鐵匠學徒，和她一樣是孤兒，也是仙杜拉至小到大的好朋友。她對雅各說出那晚的故事，她流著眼淚說，是不是幸福將離她而去，只要再看到王子一面就好，他靜靜的聽她哭訴，手裡敲敲打打沒有停下。當她低著頭，抱著手臂的時候，他用他黑黑的髒手拍拍她的肩膀，她抬頭看見雅各手中修好的玻璃鞋。
她興奮的跳起來，仔細的左看右看，只在應該斷裂的地方，看得出細細金色的痕跡。金色? 仙杜拉看雅各胸前，他母親唯一留給他的金製十字架不見了，她感動的抱著他，
「謝謝你修好我的玻璃鞋」，
他摸著她的頭，說「妳會幸福的」…
王子焦急的在王宮裡走動，他記不得了，他記不得當晚那個公主的名字，現在連長相都記不得，他只記得她那時毫不做作的表情、美麗的眼睛、她的一顰一笑… 她到底在哪裡? 他看著他手中的玻璃鞋，他不論用什麼方法都要找到它的女主人，因為當他見到她的一霎那，他就知道她將是他的公主…
王子的使者找到了仙杜拉，玻璃鞋安安穩穩的穿在她的腳上，在繼母和姊妹們的驚疑眼光下，她取出了另一只玻璃鞋。金色的痕跡在陽光下發亮，但只有她注意到。
使者隆重的把仙杜拉接回王宮，王子在階梯上迎接她的到來，她下了馬車，見到王子就害羞的低下頭… 全國上下都高興的在道路旁等待王子和他未來妻子的到來，身穿白紗的仙杜拉和王子在馬車上接受人民的讚美和祝福。人群中，她見到了他。她彎下身，雙手緊緊的握著她的摯友，雅各在她耳邊說，
「妳會幸福的」
然後，他在人群裡消失了，留下在她手中的，小小的、微溫的金製百合，代表純潔，也是她最愛的花…
王子也注意到她的不同，至那天回來之後，她變的很沉默，常常看著兩只玻璃鞋，他問了她很多次，她都只有搖搖頭，然後就抱著他，雖然是緊緊抱著，但他非常的不安。
終於，仙杜拉告訴王子，她還想著幫她修過玻璃鞋的鐵匠學徒，王子咬著下唇，帶著蒼白的臉，離開淚流滿面的她…
他選擇讓她離開，就算再不忍、再捨不得，他不恨，因為她給他帶來許多的歡樂… 在禮堂前他們擁抱，然後轉身離開，仙杜拉依依不捨的看著王子的背影，衷心的祝福他可以找到自己的幸福…
他躲在二樓石柱後，看著心愛的她低著頭走下階梯，她的雅各已經在那等他，王子流下了眼淚，輕聲的說
「妳會幸福的」…
8/05/2006
明天的明天的明天
昨天去唱KTV，震撼的發現這首老歌就是我的寫照!
明天的明天的明天 (動力火車)
愛淹沒了你 你才抓住了我
你逗留多久 我沒有問過
痛痛哭了你 你淚濕了我
你被誰傷透 你從沒有說
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就忘了就斷了 寂寞的昨天的昨天
誰都不必道歉 只是苦會多一點
既然你愛錯了我 認錯是終點
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就算了就放了 空虛的昨天的昨天
你就在我眼前 但別再愛我一天
別看我 別愛我 別怪我 閉上雙眼
朋友留了簡訊給我，祝我找到我的幸福，我知道這個女孩一定會有勇氣陪我到明天的明天的明天...
明天的明天的明天 (動力火車)
愛淹沒了你 你才抓住了我
你逗留多久 我沒有問過
痛痛哭了你 你淚濕了我
你被誰傷透 你從沒有說
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就忘了就斷了 寂寞的昨天的昨天
誰都不必道歉 只是苦會多一點
既然你愛錯了我 認錯是終點
如果你沒勇氣陪我到 明天的明天的明天
倒不如就算了就放了 空虛的昨天的昨天
你就在我眼前 但別再愛我一天
別看我 別愛我 別怪我 閉上雙眼
朋友留了簡訊給我，祝我找到我的幸福，我知道這個女孩一定會有勇氣陪我到明天的明天的明天...
8/02/2006
那女孩對我說...
在YALETOWN的爵士樂餐廳﹐又見到天枰座的女孩﹐過了三個月﹐她看起來瘦了﹐也靜了。
她對我說過去幾個月發生的事﹐生了場大病﹐談起了她所謂的前男友。她說生了那場病讓她更正面的去對生活﹑對自己。
我想起去年的夏天﹐回臺灣時被一首黃義達的歌給轟炸﹐回到加﹐就失戀了。所以對這首歌念念不忘。
那女孩對我說
心很空 天很大 雲很重
我恨孤單 卻趕不走
捧著她的名字 她的喜怒哀樂
往前走 多久了
一個人心中只有一個寶貝
久了之後 她變成了眼淚
淚一滴在左手 凝固成為寂寞
往回看 有什麼
那女孩對我說 說我保護她的夢
說這個世界 對她這樣的不多
她漸漸忘了我 但是她並不曉得
遍體麟傷的我 一天也沒再愛過
那女孩對我說 說我是一個小偷
偷她的回憶 塞進我的腦海中
我不需要自由 只想揹著她的夢
一步步向前走 她給的永遠不重
我們的對話被臺上的吉它手打斷﹐愁愁淡淡的爵士樂﹐她看著桌上的蠟燭﹐淡淡的笑容...
我想她會遇到﹐不需要自由﹐只想揹著她的夢的男孩...
她對我說過去幾個月發生的事﹐生了場大病﹐談起了她所謂的前男友。她說生了那場病讓她更正面的去對生活﹑對自己。
我想起去年的夏天﹐回臺灣時被一首黃義達的歌給轟炸﹐回到加﹐就失戀了。所以對這首歌念念不忘。
那女孩對我說
心很空 天很大 雲很重
我恨孤單 卻趕不走
捧著她的名字 她的喜怒哀樂
往前走 多久了
一個人心中只有一個寶貝
久了之後 她變成了眼淚
淚一滴在左手 凝固成為寂寞
往回看 有什麼
那女孩對我說 說我保護她的夢
說這個世界 對她這樣的不多
她漸漸忘了我 但是她並不曉得
遍體麟傷的我 一天也沒再愛過
那女孩對我說 說我是一個小偷
偷她的回憶 塞進我的腦海中
我不需要自由 只想揹著她的夢
一步步向前走 她給的永遠不重
我們的對話被臺上的吉它手打斷﹐愁愁淡淡的爵士樂﹐她看著桌上的蠟燭﹐淡淡的笑容...
我想她會遇到﹐不需要自由﹐只想揹著她的夢的男孩...
7/28/2006
If I Were a Rich Man...
In the business of money and greed, I often wonder, what does rich mean? How rich is rich?
One of my most loved musical film when I was a child, Fiddler on the Roof (1971), has a catchy song called "If I were a rich man". The main character, Tevye, a Jewish Farmer living in Pre-revolution Russia. He is a simple character, happy but poor with a good heart, a little greedy, and with 3 daughters. The story revolves around his family and the fate of his daughters. I can see some similarities in this classic with Ang Lee's "Eat Drink Men Women".
In one scene, you see the poor farmer daydreaming, dancing in his barn, singing outloud...
If I Were a Rich Man
"Dear God, you made many, many poor people.
I realize, of course, that it's no shame to be poor.
But it's no great honor either!
So, what would have been so terrible if I had a small fortune?"
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I'd build a big tall house with rooms by the dozen,
Right in the middle of the town.
A fine tin roof with real wooden floors below.
There would be one long staircase just going up,
And one even longer coming down,
And one more leading nowhere, just for show.
I'd fill my yard with chicks and turkeys and geese and ducks
For the town to see and hear.
And each loud "cheep" and "swaqwk" and "honk" and "quack"
Would land like a trumpet on the ear,
As if to say "Here lives a wealthy man."
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I see my wife, my Golde, looking like a rich man's wife
With a proper double-chin.
Supervising meals to her heart's delight.
I see her putting on airs and strutting like a peacock.
Oy, what a happy mood she's in.
Screaming at the servants, day and night.
The most important men in town would come to fawn on me!
They would ask me to advise them,
Like a Solomon the Wise.
"If you please, Reb Tevye..."
"Pardon me, Reb Tevye..."
Posing problems that would cross a rabbi's eyes!
And it won't make one bit of difference if i answer right or wrong.
When you're rich, they think you really know!
If I were rich, I'd have the time that I lack
To sit in the synagogue and pray.
And maybe have a seat by the Eastern wall.
And I'd discuss the holy books with the learned men, several hours every day.
That would be the sweetest thing of all.
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
His view of being Rich is to have a big house, lots of animals, being fed well, being respected, and having lots of time to study. Many things haven't changed over the years, people still want to be richer than they are now. Wealth means big houses, properties, good food, respect... and maybe free time. What Tevye missed is the fact that wealth will probably not bring him happiness, although he thought it might.
Money is the necessary evil in life, it is something we have created to help us to value, to trade, but it also helped us to judge people. Not many people can see pass that...
One of my most loved musical film when I was a child, Fiddler on the Roof (1971), has a catchy song called "If I were a rich man". The main character, Tevye, a Jewish Farmer living in Pre-revolution Russia. He is a simple character, happy but poor with a good heart, a little greedy, and with 3 daughters. The story revolves around his family and the fate of his daughters. I can see some similarities in this classic with Ang Lee's "Eat Drink Men Women".
In one scene, you see the poor farmer daydreaming, dancing in his barn, singing outloud...
If I Were a Rich Man
"Dear God, you made many, many poor people.
I realize, of course, that it's no shame to be poor.
But it's no great honor either!
So, what would have been so terrible if I had a small fortune?"
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I'd build a big tall house with rooms by the dozen,
Right in the middle of the town.
A fine tin roof with real wooden floors below.
There would be one long staircase just going up,
And one even longer coming down,
And one more leading nowhere, just for show.
I'd fill my yard with chicks and turkeys and geese and ducks
For the town to see and hear.
And each loud "cheep" and "swaqwk" and "honk" and "quack"
Would land like a trumpet on the ear,
As if to say "Here lives a wealthy man."
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
I see my wife, my Golde, looking like a rich man's wife
With a proper double-chin.
Supervising meals to her heart's delight.
I see her putting on airs and strutting like a peacock.
Oy, what a happy mood she's in.
Screaming at the servants, day and night.
The most important men in town would come to fawn on me!
They would ask me to advise them,
Like a Solomon the Wise.
"If you please, Reb Tevye..."
"Pardon me, Reb Tevye..."
Posing problems that would cross a rabbi's eyes!
And it won't make one bit of difference if i answer right or wrong.
When you're rich, they think you really know!
If I were rich, I'd have the time that I lack
To sit in the synagogue and pray.
And maybe have a seat by the Eastern wall.
And I'd discuss the holy books with the learned men, several hours every day.
That would be the sweetest thing of all.
If I were a rich man,
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.
If I were a wealthy man.
I wouldn't have to work hard.
Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.
If I were a biddy biddy rich,
Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.
His view of being Rich is to have a big house, lots of animals, being fed well, being respected, and having lots of time to study. Many things haven't changed over the years, people still want to be richer than they are now. Wealth means big houses, properties, good food, respect... and maybe free time. What Tevye missed is the fact that wealth will probably not bring him happiness, although he thought it might.
Money is the necessary evil in life, it is something we have created to help us to value, to trade, but it also helped us to judge people. Not many people can see pass that...
7/26/2006
Fear
Fear is the unpleasant feeling of risk, a force that freezes your thoughts and chokes your breath. The fear of height, the fear of water, the fear of getting old, the fear of death, the fear of giving, the fear of love, the fear of being loved...
My worst fears are 1)being ordinary 2)I will never find someone who understands me in this world.
I watched "Munich" last night, taking the political discussions aside, there was one scene where one of the character told the main character.
"...You do any terrifying thing you're asked to do, but you have to do it running. You think you can outrun your fears, your doubts. The only thing that really scares you guys is stillness."
Fear is what it is, Fear. Every individuals have their ways of dealing with their own fears. Most would run away, going to another country, changing names, making new friends, going into another relationship...
It reminds me of Pac-Man. The yellow pizza-looking creature has to move around to avoid the ghosts chasing him. You can never play Pac-Man having it stationary. However, eventually, your fears will catch up with you. Then, you have no choice but to face your fear.
Do you know what your fears are? And how do you deal with them?
My worst fears are 1)being ordinary 2)I will never find someone who understands me in this world.
I watched "Munich" last night, taking the political discussions aside, there was one scene where one of the character told the main character.
"...You do any terrifying thing you're asked to do, but you have to do it running. You think you can outrun your fears, your doubts. The only thing that really scares you guys is stillness."
Fear is what it is, Fear. Every individuals have their ways of dealing with their own fears. Most would run away, going to another country, changing names, making new friends, going into another relationship...
It reminds me of Pac-Man. The yellow pizza-looking creature has to move around to avoid the ghosts chasing him. You can never play Pac-Man having it stationary. However, eventually, your fears will catch up with you. Then, you have no choice but to face your fear.
Do you know what your fears are? And how do you deal with them?
7/22/2006
小王子第八章
小王子是個寫給大人的故事，他所逛過的星球，見過的人都是大人世界天天可見的角色。小王子的第八章，有一段小王子形容他的玫瑰花...
"Je n'ai alors rien su comprendre! J'aurais dû la juger sur les actes et non sur les mots. Elle m'embaumait et m'éclairait. Je n'aurais jamais dû m'enfuir! J'aurais dû devinre sa tendresse derrière ses pauvres ruses. les fleurs sont si contradictoires! Mais j'étais trop jeune pour savoir l'aimer."
"事實上我以前什麼事情都不了解! 我應該以她的行為去做判斷，而不是只聽她所說的。她的光彩、她的香氣讓我魂牽夢繫。我當時不應該離開她的... 我應該試著去猜她影藏在花招背後的愛意。花是多麼的自相矛盾! 但我當時還太年輕，不知道如何去愛她..."
各位朋友們，看出來了嗎?
小王子說的不只是他的玫瑰，他說的是每位男性所經歷的... 愛過的那個女人...
"Je n'ai alors rien su comprendre! J'aurais dû la juger sur les actes et non sur les mots. Elle m'embaumait et m'éclairait. Je n'aurais jamais dû m'enfuir! J'aurais dû devinre sa tendresse derrière ses pauvres ruses. les fleurs sont si contradictoires! Mais j'étais trop jeune pour savoir l'aimer."
"事實上我以前什麼事情都不了解! 我應該以她的行為去做判斷，而不是只聽她所說的。她的光彩、她的香氣讓我魂牽夢繫。我當時不應該離開她的... 我應該試著去猜她影藏在花招背後的愛意。花是多麼的自相矛盾! 但我當時還太年輕，不知道如何去愛她..."
各位朋友們，看出來了嗎?
小王子說的不只是他的玫瑰，他說的是每位男性所經歷的... 愛過的那個女人...
7/21/2006
我是客家人
小時候，曾經聽見爺爺和爸爸用奇怪的語言溝通，長大之後才知道是客家話，所以我就算是客家人…
從來沒有人教過我客家話，長這麼大，只會說一句”我是神經病”，其他的全部聽不懂。但每次和朋友說我是客家人的時候，都會有以下對話:
「huh~你是客家人哦…」
「是啊~」
「來我家不要讓我爸(或媽)知道你是客家人…」
「為什麼?! 」
「他很討厭客家人」
「…」
「還有聽說嫁給客家人很可憐」
「為什麼?!」
「就很可憐，我也不知道為什麼」
經過幾次沒頭沒腦的對話，我還是不知道客家人哪裡有問題受歧視，倒是對我未來的婚姻有小小的擔憂… 嫁給我會很可憐?!
我問我爺爺幹嘛都不教我客家話，我現在連聽都不會，小小丟臉，爺爺就一直跟我講有很多名人都是客家人，不過說來說去都是一些政治人物。
沒關係，我自己上網找。
原來客家人沒有自己的省份，傳說可能是古久之前，戰亂時從北逃到南方，所以現在廣東和福建有不少客家人。我家聽說就是十一代前從廣東梅縣移民到台灣的。
客家人大概是因為沒有自己的家，所以特別重視功名，過去科舉時代，有不少客家狀元。客家人相信從政或在政府工作是最揚眉吐氣的事。怪不得我爸那邊，全都在政府工作，還都很會唸書，而我爺爺每次看到我還一直叫我考試唸書…
另外，客家的女性在以前是需要下田工作的，所以很多人都說客家女人非常刻苦耐勞，反之，客家男性就顯得很大男人，現代的客家女人不只要工作，家務也要照顧，因為客家男人是不管的。(這是真的，我從來沒有看過我爺爺伯伯下廚煮飯給任何人吃，我想幫奶奶姑姑還都會被罵) 怪不得有人說嫁給客家人很可憐…
客家人很節省，能省就省，能反覆使用的就反覆使用，但我覺得我媽比我爸省多了，雖然我媽不是客家人。但我覺得這是我最客家的地方，對自己是很刻的，非常小氣芭樂，買自己的東西，可能要在心中三審，三審後又否決，但買給女朋友的東西就很啊莎力。有位朋友說我這種人真犯賤，只有女朋友的時候才會去高級餐廳，平常在家就吃泡麵…
從來沒有人教過我客家話，長這麼大，只會說一句”我是神經病”，其他的全部聽不懂。但每次和朋友說我是客家人的時候，都會有以下對話:
「huh~你是客家人哦…」
「是啊~」
「來我家不要讓我爸(或媽)知道你是客家人…」
「為什麼?! 」
「他很討厭客家人」
「…」
「還有聽說嫁給客家人很可憐」
「為什麼?!」
「就很可憐，我也不知道為什麼」
經過幾次沒頭沒腦的對話，我還是不知道客家人哪裡有問題受歧視，倒是對我未來的婚姻有小小的擔憂… 嫁給我會很可憐?!
我問我爺爺幹嘛都不教我客家話，我現在連聽都不會，小小丟臉，爺爺就一直跟我講有很多名人都是客家人，不過說來說去都是一些政治人物。
沒關係，我自己上網找。
原來客家人沒有自己的省份，傳說可能是古久之前，戰亂時從北逃到南方，所以現在廣東和福建有不少客家人。我家聽說就是十一代前從廣東梅縣移民到台灣的。
客家人大概是因為沒有自己的家，所以特別重視功名，過去科舉時代，有不少客家狀元。客家人相信從政或在政府工作是最揚眉吐氣的事。怪不得我爸那邊，全都在政府工作，還都很會唸書，而我爺爺每次看到我還一直叫我考試唸書…
另外，客家的女性在以前是需要下田工作的，所以很多人都說客家女人非常刻苦耐勞，反之，客家男性就顯得很大男人，現代的客家女人不只要工作，家務也要照顧，因為客家男人是不管的。(這是真的，我從來沒有看過我爺爺伯伯下廚煮飯給任何人吃，我想幫奶奶姑姑還都會被罵) 怪不得有人說嫁給客家人很可憐…
客家人很節省，能省就省，能反覆使用的就反覆使用，但我覺得我媽比我爸省多了，雖然我媽不是客家人。但我覺得這是我最客家的地方，對自己是很刻的，非常小氣芭樂，買自己的東西，可能要在心中三審，三審後又否決，但買給女朋友的東西就很啊莎力。有位朋友說我這種人真犯賤，只有女朋友的時候才會去高級餐廳，平常在家就吃泡麵…
客家人有根深蒂固的家庭觀念，父母的話唯命是從。我爸以前睡覺打呼被我媽抱怨十幾年，都沒怎樣，和我爺爺出遊一次，同樣被抱怨，兩個月後就去做手術，雖然我爺爺打呼大聲多了…
看著看著，發現自己還真不客家，許多觀點都很不一樣，只有長大後才慢慢了解，有很多東西我都不能接受。所以，我是客家人，但我還蠻不客家的…
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