As matter of Exs...

Last night, I had a nice dinner with a few friends at home. When I was reading some fashion magazines from TW. I heard one of my friend said, “shhhh… he can hear us...”

Not trying to be paranoid, but I was the only person not involved in the conversation.

“Okay, what were you guys talking about?”
“Er… we were just talking about which of your Exs suits you the best…”

That was interesting, even though they were all history; I definitely wanted to know what everyone thinks!

”Well, I think Ms. A is the most suited as far as personality, you guys are both out going and sociable, you are very compatible.” said Mr. B, the graphic designer.
“Really? Other than the fact that she can’t determine what she wants to do?”
“I think Ms. N is the best for him, she was nice, quiet and very housewife type, probably balance out his life better.” said Ms. J, the marketing entrepreneur.
“Ya… and she is currently married with a kid…”
“I think Ms. C is the most suitable one, you two look good together.” said Mr. A, the usually quiet professional photographer.
“Right… because we took salon pictures together?”
“I think Ms. L (not herself) is pretty, why do you like her again?” asked Ms. L, the real estate agent.

Me: er… (trying to think…)
Ms. J: If you have to think, then you don’t really like her.
Me: hm… (trying to think… with a smile on my face)
Ms. L: That’s right! You don’t like her.
Me: Did you guys know we have the same birthday?
Mr. B: No way…
Ms. J: So you are saying you have similar personalities?
Me: Ya… but we use different parts of our brains, I am the rational one, she is the artistic one.
Mr. A: She uses right brain, you use left brain.
Me: And, without going into details, with her family situation, she is the person I really want to protect and share her burdens.
…. (everyone)
Ms. L: Hey, what about Ms. R I introduced you the other day? Isn’t she pretty?
Ms. J: I don’t think he is interested… (others echoed)
Me: Well, she is very pretty, but I don’t think I am ready to be in a relationship yet. Let me rest a little first.
………... (everyone)

I couldn’t remember how the conversation ended, but I think it was a discussion about how I spoil my girls, and how I will get a trophy wife at home, she doesn’t even have to work after I get married. And of course, about how I would eat McDee everyday when single, but nice meals with girlfriends.

I couldn’t sleep last night, I couldn’t help to think, to think about how each relationship started and ended. Some started romantic, some started passionate, some ended with understanding, and some ended with a lame phone call. They are all very different, but they are all very independent in their own ways…

The only person who was involved in all these was me. Have I changed over the years? I think I have. I understand more, I care more. Most importantly, I think I know what type of girl I really want.

Have I changed the way I love? Probably not, as a few friends pointed out, I jumped into a relationship too quickly; fell in love too quickly, without making sure if others can return the same feelings.

I agree with the above statement. Some people go into relationship with extreme cautions because they don’t want to get hurt, and they will run at the first sign of trouble. I have to admit that I am quite picky when choosing a girl, but once in a relationship, I would pour in my feelings without reservation, hoping to receive something back.

That is why I still get burnt, no matter how long a relationship lasts. But without hesitation, I would do the same again. Like what I have heard before, “Work like you don’t need the money, Love like you haven’t been hurt before, and Dance like no one is looking.”

Would I change the way I love? No dear, I won’t!