Being Ambitious or being ordinary...

One of my biggest fear in life is being ordinary, being normal.

When I was growing up, unfortunately, I was pretty normal and medicore. In Taiwan, a kid's success was judged by how well you do at school, from grade 1 to 10, I was always the 10-15th out of the 40 ppl class. When I came to Canada, I was doing Bs in high school. And in University, when I graduated, I pulled a 3.12 GPA, so a B student.

There was a joke I learnt in school, A students will become professors, C students will become CEOs, and B students will work for C students. I don't want to be that B student forever!

Today, I was reading the latest Time magazine, it talks about how ambitious and success people were brought up. Basically, they were brought up in an environment that encourages competitiveness.

Time mentioned something interesting regarding the wolfs, "... Even before wolf pups are weaned, they begin sorting themselves out into alphas and all the others. The alphas are quicker, more curious, greedier for space, milk, Mom- and they stay that way for life. Alpha wolves wander widely, breed annually and may live to a geriatric 10 or 11 years old. Lower-ranking wolves enjoy none of these benefits-staying close to home, breediing rarely and usually dying before they're 4..."

So, if humans are known to show their ambitious when they were young, I think I have missed the train... Or is it?

Still, I think I have been pushing myself to do more things. Every year, especially before my birthdays, I always get the feeling that I am still ordinary, I still haven't achieved enough to be barely unordinary. I think in a way, I am still maturing, maybe finding a way to be that alpha male...