The real reasons why I came back...

Many friends had asked me, why now, why April, why come back to Taiwan? Especially I was only back here 10 months ago.

The reasons? That question has bothered me all thru the flights, I haven't really been thinking about that question, I thought that question was easy enough, I needed a vacation...

Was it really? At first, I thought I needed the trip to confront with my Zahir, my obessession, my obessession with relationship, or my obessession trying to understand a relationship. When that opportunity did not arrive, I got a little lost, but I knew back in March, I need to get away, for just a little while.

I was pretty tired, haven't had decent sleep for months, stressed from work, from the organizations I am participating in, from relationships (or lack of), from social engagements... things I was so fond of have ganged up on me. But I had to hold on, as I need to maintain my calm, as it is my character to be completely zen...

However, why do I have to justisfy myself? Isn't needing a break something shameful to admit?

Then, I realized, yesterday, I was ready again to embrace new experiences in my life, when I landed HK, for the first time, a place where I have always wanted to visited, although it was only a transfer, I knew I wanted to experience more of "the first time"s in my life, like the first time I will be visiting my grandparents at their new place, the first I will be staying in HK, meeting that friend in HK for the first time, seeing my best buddy's son for the first...

I know, for a fact, when I go back to the place I belong, back to the things I love to do, I will embrace them much more, because of these new experiences, I will...